Just back from chalet, not feeling well, shall continue later

MY PACE ~

Today went to causeway to shop and buy present.
Went to Cotton On to buy clothes. Spent about $80 plus.
Then theres Sesame Street performance at causeway.



Very funny, alot of kids kinda attracted to this

Tml chalet le, still haven packed. Half excited half worry.
Scare I will be left out.
I think i am gonna pack now. Cya !

Break to build, built to break.

Went to ball again today.
Damn tired.
My legs injuries is getting worst. And my previous wound has not yet healed completely which I thought it had. .
Then it bled again, have problems walking.

I want to be strong, so I can protect my friends and my own pride.
So recently I have been working out.
Bla..

Yesterday night, the flyers de driver called me at about 11.30 pm to ask me go down collect my pay.
Lol.

I told myself, after the chalet, I must start to do all my homework le.
Had fun in the past one month and its time to start le.
Even though I didnt realy had fun but .. I will just tell myself I had some bloody "fun"

Met the same sore losers again on the court.
Bloody hell, dont wanna elaborate on it.

Very tired, had enough rest but still very tired.

Tml going out alone to buy presents and clothes.

Hope my secret surprise plan work out fine.

Dunno why but I have a very bad feeling about the chalet, suddenly.
My intuition is working again..
Omg, whats going to happen?

Going off to train.

The feeling is like no other.
This is it, I told myself, but for her, is this it?
This is freaking one-sided random for her.
I kept telling myself to think positively when all the odds are against.
I told myself nothing is impossible, Im freaking lying to myself, but the other side of me just hoped, he can lie his way through.
The feeling is damn fuck up when you cares for her while she dont even cares.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
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I created this post to thank a particular person.

Thanks Hui Shi for being the only one to visit my blog...

Thanks...man...

Hi.
Today is a very ... day.
I quarreled with my flyers boss.
he just kept delaying and delaying my pay for 3 weeks le.
So i kp him first.
He said: erm. I think I can only give you on monday. Monday I call my driver give you.

I : Cant Monday cant, Monday I not free, I want it today no matter what. You kept delaying and delaying for so long le.

He: Call my driver

I: Why must i call him?

Then he called me: JUST CALL MY DRIVER LA! The pay with him, ask him give you.

I: I called le but he never pick up.

He: JUST CALL LA!

F***er, I never raise my voice first he go raise his first. Actually he already have my pay le, he just keep delaying for no mother reasons.
But i sent the kp message to him because i really cant stand it le, he might think i am just a kid so he dont have to scare of me etc. I dunno. But I have to show him i am no pushover. . . ):
He delayed for f** 3 weeks le leh. Plus next week i got chatlet, so i wont be free, and, I need that money.

Called the driver, he say he today not free, work till very late, might not be able to pass me, lastest tml...
Hopeless sia.
He said he might give me today but will be quite late.
I need the money to buy present, please...

ARGH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My favorite basketballer coming back from free agent or rather retirement and will be going to Sixers to play (:
Happy to know his back! (:
Allen Iverson (:

Yo.
Today went to get pay at Northpoint.
About $240 plus.
Then went to buy clothes at Bugis Street.
Train-ed there.

When I reached there and left the Mrt place then suddenly a guy tapped my shoulder. I was shocked, I thought I had dropped something again. -.-
Then he asked if I am interested in modeling etc,
he por me say what you very handsome blabla.
And he said the pay is about $800- $1000 for just 2 days !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMG ~
But he seems very interested in me as he asked for my contacts but I dunno whether he will contact me anot. Hope so...
So fun and exciting seh.. (;
Then he passed me his card.

This is how messy my stuffs are ! They are alot of things buried below, my holiday homeworks are also inside!

Back to the topic!
Went to Bugis Junction and then walk around and wait for Thiam hock to come.
Went to iluma walk walk.
Then when Thiam Hock reached, accompany him go buy clothes, give him suggestions etc.
Total, I spent $120++ that day.
LOL. I dunno why i spent so much seh, I buy little things leh.

Tml maybe getting my flyers pay eventually!!!!!!!!! They say this coming Friday thy will give me, they had already delayed for 3 weeks le ~~
If they delay again I am going to scold them le !! Wahaha ~

I miss her.
Every post, i must write this.
Because this the fact !
I tried very very hard to think about her, because i dunno why, when i think of her, i felt pain...

Hi.
Hate it, being woke up by construction work early in the damn morning for continuously 2 days.
Damn.
Went for CCA today. Played basketball.
So tired.
Went home, watched Bleach, then slept. Woke up, ate dinner, watched Bleach, now about to sleep..
Tml going to get my pay. Damn little, damn. . :X
But at least I have enough for my secret plan (;

And, I still haven get my flyers de pay. Damn la, delay 2 weeks le.

I really need money le..
hope they will call me tml.
I am wondering if I never call them then they wont even bother to pay me le.

And I received a letter from dunno where, to collected something hopefully money (:
Right before my birthday ! Jan 16 !! LOL
I was shocked (:

HELLO IF YOU SEES THIS PLEASE TAG OKAY? i WANT TO SEE IF THERE ARE ANYMORE PEOPLE VISITING MY BLOG~~

Hi.
Tml have CCA.
Woo...
Feels like giving up. On?
Everything. .

Hai.. Being random to hide my emotions.
Currently watching NBA highlights..because i dot have TNT channel, so i couldnt watch the whole game, I can only watch the highlights of the match ):

I miss her.

Hello I'm back!
Hope my birthday come fast !!
17.01.94
My 16th birthday. (:
So fast leh. About a month later?
Then i am gonna find a real job ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Which I likes and got good pay.

Hell ya

November 30 Monday

Yo, today went to basketball.
With all my current injuries I felt like an idiot to not let them heal first.
After today, I will give ball a rest and also give myself rest (:
Left Shoulder injuried.
Hate it. Just move around hurts, damn...
And my waist is injured.
And I am too tired to play.
So rest (:

Yaya and today i went to play ball.
And then i played with some gangsters. Then wa...its like.. when they lost they'll throw tantrum one ! LOL. Like girl.
Sore losers ~ Because I kept owning them (:
Then their face turned black.

SO BORED ~ Can die at home !
Felt like going out tml..But its so hard to gather people !
Miss Eighteen Chef, used to go there when I was a kid.
No la just kidding (:
Used to go there almost everyday with friends to eat. I missed the taste of the cheese baked rice )):
I WANNA GO ~~

Currently tuning myself to the homework-mood.
I had forgotten almost everything.
Start from the beginning? LOL sure !
Now planning for my friend's birthday.
I hope i can give my friends great birthday surprise...
Because what i dont have, i hope others will have.
But in the end all the ideas I thought of is like ten year series ideas.

I'm random (:

I missed her.
Dammit. Hah..
I miss her. How ah?
How ?
What? Where? When?

November 30 Monday

I took this picture by myself, plus, 100% no photoshop etc, because i also dunno how to use it !
Isnt this picture nice?
Sunset + After rain + Wet Floor + My old ball = Good picture (:

Today went to buy brunch all by myself, so bored, last night slept at 3 am, then woke up at 12pm, then ate at 2.45pm.
Dunno why but somehow couldnt help it but felt very lonely :x

Yesterday went to play ball with Raynor and Ryan.
My legs injuries are getting worst, haha, because i didnt even give it a day rest. (:
When I realised how bad my injuries had gotten, a deep scar on my toe, and I meant DEEP !
Then my slippers are stained with blood.

Random : Wondering is there anyone who is still visiting my blog?

Homeworks not done, dunno when will touch it.
I felt so so empty leh, i dunno why I felt so, I want to be filled with something.

Yesterday, couldnt sleep, keep thinking of her,

ALL MY ONSUGAR RECENT POSTS !

HELLO BECAUSE I AM SWITCHING BACK TO BLOGGER SO I DECIDED TO POST SOME OF MY ONSUGAR POST HERE.

NOV 27

Hi.Went out with Larry today. Went to look for WeiLing, then go eat, then go ball. On the way saw Stella and Cecelia. So we ball together lo.Played like hell. Damn fun, total ownage (;Lets not talk about this.I want to talk about her (: HAha.I like her.But I couldnt any chance to talk to her. Its always treated as random. Why?I dont want it to be random...what must I do?I want to know how is she doing, what has she being doing, alot of things la !!So useless..dunno what to do.

NOV 26

YO~

So happy man, i quitted my job because of basketball.Actually i am not used to be tied down by scehdule, or rather I cant be !

Because of this job, i cant play basketball and my skills greatly deproved, its so saddening.

And I am a freebird !! I cant be locked in that hell-like place, its not good for my health!

But however, i did made some great friends there, I really felt very sad because I wont see them anymore, and our bond is already so strong, even stronger than some of my classmates (:

And that auntie i knew there was so good too (: Everytime when theres no customer then i will go to her and chit chat with her, or sit down together in a group and together. Then Shao will be emo-ing and looking at his hand, while the rest of us are talking. Too bad we didnt took group photos..

And, that job has one shitty boss! F*** him ! His using all kinds of dirty, evil, childish methods to get rid of us so his friends can come and work...i will forever remember his F*** king *** %@%@#@%@#%@#%@#%#@ face!!!!!!!!!

Long live basketball !!

NOV 24

The job for today was fine, at least better than yesterday..But, every time i sacrifice my basketball for work I really felt very bad and saddening...from this i learnt that, to sacrifice is to gain.

But i have 12 more days to ta han, then after that straight away is chatlet le, then after chatlet five days later have to start work again..

Basketball...hai...

Keep thinking of playing it, even though i am working, i always imagine i am having a ball at my hand and i am dribbling it (:

HAHA~~

But today at work is abit slacky, keep chatting around and joking around..today time flys faster than yesterday.

I kept thinking of her ):

But i really have to work to earn enough money for... " ...."

Thats why!! Hai...

How, what should I do?

Another day, wasted.

Hello, Yo, tml working le ! Damn worried and scare I might not do well and afraid that i might be too tired..
Because the work time starts from 10am to 10 pm plus..and it continues on for like 14 days? Omg...
Means no more playing of XBOX 360 and no more basketball...
Thinking of not having enough time to play basketball really *** me alot.
So tired, felt like taking a nap, just woke up few hours ago then go to sleep again -.-
Maybe later at night going out to shopping for clothes or shoes to wear tml...
Nowadays, I am addicted to 我猜, when I watched it, it never fails to make to laugh my ass off.
Hah...
Its funny...yah...
Really look forward to chatlet, but I am afraid I am too tired, and I couldnt balance the whole cycle.
My current life consists of : working, basketballing, playing computer, using XBOX 360, watching tv, going out.
My end result when school is about to open will be : studying, studying, studying, PLUS working, basketball, xbox 360.
Maybe there will be some other things...like love? Haha..

I hate myself now to let the day past without even thinking about my assignments and project, and when I think of it, I rather not (:

Hello. Just gotten my pay for distributing flyers today (:
The feeling is so awesome when i receive the raw money on my hands.
I worked hard for it.
Actually today supposed to go school to play basketball but was lazy and i slept (;

i want to be more mature so i can take care of my friends

Be awed by the power of reailty ! Face it, and be striked by it head on.

Its nice to be important but its important to be nice

YOO ~
YA i gotten into thru train (:
I feel like reviving my blog becos my life is turning better (:
And i have just gotten my xbox 360 after alot of hardship ):

And we are going swimming tml at jurong swimming complex!
Wo ~ was looking towards that day !

And wei tao chatlet is arounf the corner (:

WO ~

Haha

Just point form, maybe i changing my blog to onsugar, blogspot skin is very old -.- and old dated

Today, had a poa workshop, its fun man (:
haha. Really great !
After that rush home to get money to buy xbox ! (:

haha, i bought a game call Fear 2. Damn scary ):

Thats all i can thought of (:

Hello.
I finally blogged !
Haha
Something inside me told me to blog to mark this particular day.
Because the result i am not blogging is because theres nothing special happenin my life.

HAi..Mr Tan said that the 3N class will be split into 3... Hell no.
What about our friends in the class, we dont want to be splited...

What about all the bonds we made and created, all the hardship we been thru together..
Sian..they just dont understand.

Long time no post le.
Cya !

Hello
today i chiong finish englsih compo and everything :D
I am proud i ensure through everything (:

Wow, its cool ((:
Hope one day i can dance like them (:
HAHA !!

I kept telling myself not to give up, its not over, be strong.
But i just cant do it alone, if i dont bulk up now i will surely be dead.

I just dunno.
Being alone sucks.

Yo.
Holidays sure are boring...
With loads of homework.
Just adds on to everything.

I had been thinking lately, a lot.
i dunno... what should i do.
If i tell her everything will be over, our friendship.
I bet.

But if i dont tell her i am suffering inside of me.
I have no one to depend on except for her.
I just dunno.

Not in a mood.
Anyway i dont think i deserve, I just dont deserve it.
I am far too . .
I couldnt concentrate on my studies.
I have lost all my strengths, my previous glory will be for nothing i knew if i gave up.
I am tired. Ya, tired.
I bet no one cares, lucky i still have blogger (:
"It" cares. It always does, even it doesnt feels like. Like my slave :D

Because i am not in a good mood...
I will always go play basketball.
Usually after balling i will feel better, much much better. But this time I'd felt no difference.
What is it with me?

GOD ~~ Where are you ?? You spoke to me once, what now ?

Oh just woke up.
Got 2 parts of dream. 1st part is happy, 2nd part is tiring. But i forgot both le (:

But its nice to have dreams, becos those dreams are exaggerating and i dont think it will happen in real life.
Its glad.
Yesterday had a great time.

I think i got dreamed of her -.-...

Yo.
Today went to study with Xiang rong and taught her POA. I had a hard time teaching her -.-
Cos when i taught her halfway then we will chat then it will go on and on...

I hope she had learnt something? Must have ba.
I spent like few hours? Haha.

Yo.
Still waiting for cai hong to post the pictures to facebook.
Yesterday was fun :D

We went to some steam boat place to eat.
Then we pour alot of food inside it then the whole steamboat is soaked and wasted -, -
Then got the char da smell.
After that we played a game, that game is a game which is something like a game, kinda different, but eventually its still just a game. Some might think its not a game, but its a game and its fun.

So i call the game " The Game"
Nice name ya?
Thanks.

Ok back to the topic, we played "The Game" and i kept losing then theres some kind of punishment but i am kinda a sole loser -. - When i lost, i dont dare to accept the punishment.
Thats the true spirit and a good example for all !! (:

Then Xiang rong's shoe spoilt :X
So we immediately proceed to bugis street to buy shoe for her.
She was having trouble to walk and we are all very impatient to get to Bugis Street.
Then when we are crossing the road, a taxi just drove JUST infront of me !!!!!!!!!!!!
Ya and i meant just, its just infront of me.
Luckily, Jasmine hold me and pull me back -. - ""

So we bought and walked around Bugis Street...


TO BE CONTINUED....

After carrying those stacks of impossible books home, my arms and fingers became so so so numb -.-

Chinese A2
Computer.S A1
English Lang U
Math 3
Science 3
Combined Humans 2
Poa 1
LOl
My score card very nice sia

Two A1, two A2, two 3, fail english... damn sad...

I like Xishan alot.
Its somewhere like a home, unlike YishunTown, dont feel a sense of belonging at Yishuntown.

"this is home truly, where i know i must be, this is where, i wont be alone, for this is where i know, i am home !! " extract from home (:
HAha. I wont forget this song, every national day we will sing as a whole (:
But now, it cant be experienced anymore :X
Thats why, every year i will and must go BACK !!!

Ha, mrs Sam still remembers me ! Happy happy (:
3 yrs never saw her le ):
Glad. I saw her, she was just about to drive home.
I had alot of deep thoughts there.

We sneak into music room, the smell still never change. So unforgettable. And the computer lab too.
We then inflitrated into math room, art room, ad walk inside very deep. Too bad the library is closed.

Then we sneaked back to our class (:
we took lift to the 6 floor.
Where our classrooms are.
It so well decorated.
Its so touching. My childhood memories. Are all just coming back.
Missed the tables and chairs and all the structures there.
Hope i can go back and study there again.

Rememebering the times when me and my friends are punished, the fear inside us, it seems as though we had spent very part of our life there and experinced everything there.
Love, fear, tears, treasuring, caring, sharing etc..

Yo.
Today is teacher's day !!
Haha. I said happy teacher's day to mrs phua she replied good morning :X
Performance was not bad.
After that went to eat with Xiang Rong and Cai Hong at food court.
Talked about alot of things.
Then later when going to watch movie le then saw huishi and she joined us go watch movie (:
"The Proposal" was the movie we watched.
The movie was great but theres a weird person sitting beside me -.-
I was quite scared. Got a weird smell coming from there and she kept laughing so exaggeratingly.
Whatever.
The movie was great.
After that went back to Xishan with Hui shi then met Ang.
She was late -.=""

The security is so strict at the gate as they dont want to let us pass.
The previous year was also strict, its like its stricter every year.
Then suddenly is began to rain heavily. Waited in the rain. Damn stupid lo.
Then was totally drenched in the end managed to get in.




The middle is my favorite teacher (: Which is call mr neo.



The rest below is random of my favorite places (:














corridor


View from upstairs




MY class locker





Ang, huishi and me (;



Beside me is the retard (: Hehe dont scold me if you sees this -.-...

Ang and Huishi









Sentosa (:






Jonathan classic slacking in class






Mrs Wong got sorethroat

Hi
i now at my primary school using the computer to blog (:
i miss my primary school (:

Hi
i now at my primary school using the computer to blog (:
i miss my primary school (:

Hello (:

I went to search for some lame photos, when ever you progress, you must never forget who you are, i am lame. and that will never change (: Take it or leave it.

Today went to play basketball, played with some very violent adults. And when i was fighting for the rebound with a big guy then he hit me from behind and i fall straight to the ground ):
He was very big size and my leg bleed.

CLICK TO VIEW !!!!!! Mr zhuo's camera very power !!
All the pictures that he had taken, one picture's memory space is 6 mb plus !!
It is equal to a song -.-
And his picture is so big size de, resize le blogger still can only portrait half of it. -.-

Hi.
My Blogger posting got some problems -.-
ok nvm it doesnt affect much.

Ok. Since the day i posted my last post, since that day i felt better and better (;
Like more people come talk to me, congrats me etc.
thanks (:

I really felt very happy that i have got such a good result for POA, Geog and SS.
For Poa, i was pretty confident but not for geog and ss.
During the Geog and SS test, i wasnt very confident so i did it half heartedly -.- so i was surprised, flabbergasted, that i was top for SS and Geog :DD

Poa : 92/100
Geog : 10/12
SS : 12/18
Hehe (:

But something just stop me from being happy; my English result.
I am really really felt regretful for my own English and i dont know why; regret.
I was very confident when i was doing the paper i know i will do well. What went wrong?
Was i too confident???
I kept trying to pledge teacher for some marks in every single way; like when the answer is very close, but my marks still nvr change. 33/80
Its too far from passing. . .
FAr.

but my poa and geog and ss really make me feel better, sort of like they seems to be trying to console me... -.-
my poa marks was damn high and i was damn high too when i gotten my marks. I was really really happy when i gotten my marks...

But...hai.

My conclusion. "dont compare yourself with others, you are just insulting yourself that you can be compare with others."


Math :27/35
English : 33/80
Physics : 19/30
Chemistry : 17.5/30
Mt : 28/40
Comp.S : 1000/1000000 :D -.-""

.
Today got back english paper.
I failed.

hai, i felt as though my life had been altered. Or just someone had cursed me.
doing alot of things i don want to do, and alot of things supposed to be done not done.

I was very confident in my english paper but in the end i failed );
I dunno what i should do le.
I know that there will be some one laughing at my failure...

Yesterday i didnt go to school.
Most of the people didnt even realise i am gone, thats just show how significant i am.

I had try so hard to be a friend but in the end, it just doesnt worked out.

Was very sad today.

Thanks marie junhao and minqi for coming over to console me (:
thanks, i know they will nvr see this but this is the time when true friends appear and fake friends emerged, its easily able to divide them.
Thanks for caring (:

I am always alone, and i dunno why, everytime i want to join into the group, i just felt like i am an outcast.
And when i tried talking to people, even though they are just beside me, i have to call them 5 times then they will hear me or after i talked to them, they never even bother to reply and just looked away.
I just felt so bad coming to school everyday, really very sad, it just crush my already-gone confidence. For those who want to know why i never come on tues, hoping there are some who wants to know, its bvecause i don wan to face them. I felt like an idiot, a fool, just sitting there talking to myself. I am pathetic, laugh at me.

So tired.

Yesterday slept at 1 plus...
I went to bed at 10 but couldnt sleep ):

So tired. Felt so defeated :X

Tml maybe not going to school..

My primary school song !! (:

Missed it.


Stand up for Xishan
Never must we let her down
Shine with glory as the bright sun
Fame and honour crown*



May we always find excellence
Through the winds of change
Love and care and share our reliance
Steadfastly unchanged



Be true, Xishanites!
And be worthy of our name
Constantly we strive for great heights
Lead Xishan to fame



Brain and brawn must have a ballast
This must be our aim
Always invoke them and hold fast
Till our goals attained




(Repeat *)

I forgot how to sing it le.

You're not gonna them till they are gone

Haha, my basketball have really improve alot. thank god my physical training not in vein.
i can palm the backboard le. Just half a palm more to surprise all those giraffes (:

then when just about to win i sprained my leg and we lost :X

then have to drag my leg back home. and then saw marcus on the way. Actually when playing basketball already saw him le.

Yo.

What thiam hock said is right. Thanks thiam. (:
Quite meaningful.
Even though if you are sad, the day still goes on, even though you are happy, the day just goes on. So we can choose how we want to live everyday.
I think that life is made up every single little choices we made in our life. Every choice will surely lead you to somewhere, if it dont, that means you had made the wrong choice.

Rumors, why cant people live without rumors, the most important thing is that they are all coward which is the funniest clinical nonsense. Why dont dare to just walk to person and tell that person.?? If you are a coward, then dont hide behind people's shadow and talk bad about people !! For god's sake. And i know its very easy to struck out a rumor, but i dont want to (:
Hehe.

Today, went to play basketball and sprained my ankle, again. -.-
But i was happy with my ultimate performance. :D

Dunno what to blog le, before had alot on mind but when i wanted to blog, then couldnt think of anything.

If you enjoyed your primary school years, you'll do it.
If you have nothing else to do, you'll do it.
If you're here to read the questions/answers and pretend to hate to do it, deep down you'll still do it.

1) Which school did you go to?
Xishan Primary School :P

2) What classes were you in?
1A,2B,3D,4D,5B,6B

3) What was/were your favourite lesson(s)?
PE, with my fav pe teacher ): miss him.

4) If you could remember, what time was your recess?
9 plus ba? Keep changing de.

5) List down your favourite food/snacks.
The rice there wit the egg de black sauce plus a drumstick (: I ate the same food for the whole primary 5 year, so i dont know the other store that well (:

Style
1) Did you have a nickname way back in primary school?
Sia la, got damn loads, got Mr Low, Low, lzh, female ghost and loads loads more (:

2) How did you wear your socks?
I tried to copy others to wear ankle socks :P

3) Have you been suspended due to the way you put on your uniform?
No, just being punished to stand outside the principal office only.

4) Were you given plenty of reminders about your appearance?
Have, some? Class photos, year photo, etc...

5) Who did you look up to when you were in primary school?
I looked up to anyone. I Had ALOT ALOT OF friends, seems like anyone in the level is my friend (:
Andi have made some friends from other lower level because i was very random friendly -.-

Punishment
1) Name one memorable scene where you were punished in front of the whole class.
I always talk alot, so punished because of it. But i am considered obedient, well liked by teachers (:

3) Give one scene where you escaped from being caught/punished.
Couldnt remember leh, i was quite a coward when young and dont dare to own up mistakes but eventually i will own up so never escape (:

4) Did you vandalize any school property?
Tables?

5) Did you ever make any teacher cry?
The whole class did, and the teacher ran out agitatedly.

6) Who was your favourite teacher in primary school?
Mrs Ko and MR NEO (: Mr Neo is my life's most favorite teacher, till now every year i will go back and visit him and he still remembers me ...): Touched .

7) Describe your DM..
Stiff.

8) Who was the funniest/weirdest/loudest teacher?
not mine but my friend's class de chinese teacher, who was being called "boss" threw chairs at students de, damn fierce and scary. -.-
Social Circle
1) Were you popular back then?
YAAA ~~ DUH ?? Need to explain ?? So obvious !! -.- BHB. but its because i was very friendly though (:

2) Were you in a big group of boys/girls or small ones?
Big groups of boys and sometimes girls.

3) Who were your best friends?
jun long, elton, mu feng, kok chuen, vivian gui, clarice, samuel, fali, yusri, daniel, sheqin, seri, (shit i am going to forget my good friends' name le :P ) desmond, han xiang,shu yi, iris, gladys, geok ting, zi hao, arraon, presan huishi? got alot la ! couldnt rmb :P

4) Did you and your friends have nicknames?
Neh.

5) What were your favourite memories of you and your friends?
When during the NDP !!! When different singapore songs were played and some was so touching that we cried -.- then we will go to our negihbour school, yishun town, to celebrate our ndp together.
And when our teacher didnt come to school and we have to spilt class, the class will be spilt into diffrent grouos and go to other classes. Fun man !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Co-curricular Activities
1) What CCAs were you in?
HAHA :D

2) What did you have to bring to your CCA?
:D

3) What did your CCA require you to do?
:D

4) Got injured?
run and fall -.-


Crushes/Lovers
1) Who was your first crush?
HAHA, first was a malay girl -.- when i was in pri 1 -.- definitely, i was blind :X

2) Are you in good terms with your last crush?
Last crush? i remembered that when the last car almost crushed me then i had a pretty good fight with the driver, why should i be in good terms with that crush? It almost took my life :DDDDDDD
Ok..it pretty lame :X

3) Did you ever had a relationship with anyone in your primary school?
NOPE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

4) Have you ever made out in school?
We were still pure at that time. Like things like pure bio etc in secondary school. -.-

Closing Ceremony
1) How did primary school change you?
It made me realised alot alot of things, life matters, handling dangerous life threatening, teeth biting, hands shaking, head aching situation.

2) Sing one verse of your school song.
dont remeber le !!

3) What was your favourite question?
Why ah?


4) Who/what will you remember from your primary school?
Those who made my six years of primary school life memorable. We may not be as close now, but still, thank you. And those punishment we had with my friends, fun times, mischeivous time, defiant times, all those times we had, its wonderful, cool, exciting, none but the best (:

5) Any memories you will not forget.
Graduation day. Was called up the stage for fashion cat walk -.-
the teacher say i look like a taiwan singer (: oh thanks (:

Looking for my fear, why doesnt i fear anything ?

I hope that i have the power to make people smile when i looked into their eyes and smile at them.

We mustnt blame other factors for our own failure.

Growing is a process, growing can be a goal, yet someone just doesnt grow.

Loser look back to the past and regret and regret over the things they had done wrong and cry over it but winners look back at the past for mistakes they had made and amend from it.

Dont cry over the past, you dont have the power to control the past but you have the power to control the future.

Experience is not what happens to you, but it is what you do with what happens to you.

Happiness depends on what you can give, not what you can get.

Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else, eventually you are the one who gets burned.

Slow learning is a disadvantage, but you can turn it to an advantage as you learn slow and efficiently.

The key to immortality is living a life worth to be remembered.

A power-hungry individual follows a path to his own destruction.

Birthday coming soon (;
Going to become 16 le (:
I am looking forward to it !

I gotta study. I dont want to regret not studying hard enough in my life.
I have regretted doing and not doing some particular things and i dont want to regret about anything again so i must be extra careful .

Careful.

5 more months to my birthday.
Its a Sunday.
I doubt no one will remember it like this year.
I hope i can receive alot of presents and my friends will give me a surprise? Or someone? Anyone will do.

Of all of my birthdays, 15 years, i cant think of any birthday that i could remember and treat it as a HAPPy birthday.
They are plain, plain empty.

MY life is so plain, and my own will and motivation tried to convince myself that my life is "fun" "interesting" "great" . And I wonder how long my motivation and will of this comical clinical crap last.

I used to watch this cartoon when i was a kid !
It taught me alot of values in life !
I was looking for this for a long long time !!

ENG Lyrics
You've gotta be extra careful with
The things that are close and dearest to you
You know the closer you get to something
The tougher it is to see it
Explain to me all my happiness
That you just experienced by my side
Or maybe you're so blessed in ways that
You can't even remember it all
That you are standing here with me
That you live and breathe and see and feel
They're all little miracles and wonder
Just by themselves.
You've gotta be extra careful with
The things that are close and dearest to youYou know the closer you get to something
The tougher it is to see it
You know the closer you get to something
The tougher it is to see it
And I'll never take it for granted
It's fine to say "Never give up"
Say "Keep chasing your dreams on
But the more time you spend talking big
The less you get done with life
I'll let that handful of courage in my heart
Help me survive another day
And I'll never take it for granted
Let's go!

WOO HOO ~~
I gave her her birthday present !!!
So GLAD that she like it so much :P
HEHE (:

Glad (:
Happy (:

Thanks Domo ! I wont forget you de ! Thanks for helping me out!!

What should i do ?
Where should i find back my confident, when?
How am i going to find it back?
Should i even clutch on to the love that doesnt even exists?
It sounds stupid.

I am feeling so terrible and disgusted by myself...

Sian...
I am feeling so down and so inconfident...
I know i said i wont emo anymore more but this truly impacted me directly.
Sometimes i dont even dare to look into the mirrors ya know?
And you know what i meant.
If i have got no confidence in myself, whats more to say about having the confidence to like someone else?

Hi.
Firstly, i aint a emo person (:
Today i got back my ss test. 4/12
geog 9/12
my ss always always pull my humans down !!! Damn angry !!!
I wrote alot, I followed teacher's instruction, i studied, i tried !!
so overall my humans will be 13/24, just pass ):

My results are now all dropping. . maybe i thought i am very "clever" so thats no need to study so my results drops like hell. Arrogant );

I will try not to feel like way le.

as for my chinese compo 11/20

What the??
Math 8/20
Chem 43/52 ?? What the ??
Whats going on man !!! I must really find my own mistakes fast or else everything will be too late.

"The greatest thing humans can achieve is to find out one's own mistakes and improve"

Was abit tired, saw everyone so distracted and english teacher so distracted during the english lesson so decide to sneak out for a walk.
When i came back i felt better (:

I guess my results fall so badly is also because that thing that happen recently, was confused and distracted. It shouldnt happen again (:

Hi.
Blogged.
Later have SS and Geog test.
Hope i can do well for it.
Because i really depend on these two this time to pull my results up.
It seems that more people are visitng my blog, which is a good thing (:
So i think i shouldnt post anymore emo stuffs -.-
Cos i dont think i am actually a emo person.
(:
So long nvr post le. Cos sis keep using computer then i was studying then nvr use ...

I want to add on to the post which i went to pasir ris park for marcus birthday.
When we are taking taxi home, patrine and i alighted first then last is raynor.
Then when i was half way back home, i found out that my phone is missing !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I was so scare, and it as night time and i felt so helpless..
So i immediately rushed to a shop and requestedt them to lend me their phone to call my handphone. then eventually raynor picked up ! Thansk god man (:
hhaha !!

Everyday i drank at least 6 bottles of 1.5 litres of water (:

Hi.
Just came back from basketballing.
Was not feeling well.
Ate alot of things and drank alot of things.
Drank 2 bottles of 1.5 litres of water.
Ate 6 bananas
Ate a packet of biscuits.
Ate maggi noodles.
Drank some clod drinks.
And then went to play basketball.
felt dizzy, and tired of course (;

Ya, yesterday went to pasir ris park, sorry for leaving early becos i was tired and my body probably wont make it.
I must rest well. Really well.
And lastly i want to thanks Hui shi, Raynor and Jiayee for helping me out!
I felt much better and confidence. (:

Yo.
Tonight went to play basketball and saw a group of adults playing basketball.
They asked me to play till 10 and i was shocked. But still no difference, that time was 9 then.
So i played with them.
They said that every tue and thur they will be playing there and they asked me to join them (;
haha.
I finally can train at a tougher new boundaries le (:

Yo.
Tonight went to play basketball and saw a group of adults playing basketball.
They asked me to play till 10 and i was shocked. But still no difference, that time was 9 then.
So i played with them.
They said that every tue and thur they will be playing there and they asked me to join them (;
haha.
I finally can train at a tougher new boundaries le (:

I guess my fire has been burnt out, the motivation is gone.
I cant believe it, i thought i could stand longer.
After all that i had been through.
So tired, not those kind of sleep, wake up, everything is fine de tired.
Is sick and tired.
Math graphs.
...
Her.
...
Friends.
...
Responsibility.
...
Schoolwork.
...

shyt.

I hope i can take all this better.
Or perhaps looking this at a different angle.
I think there'll be lesser basketball for me, until i finally sort out everything.

Very stressed,
Alot of things suddenly popped out.
have to deal with something which doesnt even concern me, but i had decided to do something about it.

Yo.
Today slept for 14 hours -.-
Damn nice.
Had alot of dreams.
But once woke up i had forgotten some.

sian,
i want to post pics but couldnt upload becos the functions of blogger had changed.

Realy tired.

I still got alot of things to do.
But i somehow have lost the motivation.
Cos was too tired.
Not just tired...
nvm.
Tml got cs again. suppose to study for it. thoguth of doing so. but didnt do so.

Thought of submitting compos for chinses and english teacher to mark as extra assginments and ask for mistakes but didnt.
Thought of drawing graphhs at personal time for prcatice but didnt.

Thought of studying fot tml physics test but didnt.

I have lost trust in my myself.

It is over already? my spree? so soon?
i am just getting started.
and it just ended.

Yo.
Today i blogged (:
Actually just decided to on computer to blog for a few minutes but suddenly went to chat with friends on msn and listen to songs.
I am stress and sick and tired of graphs -.-
LOL

I can see that alot of my friends are starting to get serious about their work, so i must started too.
I mustnt fall behind, i must not think that i am great.

Tonight, i jsut watched liverpool versus singapre. Liverpool won with a score of 5-0.
I was doing my geog hw when i suddenly tuned to channel 5, so i began to watch and i delayed my hw.
sian.
After the match, the singaproe de soccer team memebers, some of them exchanged jerseys with the liverpool people, i was thinking that this is kinda cool, cause they can sell for alot of money!!
then when singapore gave the their jerseys and the liverpool people wore it, if i were them, i will feel very honoured to have a soccer star wearing my sweaty jersay (:
haha.


Sorry for the spelling mistakes. cos going sleep soon.

I have decided to delete everything in my life which will affect my studies and i had already decided to uninstall Garena and blackshot (:
Aint me guai ?

HAHa. That game is real fun but i cant lvie on it shooting people?

kk cya cya (:

Today at training, quarreled with ernest, damn what sia him,
Dunno the rules of basketball then dont anyhow kb people.
Pity him.

Today, i have finally and eventually decided to see doctor about my problem.
But unfortunately, the polyclinic is already closed.
I want to face my own fear le.
Of course my parents doesnt know, not very close with them ...
i feel that everyday, my life is eaten by "that" problem.
i hope i can be as fit as before, so i can play a basketball game properly again.

Hi.
Was happy today cause of some reason (;
Its like i finally found something which is worth simling or just being happy about.
But it ended fast.
Perhaps i dont even stand a chance.
I really hope it will happen.
Its just like a dream.
Really tired.
Got alot of thoughts to juggle about.
Alot alot.
And this just adds up to them.
Tml is again another long tiring day.
I seriously dont have any experiences in relationship.
So i dont know what i should do.
Damn me.

Hi.
My leg hurts alot.
Yesterday during NYAA i used the hockey stick and accidentally used it to hit my knee.
And now, walking hurts.
It really hurts.

Today was pretty fun (:
After school went to play basketball with Hong Meng they all.
Very challenging, but i dont have the stamina to keep up with their continuous matches. Suddenly felt very feeble and drained out.
But wen more people joined, I managed to block some shots and steal quite a lot of balls and gotten alot of rebounds from those who are taller than me (:
Haha.
When i played a lot of basketball, i will study very hard. Because i want to compensate to my own study time (:
but i usually wont study till then (:
Quite special huh ?

Today, the day was like normal.
So repetitive.
Feels kinda bored with the seating arrangement.
See others like can check their work with their partners and discuss some question, i am sort of like envy them.
If i want to ask marcus or audrey i have to keep turning behind. My neck also will tired de.
Hai. i am not god too, why cant i be like everybody else?

Yo.
I am kinda loser today.
Kept thinking of her, and kept thinking of the kena pangsei de thing.
And was also pretty tired, plus emo.
Hai. I really want to tell her that i like her..
...Forget it.

I hope there no more conflicts among poeple, no jealousy, hatred, sensitive comments or thoughts of somebody. People can live with each other peacefully, without any worries or doubt of third-party's comments.
Each and every self and help up by being nice to people (:
Its like a virus, when one begans to be nice to others, it will spread. From 1 people to 2, from 2 to 4, 4 to 8, 8 to 16.5.
(:

Enough of being a coward.
I want to do something about it man... What should i do..

And oh ya ! i just changed my blog skins, and link.
Sorry if i copied your style (:
But dont be too sensitive!

Lol. now only i have the Sentosa pics (:
Purposely post 2 only so they can beg me for the pics (: and another reason is lazy (:
HAHA !

Zhehao is never a winner. He kept failing and failing yet he tell himself he is not a failure.

The reason behind success is cheating yourself, in short.
Sometimes the truth of failing really hurts, but the only thing you can do is work harder next time.
Failing builds up success.
If you kept failing, till the day you succeed, other will think you are a hero because you had been failing for your whole life, yet suddenly you rises and show others that you aint a failure instead of kept saying you are not.
"Action speaks louder than words."
"An architect is nothing without contractors."
Some people who visits my blog might think that i am crapping but, i am not (:

i had never been recognised, even though i had succeed.
I succeed, after a few days they forgot.
haha.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I am kinda sad nowadays.
Because of something which happen.
I only told hui shi and marcus.
lol.
I am abit...dunno how to say la.
Kept thinking of it but i didnt even execute the frst step yet.
i am so coward man.
Dont dare to propose.
hah.

Felt like theres no one visiting my blog anymore -.-
so i can post whatever i want without caring about what others might think (:

Hi.
I finally overcome it (:
The thing which has been overcoming me. Haha.
Exams are coming real soon. And the tough has already arrive for the arrival of it (:
And i should not give up easily. Though it wont be easy.

LOL.
Looking at the "high: popularity of my blog, i felt weird, how come nobody tag me de. since 28 june till now, only hui shi tag me -.-
HAha
Thnx (:

hi
Kinda stress.
About everything. Esp that.
Which troubles me the most.
Hai.

today was not bad.
had fun.
Went to bio lab.
Took some pics.
Nothing special happen.
Hope my handphone can be fix soon, even though i know nothing can fix it le.
I want the sentosa pics i had taken, which is in that phone.
Damn me.
Sian, i going to fix it no matter how much it costs.
See ya.

Tired.
Damn tired.
Getting even more tired as days passes on.
I have to endure. Feel like giving up. But i cant.
So stress sia, Dont feel like trying anymore, cos if dont try then wont fail or lose.
haha...
Whatever.
I am a sore loser.
I am afraid of losing and failing.
But sometimes they can be good in their own ways, like make you realise your own mistakes.
But i am too tired.
Too tired about thinking how others think of me and didnt have enough sleep.
How how.
Feel like having a long rest.
plus, that illness which i wont say -.-
so scare sia, no one knows about it. Just let it be there.
Feel like seeing doctor but is afraid...
Whatever.
How.
My God..

Friday 10 July 2009

Friday 10 july 2009
Yo.
today i lost alot of things -.-
Chinese letter writing blablabla and ss powerpoint.
Bloody de.
the powerpoint dunno who go steal lo.
haha
but eventually i went to reprint.
Very sad day, but in the end, i turned out to felt quite happy.

如果我变成回忆- Tank

累了 交困里努力清醒着
也照惯例想你了
好怕一放心睡了
心跳在梦中 不听话的 就停止了

听着 你心像往常还有热
越美丽越更勇敢的
我还能展示什么
如果我连自己的脉搏 都难掌握

如果我变成回忆 退出了这场生命
留下你坐挨哭泣
我冰冷身体 拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你仍还孤独旅行
我会恨自己 如此狠心

如果我变成回忆 终于没那么幸运
没机会颁这种法门
想牵着你 槛门上搂紧
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以 让他给你 我不怪你

快乐 什么时候会结束呢
如果我变成回忆 lyrics on
http://music.yeucahat.com/song/Chinese-French/53891-~Tank.html
哪一刻是最后一刻
想把你紧紧抱着
可知你是我生命中的 最舍不得

如果我变成回忆 退出了这场生命
留下你坐挨哭泣
我冰冷身体 拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你仍还孤独旅行
我会恨自己 如此狠心

如果我变成回忆 终于没那么幸运
没机会颁这种法门
想牵着你 槛门上搂紧
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以 让他给你

如果我变成回忆 最怕我单独终极
顽固的烂在空气 不整理行李 每一寸空隙
原来依然爱我的你总哭 承受失去
这样不公平 请你整理 把我忘记

Afew days ago i just lost it and thought that i might never get it back, when i got it back, i told myself i am not gonna lost it again, no matter what , yet 2 days later i spoil it...

Hi...
very sad..
My phone spoil when i contact it with water at sea ):
All my whole secondary 2 life and sentosa pics is in that phone...
Mostly sad because the phone accompany me very long le...dont bear to leave it.
i really like that phone alot, even though its not the latest phone with the best function, camera megapixel whatever..
I felt as though i had lost a relative. Its true...
Hai...
Already very stress by studies, cant let anything affect me...
Hell on...

Yo.
Long time no post le.
Lol.
Yesterday went out with Thiam hock, Matthew, Da Ji, Ai hua, and ..the rest dunno how to spell.
We went to Tampines. Then followed them go dunno where to visit their ex - manager.
Then when bus-ed back to Tampines, i dropped my handphone on the bus !! LOl
how in the hell i didnt realise my phone isnt with me !!!
Then i panic-ed.
Searched all 291 bus.
Then went to report, blablabla
I was thinking that my phone is now very rare and couldnt find it anywhere and i have a nice number (: 93355989,
Damn nice, dont wanna lost it.
Almost given up hope when Thiam hock called my lost phone and eventually one guy picked up.
Finally, thats some hope i saw (:
then found out actually the guy is the guy at the bus office de people whom i reported to.
Thanks for those guys for helping me out to find my phone.
I had already given up hope but they still want to help me.
(:

Tampines is very fearful for me, as i had lost two things there already 1!!!!!!

ok.

Tml going to Sentosa, quite worried, cos assginments not done.
I will try my best (:
Got to sleep le (:

Hi.
Today watched Transformers.
Very nice (;
Finally can go out together in this group le, long time never go out in this group and crap together le (:
Very happy today, had alot of fun (:
HAHA.
The movie was damn exciting man, esp when you watch with these friends (:
Never regretted even though my wallet got a big hole ._.""
Lol then thiam hovk damn high when theres some ... scenes. I was stopping him throughout cos i scare ps -.-
haha.

Finally, this group have been reform (:
Ok. Now back to my SS powerpoint, see ya ! (:


Anyway, theres a weird girl call Furlin?? Dont know if i had spelled correctly, she had been calling my house and saying shes "that name". I never gave anyone of my friend my house number cos i have got a hand phone, whose she?? She called yesterday but i was sleeping around 7pm same as today while i was bathing.
And everytime she call i am not available. Hope shes some kind of secret agent or something and asks me to join them -.- cos life is just so boring and without excitement or thrill.

Yo.
Long time no post.
Still got homework not completed yet (._.)""
This few days didnt have the time to play basketball. So sian ):
Kept raining and the basketball court is under renovation.
Will work hard when school reopens, time to get serious.

Do not go where the path may lead.
Go instead where there is no path
and leave a trail.

Yo.
Today went to sentosa with kai yang, ji wei, mao feng, rich, ming shan, weng fong, jasmine and jasmine.
not if i got left anyone out.
This is my first time there.
Sun tanned there, but didnt see any difference.
supposed to be a clas outing but so less people go.

WA~
Now the weather outside is damn sunny, but then suddenly it rains.
Wa
Amazing !

Hi
Coding sucks.
Still have some errors, but i just decide to keep it this way first.
No other choice.

Hi.
Yesterday had a volleyball match at Sembawang Sec.
Then i made a very dangerous dive and lost balance and slammed my back on the floor.
Then now, i couldnt even walk properly, it had been injured before.
No more basketball for this few days, impossible (:
i will still go and play basketball.
I think i shouldnt had made that dive, volleyball isnt that important to me though.
And now im wasted.

Oh ya, got our jersey yesterday.
Not bad.
Im Number 12, actually i wanted Number 3. It has always been my number!
Then snatched by Jevon.
Then i chose 12 because its Dwlight Howard's jersey number -.-
LOL

THis few days damn bored sia, keep asking people out, but all neither not free or is afraid of going out with me .
Whatever,
I want to go out and fun with someone, so sian, school starting soon le, just want to have fun.

Yo.
Later having volleyball competition.
How much i hope its basketball competition.
But i dont think i wanna lose today.

Yo.
Added some new songs.
Please browse around, you can also request ba.

yo.
today was a pretty bad day.
basketball skills sucks to the max.
I promise i will never play the basketball machine anymore, intercepted with my shooting -.-
Sian, kena thrashed by other people.. i had played with them before, at some where near my house. Their moves are like street basketball moves.
Wa...sian.. my shooting cmi..
after my volleyball competition i will surely pump up my basketball skills, i just cant be insulted anymore..

Yo.
Yesterday went to east coast park to do geog project with marcus junhao daniel and of course me (:
Had fun there, cycle around, took photo of the coastal features.
Saw alot of ... ***
okok..
Then we went over to the chatlet and look for the 3d2n rate...
Ok.. we plan to go there for chatlet. but daniel and marcus say they wanted to pay more, felt very guilty -.-...
The trip back seems longer, anyway overall its not boring at all (:
At the beginning when i was at home, i was thinking and worried that this project may not turn out well. As that project was not easy. But eventually, i am not worry about that anymore, i am just worry of our powerpoint presentation.. -.-


as for today,
We went to chong boon sec early in the morning -.- to train volleyball. as our opponent was different from before. so we think that we have to train harder. Anw its hwa chong.. how to win?
Anw when training halfway, suddenly thought of playing basjketball, then no mood to volleyball liao.. then we leave that place at 12 pm
My knee damn pain, keep falling and slamming my knee to the floor... then got one kind of feeling that my knee was going to betray me -.-
Because we are versusing hwa chong, we have to face the B boy's net, which is damn high, i cant even smack a ball, i know its alrealy too late to train my physical strength le, feel like dropping out of it.
Really tired, even don have the mood to do homework le, see the way i talk also like cmi -.-...
Then at night i also couldnt sleep...
Very tired, but cant sleep, you know that kind of feeling ?
I scare i focus too much on volleyball then later i will lost my basketball de skill...plus, if i am tired from volleyball, how do i play basketball ? then if i play basketball, then very tired, then how to do homework...
God..help, if you are there that is.
I . . actually dont trust God because God dont trust me, i hate God.
He doesnt show up when i needed him, when i was praying hard, for him to appear.
Thats it !
Ya right.

Yo.
Nowadays kinda irritated by my neighbour.
He thinks he is a big shot and wants everyone's attention.
Rich so what? no big deal.
Everytime he walks by our apartment, he will purposely cough and want our attention and want us to greet him. And sometimes, when he was about to walk past our apartment, he will talk very loudly with his wife and son. Btw, its not just one coincident time. Its being a year.
Think he what ?
Now even worst, whenever he walks past, he will call his son, about aged 3, to knock on our window. Wthe ??
What kind of irony is this ?
What does he want from us?
-.-.


"Bad conviction of ours leads ourselves to our own destruction, in the end you blame others for your mistake" by Alson (:

Hi.
I am trying to create a basketball animation using Flash 8.
I miss Flash 8, used to create aimations when i was little and still won some great competitions. But when we received the award - $$$ , the teacher keep and give school.
-.-, she didnt split the $$$ to us sia, we worked very hard for the animation and for the interview. I remember theres five people sitting in front of us at a certain room and they began questioning us why we chose to do this animation etc.
I was just meandering through all their question as mostly all those things were done by me, all my teamates there playing de (:
I remember when i reached home, theres a reporter of the morning de newspaper phoned me and interviewed me, and of course my teamates, about how we felt after beating alot of secondary schools and good de primary schools.
Anyway that was the best period of life which i enjoyed the most, as my efforts, hardwork are always appreciated by friends, people, teacher.
Compared to now, i am just like living a life inside a body which have got no life in it and seldom even notices, leave aside being appreciated.

I think now, is the period which i really need friends by my side.
I really have got alot of problems kept inside me, and ireally want to share with someone else, i dont like to look for ppl to share cos i am afraid that i might be very irritating. Except for Xiangrong aka Nicole who has been away to Taiwan.
When i share with her my problems, i really felt that she really want to listen to my problems and wanted to help me. She'll says special things which really answer my problems and i dunno le.
On the day before she left, i did messaged her, i didnt know she was leaving that day after the day i messaged her, it was a coincidence. So coincident. I think she will be away untill June 26, or about there.. So i can only wish her good luck in her geography project because its quite a big one.
Thank her (:

From all those words i had written above says all, i always wanted to have someone to be able to lean on when i fall.
Hopefully now i wont fall, or i will fall and hurt my head badly as theres no one to lean on. Sometimes when i messaged some of my friends to just talk so to be able to cheer up abit but either they dont reply, or they reply and answer your question half heartedly. Damn them.
If you dont care, just tell me that you dont even care can.
Now i had been through alot of hard tough times alone, some times if i can describe it, i will write in my blog, but sometimes i just have got to keep it to myself. I know everyone have their own problems, i am not saying mine is bigger, nor yours is smaller.

Tough times tough times...

Yo.
Later going to volleyball training le.
I seriously need to change my blog skin, its being long since the last time i changed it.
If anyone had seen this post and want to offer help, its welcomed (:
I need help -.-
But i dont want to have the identical blogskins with anyone, i just want it to be special and unique.
I hope i know how to customize my own blog skin.
Will try that next time..
Tomorrow, i have a medical appointment at hospital for my back, dont want to go and dont feel like going.
I think they say my back is curved or ?
And had already decided not to go.
GTG late for training le..

Yesterday

I had Volleyball training in school, really enjoyed it, i think its had been like long since i had really enjoyed that CCA.
That day, i got the chance to play a match with the sec 1s and i got to play.
I dont remember myself playing a volleyball match for 2 years. I meant 2 years.

Morning met up with Caijing and Melvyn, i was late by 15 mins, as usual, always late ~.~
Then we had lunch and went training together.
We crapped around and joke about like -.-...
Laugh all the way to school.
Was quite happy that day la.
Thats my conclusion. (:

Hi all.
I know i know, long time no blog, sometimes i am lazy, sometimes i wanted to but forgotten to.
I have some deep thoughts and thorough reflections on my actions, thinking and assignments for the past few days.
Hope i wont fail my EOY.
English assignments going to be done soon.
I had been balling everyday since holiday begin. Er...maybe some day misses it but majority didnt.
I wanted to start my assignments and finish it as soon as possible.
I had named every week of the holiday.
-week 1 : Play week.
-week 2 : Assignments week
-week 3 : Last touch up on assignments.
-week 4 : Revision week.

I think that this strategy is very efficient and useful, it doesnt give us that much stress compared to a timetable.

I want to be learn more about psychology and hopefully philosophy (:
i think i will just try..

Today, i just cant find the main points of what to blog about...
I had alot in mind when i aint blogging, but when i wanted to blog, nothing comes out.

Recently,i had alot of weird dreams.
I had dreamed that because i had good results, I have to be transfer to express class -.o??
When schools starts, when i walked into my that express class, everyone was looking at me and thinking why i am there, and i have to explain to every single one of them why i am there ... quite fun though..
This kind of thing never will happen in real life, so its quite fun if i can dreamed about it....
Its rare though...
I hope i dreamed about my future and the future. THe exact future.
I want my existence to be known by many. I have big dreams, but i don know what are they...


Oh ya, recently i had also watched one horror movie, "The Last House on The Left". I strongly recommend to those who wants a good scare or have a fainted heart. Oh ya, i think the movie is rated R.
It has some ... scenes, but its scary... but have no ghosts in it (:

I want to blog about today.


TODAY
Today when i woke up, my head was spinning, jumped out from the bad dream.
Dreamed of some of my friends dying, then i felt that actually i can save them from it but i was careless...and i only remember some of the scenes, cant mention names, sounds very wrong, like i cursing them like that...
But thats more to that dream, something felt real, like yesterday dream, its not like its out of the world or something. I couldnt rmb..

hi all.
Got so much too blogged and talk about. lets start from the last Saturday.

30/5/09

Went to Queenstown to buy basketball shoes and basketball wit Daniel and Marcus.
Took a long long time to search for the sohes that are within my budget.
I found a pair of shoes which i like and i had decided to look around for a better one, but when i came back the shoes was sold... -.- then i have got no choice but to buy a shoes which i had in mind but that wasn't in within my budget.
Fianlly, that day credits goes to Daniel and Marcus, i took a long time choosing shoes and looking around for one, i myself was irritated -.-""
Thnks man !