Birthday coming soon (;
Going to become 16 le (:
I am looking forward to it !

I gotta study. I dont want to regret not studying hard enough in my life.
I have regretted doing and not doing some particular things and i dont want to regret about anything again so i must be extra careful .

Careful.

5 more months to my birthday.
Its a Sunday.
I doubt no one will remember it like this year.
I hope i can receive alot of presents and my friends will give me a surprise? Or someone? Anyone will do.

Of all of my birthdays, 15 years, i cant think of any birthday that i could remember and treat it as a HAPPy birthday.
They are plain, plain empty.

MY life is so plain, and my own will and motivation tried to convince myself that my life is "fun" "interesting" "great" . And I wonder how long my motivation and will of this comical clinical crap last.