Went out with friends early in the morning to go gym. Not really early la jsut early for me cos i slept late /: It was great la, did many intense workout and my friends helped me. This is the first time i ever trained so hard in a gym! Then after that meet up with friends again to go SSC to eat a steaamboat buffet call FatFish ! It was not bad! But abit costly, $28. Ate and talked cock and have some catching up (: After that we randomly thoguht of going to LAN shop and play because they keep talking about blackshot when we are eating! Then we go play at the one nearest to SSC. The game like damn epic sia, ppl shouting here and there haha ~ We played like 1 hour but it seems damn long cos in the end we ended up being very tired due to all the shoutings >.< It is awesome to have meet up with friends after so long. Somemore i might be going ns this year and will have lesser chances of meeting them anymore. ): We should take friends for granted. They are a luxury for us.

Yo ~ Long time never post le. Havent being doing much stuff recently. 1 week without school and I alr cant take it le! I cant stand myself not doing anything productive or useful >.< Going to find a job soon. Hai. The tough time is not consider over but its jsut that I try to make no regards to it as much as possible..

Couldnt sleep. Thinking about what im going to do next. I have alr decide to go ns instead of studying but its like i see most of my friends enjoying themselves in poly but i cant help but to look at myself and ask myself why cant i have the same too? Why must everything be so hard on me? I know im too weak. but i have too many arising problems and my weakness is constantly pulling me down and i have no one to be there for me. Everyone else seems to have somekne behind them, Or someone who they can fall back on but everything i fall back, i just hurt my back. Now after quitting school, i feel even more stressed as obviously it was a stupid thing to do. Many ppl asking me not to quit and stuff but i cant hold on anymore. Then i realised i said i wanna work after quitting school but i only see myself staying at home everyday doing nothing. i dont wanna be like this man.. The reason i quitted poly is becos i have a dream. Im risking everything i have and to pursuitt my dreams. its a silly thing to do but i really want it so badly..even though its not realised..im going to try very hard to achieve it. Anything possible. Everything. i dont wanna regret not trying to go for my dream.

Today went to OCS - officer cadat school with my class.
The place quite boring la, but my friends made it fun (:
Early in the morning i have hti presentation with Junjie ~
He very good in talking sia, he see the paragraph one time jiu can summarise le.
Ytd do the powerpoint till like 4am then woke up at 7am >.<
Today is my last day in school ):
So i wanted to keep some good memories for myself so I wanted to treat my friends better for the last day LOL.
Anyway i really like this class ):
They bond in a fast way and we grow very close despite it only being the 1st month only.
I will miss them.

Today went to class; as usual, and when my classmate saw me they were damn surprised cos of my hair colour LOL.
They say they cant recognise me >.<

Anyway with this new colour, when i walk outside ppl keep staring -.-.

BUT I really like it! I think i can only keep it till end of this year then need go NS le ))):

Yo! Yesterday jsut dyed my hair ~
Personally i like the colour alot!
I spent a total of $55 on hair and $20 on ear piercing and earings /:
Shyt... my sister de camera still under repair.
Dont know need pay how much >.<
Damn stupid lo, that day accidentally dropped it into my maggie mee then spoil >.<

Okay, she finally repiled me.
Fianlly she gave me a answer, gave me a reason to give up on her.
She is as bitch as usual and I have to confirm one last time shes the same like every other girls.
After so many years, i thought she may have grown abit more mature but i was wrong.
So disappointed.
I was so bloody stupid to hold on and feel hurt for so long.
Those endless nights when i cry myself o sleep thinking of her was such a dumb thing to do.
She doesnt even know what love is.
She dont understand the feeling im going through.
Karma will meet up with her some day and f her upside down.
Bye, I shall bid farewell to this stranger who i never knew.

Anyway today i have decided to withdraw from poly.
Had been skippping soon for 2 days straigth and most probably tmr too.
I have no more motivation to stay in this course anymore.
Kept overslept, and wake up to a tired morning and then decide to skip school.
I have enoguh of all these.
Everyday have to do work till 4-5am in the morning then have to sleep afew hours then got to wake up and go school only to receive more assignments.

But after i quit poly, what should i do?
I really dunno.
I was hoping to be able to appeal to other school but it failed.
NS? Work? Rot at home?

I dont wanna be so useless.
I dont want to disappoint my parents.
I want to earn loads of money to repay them and then treat myself with something nice.

A path of uncertainty.
Quitting doesnt mean you are weaker.
Qutting leads me to a much tougher path.
I wish the best for myself. All the best.

Saw this post on facebook.

I think its quite true and interesting so i put it up.

 垂死者的5大人生憾事

第1個遺憾 便是沒有勇氣去追求自己的夢想。
第2個遺憾 就是太努力工作，而沒有陪伴自己的家庭，包括小孩的成長階段，以及陪伴另一半的時間。⋯⋯
第3個遺憾 是最普遍的遺憾，是後悔自己沒有勇氣表達內心的情感
第4個遺憾 後悔沒和老朋友保持連絡。
第5個遺憾 後悔自己沒有快樂些。

Just did cube like 8 times. all fail. Damn fk up.. So many problems.. 1 hour more to sleep to wake up again to face the nightmare get me out of here please. i cant take it anymore.

Trying to cope with my course.
Trying real hard to jsut hang on.
Trying hard to forget her.
Trying hard to become a better person
Trying to be stronger.
I'm trying.

Hi.
Today ... hai.
Bad days are compiling yet I am becoming weaker and weaker.

I just need some help /:

Had HTI today, seriously dont understand anything he was saying. I literally blanked out and stared into blank space.
Then after that went to see my PTN (form teacher) about my course transfer.
He told me many stuffs.
If i wanna quit school after 6 months gov will call me to go for NS.
Means that i cant work and wait till next year to go into a course.
And if i go through first sem and got bad result, I cant transfer to other course and most probably will be sacked by the school and leave a bad record for myself and wont be able to go to any poly anymore.

So the only thing left is to transfer or to stay.
If i transfer i have to pay the other school another school fee and means i have to pay twice.
Even so, their intake may already be full and not accepting anymore student and that will leave me with one last option which is to stay.