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No more kpop dance competition.
... feel so .... cheated. Everything is already decided and they made me excited like a kid. Ive always been looking forward to this. Just one simple message could just end everything. Maybe then its my fault, for not choosing the correct person. Then maybe its my fault, for not knowing more people who are into kpop amd join our group. Then maybe its my fault, to think of this stupid idea of forming a kpop dance group for competition.  I am so fucking dumb. Every thing is my fault. Everything around me is falling apart. The same old stuffs. Friends, relationship everything. I always question myself why ive got no true friends? Am I really that bad? I keep finding faults in me because its not only the first time. Its my fault right? I am not a really good friend. Hard person to communicate with. I really just want a really good friend who I can trust. I am always on my bed. Hi-bye friends. Backstabbers. Whats new. I am such a failure.

Foreign bodies prac 29/8

Today we learned some new techniques for prac. Improved on my isolation and realised how long I have not done iso. And also alot of basics are missed out too. Was so bloody tired but its ok ~ get to know my junior exam 2 group mates and they are bowen, asleah, zowell,  si pei and yosh! I really like this grouping becos i want to work with people I dont know very well! New spark might be born haha.

First day of work

First day of work at the sushi bar in FEP. It was veey tiring as they are really short of manpower. When customers ask me things regarding the sushi I really got no idea how tk answer hahaa. It was a daily paid job. I recieve my money as the end of the work ^^

Last paper last day of exams

Yoooo today is the last day of exams which is the pom paper!! ^^ it was a disaster ~.~ fufillingoooo also didn't study and what's over is over alr...time to look forward to the holidays and work even harder to improve myself. Look better and hopefully financially stronger too. I also wanna gain weight till 70kg and become very buff ^^
This holiday will be a improvement holiday for me. Better lifestyle and more self esteem. But first I will need to work and get money first haha.

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So after the POM exams we had a surprise belated birthday for gilson ^^

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After that we went to eat at poppeye and went to play pool ^^ it was a very fun and fufilling

Day as i laughed and joke alot haha. Nice day to end off the exam week. 

Microecons final ica

Damn I am fked for tmr microecons paper... all the terms is not getting into my head. Last min work again. .. so many things to rmb. Stats was easy and I also revised last min. Poa today was pretty nerve wreaking, quite tricky, hope I get pretty good marks. Microecons tmr, zero confident. ..hai

Stats ica 2

Damnnn I haven really completed studying for statistic. .. really hope I can at least get a b+! So I placed my stats notes under my pillow hoping for thw better ^^ nights!

'Spring' cleaning

So today will be the day I am clearing my secondary scholl stuffs. Loads of memories. Rmember I always dread doing filing as I will alqays have one or two worksheets missing lol. Then some subjects even require us to put divider and arrange them according to date/ test/revision/ etc. Will be keeping some worksheets for memories!

Today is the last day of the semester. Time to reflect what I have done and could have done better. First, I shouldn't keep worrying about how others think of me. Damn I am always tired and falling during lectures. I must hav enough rest and try to go school earlier so I wont miss lectures.
Thats all I can think of haha.

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 Damn today went to ask my ec for number.  Damn ps sia. Tio humiloated. Worst feeling ever in front of so many people. I feel so small... hai a day to rmb though. ..

There's always people talking bad about me. I treated them all so well and this is how they treat me. Tsk. Trust no one.