Yo ~
Today is christmas eve !
Today i went for work and its John's last day ):
He treated me, Angela and Kim a tower of Kolsch, snack sampler and Hawaiian pizza.
Almost drank sia
Abit suey here suey there so stop drinking le.
He keep hugging everyone because everyone is so close with him
He told me some stuff and I was very touched.
He taught me many stuffs and i am very grateful to him...
Then ate and chiong to mrt to catch last train lucky manage to get onto one.
If not will have to cab home ):

Work work work ~

Work today extend till 10pm. Was supposed to end at 6 because friday is really a very busy day.
I started working as a server today.
tbc

Today wake up damn early for work!
Then trained and walked to clarke quay.
Then when i reached there i realised I wasnt suppose to work today! Oh my tian ~
I was supposed to tmr at the same timing but i went today instead.
FYI. my timing for tmr is a killer schedule which is 12-11pm and i experienced it today and have to again tmr!
But like that i earn around $80 dollars one day not bad eh (:
But its just damn tiring, my body almost couldnt take it and i spammed coffee at work.
The coffee was damn bitter and i dunno how to make it less bitter and when i drank it, i immediately hyped up!

AND WORST OF ALL
I dropped a pizza today ):
Was very guilty about it and i scalded my hands ):
But the manager jsut said :"nvm nvm, accidents do happen.."
That manager normally very fierece one and he suddenly so ... I very ... you know.

Aiya, but ya, hope it wont happen again (:
I scalded my hands alot of times and i sometimes have to endure the burning hot plates on my hands all the way to my customer's table.

It was all worth it though.
Even tough it was tough but it was fun (:

She is a good girl.
I took her for granted.
I wanted to show her I have changed, but how?
Not treasuring her was my mistake.
If i can, i want to turn back time.

Had a tough day at work yesterday.
Leave house at 1015 to go to work and have to reach at 12.
Have been working at Brewerkz and ytd was my 4th day there.
The person there is very nice but there are some .. ya.
You cant expect everyone to treat you well.
Ytd was my first day of full shift work where i have to work from morning to night for around 10 hours. Tmr i have the same full shift again and i will be working for 11 hours.
I started out great and was starting out to enjoy myself when i got tired and suddenly i thought of her.
It was when I started to make a lot of silly mistakes and i can see from the eyes of the manager and some sucky staff that their eyes say something bad about me.
But i dont care man.
I dont give a damn about them if they treat me like that. I just have to try best to work and make lesser mistakes and do my job and not slack off.

Met Pook and Poulina 2 new workers there.
There are very friendly and chatted with Poulina for almost all the while when there is no work to do and she is a uni grad who is on a internship or something if im not wrong, with Brewerkz.
Got to know one guy, Ron.
He taught me some stuff and talked and etc.

Suddenly thought of her. It sucks.
Messaged her but she didnt reply. It sucks.
Another night of thinking of her and crying till Im tired then sleep.
I am afraid of waking with the same feeling of pain knowing she is happy without me and doesnt need me.
I miss her.
But she miss me no more.

"To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing."

Saw this on her tumblr.
I have tried so hard to forget her and this is the result.
I kept going to her tumblr uncontrollably and even thought of going JC for her.

Dec 2 2011

Went to work with huishi and junhao at Pasir Ris Camp as server.
It was a NCC event and we have to serve food for them
It was very fun and get to know many people and after that, we went to have supper then walk home !

Dec 29 and Dec 30

Went to MBS with friends ~

Yesterday night went to Audrey house to partyyyy ~
It was really boring at first but it eventually turn out great!

November 18

Woke up at 6 to meet Yu xuan to go Jurong point to see 2PM !
They are having meet and greet session there!
then met up with xiao ling, yan ping and saw Weiling, fadilah, yon jun and Zi wei !
It's all ytzen ! HAHA
By the way alot of girls go! At first i was the only boy at the queue but after that slowly ya..
There are many people there and everyone was squeezing! Luckily we were early and got a good position to see them! They are awesome !


November 19

Went to work with Marcus, Hui shi, thiamhock and Jing yong at Suntec convention
We helped bears to wear clothes and we earn money!
Haha so cute right the job? (:

我不知道为什么过了这么久，还是不能忘记你。虽然你对我那么冷淡，我还是忘不了你。请你告诉我，要怎么才能忘记你。。。

Today went to Sentosa with FRIENDS ~ Fun but tiring ~

Sun tanned. Play awhile slack had alot of fun ah !

First lesson in life is learning to live alone happily..Bcoz we won't be knowing when will we b left alone by the people we like..!

LOL i was kinda happy when i saw this!
Girls can be protected from rapist now ! :)

Yo! Now O levels 'end' le now kinda rotting at home.
But just now went to ball.
Yesterday I moved my computer from my grandmother's room to mine!
It was such a huge project and I spent 4 hours doing so!
But my room looks neater and it has got more sense of belonging (:
Starting i was kinda sad because i moved my mirror to my grandmother's room.
That mirror had accompanied for many years and I had learned many dance all thanks to that mirror! Like got feeling with the mirror le.
Haha.

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Today woke up with a sad plus angry yet happy feeling.
I dreamed of her again!
Fcuk.
I kept reminding myself to be strong and have to forget her and this fcuking dream, made me remember everything again.
I dreamed of approaching her and talking to her. It's like a 'dream' come through.
I always wanted to talk to her but i know she wouldnt even want to see me. The sight of me just irk her.
The dream was all a lie.
It's still affecting me now.

Yoyo ~
Long time never blog.
I am gonna blog about the few days before O levels English examinations.
Its around Oct 22 - 23.
I had some infection around my .. behind area and it was really hard to even sit down and focus on studying. I was very afraid of not being able to bear the pain during the English examination.
I even prepare for the worst scenario that I wont be able to take the exam and retake next year. ( ok abit exaggerating but always be prepared for the worst )
the day before the exam, I was not able to sleep as the pain was really tormenting.
I kept waking up in the middle of the night due to the piercing pain.
The next day i cab to school for my exam as i really couldn't walk but miraculously, when i was taking the paper, the pain was gone which was a good thing.

When i received the English compo, when i saw the "Freedon" theme, i was shocked and was lost so i immedaitely went to do the letter writing but in the end i screwed up my letter writing.
Ironically, the "freedom" i was less confident on, i did quite well for it, i think?
I wrote about someone being bounded to a wheelchair and the freedom of running in the soccer field and playing soccer were stripped away from him etc.

I thought it might be a nice one.

Anyway i did my best!

Math, English, Computer Studies down! :D

I left without a reason, I returned with an excuse, hoping you would forgive.
But I shouldnt have left in the first place.

"The world is a dangerous place not because of those who do evil but because of those who looked on and did nothing" Albert Einstein
Today i had a horrifying dream!
I dreamed that we went somewhere with my chalet clique and i saw a ghost wearing red chasing us.
I was with Rich and Jasmine and before that, all of us were buying stuffs like drinks for our chalet.
It was terrifying man!
The ghost was very tall, taller than a average person and I was still having the creeps just thinking about it.

Today went to school for our English lesson.
I got back my compo and letter writing, all four of them.
2 letter writing i got 18 and another 2 compo i got 18 and 19.
REAL HAPPY MAN !
Mrs Eu aint the teacher who would mark leniently, which was great and i was very happy!
I hope i can sustain my grades and lastly, I want to thank MRS EU ! Without her, all these are not possible !

Today is Science O Level practical.
Screwed up.
Both Physics graph and Chemistry the evidence part.

GRADUATION

YO !
Yesterday Oct 14 was my Graduation Day in Yishun Town Secondary School !
Kinda regret though. Didnt take much pictures. I am afraid i might miss the school and my friends too much.
Cant imagine I wont be going to Ytss anymore.
No more attending lessons.
No more sleeping in class.
No more acting to be awake but in fact sleeping during lesson time.
No more socialising in class with friends.
No more recess with friends.
No more morning assembly.
No more afterschool-go-out and relax feel.
No more nightstudy with friends.
No more 5N ghost expedition.
No more hanging out in school.
No more Bryani Rice on friday.
No more 'dirty' laksa in school canteen.
No more experiencing secondary school life.
No more waking up early and reluctant to get off my bed.
No more a lot of stuffs /:

On Graduation Day, saw Mr Zhuo cry. Almost cry when i saw him cried.
So i stayed away from him because i am afraid i might cry too. And once i cry, i wont stop and it will be very unglam.
I really miss my friends alot and dont bear to leave the school and them but i couldnt show because I dont want to lost control of my emotions.

I will miss YTSS

YO ! Today is the last day of our Night study session ):
A lot of people like dont bear to leave the school.
Guess you will never realise what you lost until its gone.
But we will still see each other in the future right?
But still ...
Took things for granted.

Tmr is our Graduation day le, kinda looking forward to it!
COME TMR COME !

Today have the Graduation Day rehearsal quite stupid /:
Saw some of my friends like sort of "got prizes' cos its a rehearsal.
It reminds me of those days which i will also be there, on top of the stage, recevinig a prize ):

Didnt go to school today, needed a break. Was too tired to even listen in class.
Feel so f'ed up.
I dunno what im thinking lately.

Okay i went to read my 2008 blog posts. Kinda exciting LOL.
I hoped i had blogged earlier just so i will be able to remind myself of the happy times i had with her...
Will blog more so a few years down my path i will venture back to this post and remind me of the O level chionging days.

11 more days to her birthday
12 more to Graduation Day
17 more days to O level first paper.

I will chiong very hard de, everydeay stay in school till 8.45pm and will be very focus.
Its now or never ~~

So long never posted le ! Have been busy 'studying' and going for night studies till like 7 everyday.

On September 23 2011

We have a volleyball BBq in school and all the volleyball players were present! The juniors have very good relationship with the teachers in charge, which is good! I can see that they are very bonded and i wished the best for them. Went to play basketball with most of the volleyball boys and the teacher in charge. Actually wanted to do night study but it's my last year so i am gonna celebrate with the boys !

Today was a pretty bad day, was supposed to have emath night studies but i injured my neck during PE lessons in the morning and my whole day was screwed up :S VERY PAIN )):
Couldnt concentrate in class etc.. My math cui sia.
Hai whole day screwed.


The day i gave up love

"Turning off your emotion at the right time for the right results."

"I will rewrite it again, our story will not end, for it is Fiction."

"In case you will leave me, the background is a small room without an exit "

"The less you care, the happier you will be."

Sept 6

Went to H&M with Huishi and Audrey. Shopped around and bought some stuffs. Then went around cineleisure, hereen and taka. Because Audrey they all wanted to buy Marie's birthday present. AND I bought a earpiece ! So happy! Cos I lost my old one and without a earpiece like can listen to no songs ):

"There's nothing worse than meeting the perfect person at the wrong time"

Sept 7

Morning woke up checked my Hotmail inbox and realised that I can withdraw money from PayPal account!!!!!!!!! HAPPY TO THE MAX ! Because it have like 103 dollars inside. So happy ~ Because recently really cash tight and have to keep borrowing from friends. And if i got money then i can buy friend's birthday present !
Then went to town with Wei Shin and Huishi to H&M. to shop for Audrey birthday present! then after that left and hui shi and weishin went to watch movie. Bought some earrings for Audrey at DIVAS for 17 dollars.

Sept 8

Went out with Yuying, Jasmine, Weitao, JunHao, Wei Ming and Liangying to celebrate Wei cai's advance birthday! I WAS LATE AND IT SPOILED THE PLAN ! ): So when reached cwp then when to buy tickets for SMURFS ~ Then went to food court to have our lunch settled. Played kartrider and then went to timezone to play some games ~ Then after that went to watch smurfs ~
It was nice LOL. The smurfs are like..okay not bad?
Then after that went home !

Sept 9

Went to Jurong Swimming complex with Weishin, Thiamhock,Raynor, Norres, JiWei and Jevon. Had a lot of fun ~ Had been long since we been there together.

I rather failed after trying, then to failing to try. When you fails it hurts alot. When it hurt alot it makes you grow stronger so when the next time you try, you willl be back stronger.


This was i posted on Facebook last year. LOL look at me now.

Try smarter and harder

nothing is really impossible,

again dont say anything as impossible

The word IMPOSSIBLE itself says Im possible

then why do u say it s not possible

everything is possible

Today is Teachers Day !!!!!!!!!!! WOAAAAAHHH

Lets talk about yesterday first.

Yesterday went for Teachers rehearsal from 9 to 5.30pm Very fun but tiring. Very hard to gather everyone. Then after that went to hall for our showcase to the teacher in charge and for them to give their comments and stuffs. EVerything end around 8.30pm
THEN after that PAtrine have to buy shoes for the performance the next day so we chiong all the way to Bugis iluma to get her shoes. We reached at 9.45pm but the shop only close at 10pm! Lucky us! Then after she picked a shoes we went to the food court to settle down and eat. After that went home ~~~ But quite fun LOL its like we run all the way from the MRT to iluma like o.o


SO TODAYYYYY

Woke up at 5am. The day before left my wallet and phone in hall and Xiang rong helped to me keep so I dont have any phone alaram for the day ):

So i used my parents piggy alarm clock and it worked like magic ! It was so bloody loud and i woke up immediately! Then bath and do stuff then went to meet Patrine, Huishi and Junhao ! Then went to school. We were on time but some were late ):

So we dont have time to practice and we have to go hall imeedately ): The 5n1 was the first one to perform and we are the fifth one to perform! Will upload the video here soon. I think i was too showy ): Btu others say i was good but i dont think so. HOWEVER as a class, i think all of us did well! Considering the little time we have to practice. It was very tidy (: After the performance went parade sqaure to take a lot of pictures ~~ TO BE CONTIUNE TIRED as i spent burn alot of midnight oil for teachers day ): Gonig sleep now ~

CONTINUED.

Took a lot of pictures! Then went home to use computer etc.

Then went to watch "Bad Teacher" with Serene, Fredrick, Joanne, Yanli and PeiYee ~

First time smuggled into a M18 movie even though i will be 18 in 4 months time, so fast ~ Ya.. They got someone to help them buy the tickets and the person is so interesting LOL.
The movie was alright, didnt know what the movie was getting at. Some nudity scene >.< like so shy.

After that walked to MRT. All the while they are like gossiping sia! LOL

Just some tweeter quotes. Erm i think they are very meaningful and 10 years down the road, i do not want to forget these quotes. so i nlogged it.


"Sometimes I talk too much and read into situation too much."

I think I'm afraid to be happy because whenever you do get too happy, something bad always happens....

The best feeling in the world is knowing that you actually mean something to someone.

Saying is so easy, everyone can say but who will do?

You live in the world that doesnt exist, therefore you aint real, you are like that world of yours.

如果在一段感情里，你不能成为你自己，你就不应该为之妥协。

Do you know why babies always want adults to hug them? Because when they grow up, the chances of them getting hug by someone is very slim..

26 August 2011

Yesterday have O level English Oral. Morning chiong all the way with Miss Shammem and she really helped us a lot! Shes not bad actually. Then when at the hall waiting for my turn for Oral went up as per normal. Not really nervous or what just that I am afraid the conversation is too hard. The picture is about 3 girls playing floorball. Then the conversation is " what does it feel to be on the losing side" and "what and the risk and challenges or trying new things". I think the cover is quite easy. I could do better but the examinors seemed to be in a hurry to get this end and get it over with. ): For the picture, i still have alot to say but they interrupted me. hai. ):

But okay la! At least its over, I wasnt good in oral anyway, my voice sounds so sian.

After oral, helped to arrange the tables for prelims. 5N did a good job :)

After that went to Northpoint with Hui Shi, Jun Hao and Patrine! Went to buy Ji Pa! Share half half with Patrine. Spent a lot of money on food recently! Should save up to buy clothes ):

我不是你第一个牵手的人；不是你第一个拥抱的人；
不是你第一个亲吻的人；不是你第一个拥有的人。
可我希望我可以是你遇到痛苦第一个想倾诉的人；
是你遇到快乐第一个想分享的人；是你遇到挫折第一个想依靠的人；是你今生以后第一个可以相伴的人。
我真的可以是你心中某一个可以第一的人。

Today went to play basketball with Jun hao, Raynor, Thiam Hock, Hui shi, Marcus and Daniel! It was fun! Too bad have to stop early because got event on that court but overall its fun!

Yesterday 19 August 2011 Went to study with Patrine, hui shi, Ryan and Junhao !
It was very fun
We went to the CC reading room to study and to our surprise, there werent much people!
So after some other people left, the whole place is ours ! Its so cool. Its like we were feel to talk and we dont have to care about our volume! :)

VEry fun!!! Joked around alot and laugh my ass off. *dirty jokes*

Then after that went to somewhere near Ryan's house there to see people fly their kites!
So cool, their kites got LED one!
And spent the night there and took alot of pictures! So fun man! LOL. then after that walked home and sent Jun hao and Patrine back home. Then after that when i reached home bathed and sleep !!!!!!

Its all over man.

Today got back my Mt chinese O level result. I got a B3.
Hah.. laugh..
Retake for the 3rd time, first time A2, second time A2, third time B3.
What a bloody joke. Fcuking bloody joke played on me.

I am going to retake man. I dont want to admit defeat. I dont want to lose.

But i know its all over. If im going to retake I have to secure a solid distinctive for Paper 1 and 2 because my Mt Oral pulled me down.

They estimated if we get Merit for Oral, for Paper 1 we will have to get 40/50 and Paper 2 we will have to get 56/70. its like 80/100 for both papers. Even though i know its impossible but i am going for it. Im going to retake.

"I know I can't take one more step towards you, cause all that's waiting is regret" Christina Perri - Jars of Hearts

Every time i see you, my heart beat abnormally fast. Suddenly, all the memories of the past started to flashed through my mind.

Today went to CC reading to study from 114 to 349pm. A great achievement! Finished one math paper 2. :) Hehe but still got one more to finished.

I havent practice my english oral and its like 10 days to English oral ):

Scare! I dont wanna fail my o level english!

Today morning went to school for physics remedial, Mr wee damn joker la, he keep saying alot of jokes and stuffs. After that it ended at 12pm and me and junhao went to buy food and then went to buy Patrine's birthday present! Had a hard time choosing it. Went to AMK to buy. Then after that some plans changed due to some problems. Then actually we decided to play a happy birthday song with the guitar for Patrine but didnt ):
Hope shes not disappointed though !

Anyway went up to Patrine house to pass her the present.

Then after that went to play basketball with Junhao and after that i went home.

Went out to buy dinner because parents are taking care of the baby. Went out alone, the feeling was alright, had been long since i went out alone. The feeling is great. Perhaps i am meant to be alone? Anyway, had been thinking about her. Again. She didnt reply any of my messages.
Actually i brought this upon myself. I really miss her.

#nowplaying 周杰伦 - 回到过去 "想回到过去,试着让故事继续,至少不再让你离我而去" I want to return back to the past to amend my fcuking mistake. Hah /;

Today went out to study at Yishun CC reading room with Patrine, Jun hao and ryan who came later. But in the end got do some homework but didnt managed to study.
But in the midst of doing homework, I saw her! She came to the study room to study also and when i saw her my heartbeat was beating damn fast... I didnt know why. WHY..
I just felt happy when i saw her. I dunno bout her though.. Then she sat a seat away from me! XD I was like ... :) ^^ :D XD But i was acting normal. /; Caught a few glimpse of her, shes still so .. erm pretty and cute. Haha.
HAPPY !!!

But even though i am feeling happy, at the same time i was feeling sad. This might be the only time i will get to talk to her and this is like my only chance. Fcuk me..
I was really a coward. I wanna talk to her, but will it make a difference anyway? I thought i saw her looking at me a few times but perhaps it might be my imagination? Who would want to look at someone as ugly as me? I really miss her alot. But since shes so happy without me, I should not disturb her life..

But its so painful, I kept telling myself not to care but the more i tell myself that, the more i care.I still cannot forget her face. I felt so useless on top of the already failed and useless and dumb and ugly me. I really want to fcuk myself upside down.

I was a stupuid idoit for letting her go, if i can return to the past, i will not make the same mistakes again.. I hope she will see this but i dont think its possible anyway.


ANYWAY, after that went basketball with Ryan, thiam hock, raynor and junhao and Daniel came later after that. It was fun! had alot of blister on my leg. /;

yo! Today is ytss ndp celebration! Quite boring leh. Dont really have the national day feel as compared to previous years; which was already also very bad. I guess its because they dont involve people like us who are not in the uniform groups. After that went to eat Mac breakfast with Hui shi, Thiam hock and Ji Wei and Jiamin and Xiang rong!

After that we met and went to Orchard taka as Thiam hock wanted to buy something there. then me and hui shi went to some random toy shop to admire the toys in there ! LOL
the toys are all very innovative and nice. I guess its being quite a long time since i had been to those type of places.

After that we went to catch "Zookeeper" in orchard cathay cineleisure. It was damn funny haha; if you manage to catch their jokes and stuffs. I give it a rating of 9.5/10 ! hahahaha ! Then when we were about to leave the place hui shi realised she had lost her earpiece and we went back to look for her earpiece and i manage to find it! hehe :)

To fall in love is easy, the hard part is to let it go. #kyuppyquotes ™

I cannot fall now. I must stay happy dont matter how bad the situation is. (:

The mouth always contradicts your heart by saying stuffs like "i don't care"

Had a very touching dream today. Dreamed that i helped a friend in school then got caught by the police and was sentenced to a jail of 1 or 2 years? Thats all i remembered about the dream. Then my friend knowing that I will be jailed due to helping a friend, they all gave me gifts and one gift was given by my friend which really touched me. She made a artifact of all my favorite food so that i can admire or something when im in jail or something but i am really touched as i really like food. I dunno la, it was just a very touching screen at that moment and i started to tear... then i realised when i really cry in that dream, after i woke up, i realised i was really crying in reality !! Was thinking bout that dream.

Today went to woodsland library to study alone. the feeling quite nice. Finally able to sit and study. (: Great achievement indeed, If i continue like this i can finish revising soon!

today went to work with hui shi and tth and jun hao in tanglin sec as catering de ppl. damn fun but tiring.. met new friend Shirley. she damn cool la, she also like k pop and learn a lot of kpop dances ((: earned $60 but cabbed home and bought working shoes $16 in the end like don't earn much..

I really missed her. I dunno why will become like this. its just a dance. anyway she's too good for me. its just another one sided love again. like dog. everyday I will tjink of her smile and it will make me very happy (:

Very tired recently. Had been cutting down on my basketball time as it had made me very tired. Today got Geog and SS test and i fell asleep alot of time. I dont think i will pass the test anyway cos i didnt study. /;
Everyday O level is approaching, my results seem to dropping instead of improving.

Saw her today at the bus stop after so long.
Guessed she didnt sleep well, her eyes were pretty swollen.
JC life isnt easy, so therefore i think i shouldnt introduce myself to her already hectic life. Anyway, its not like shes going to like me again.
She had made a mistake once and shes not so stupid to make the same mistake.
But recently life has been real tough and whenever i thought of her, it gave me strength to move on. But too bad its one-sided... I wonder what shes think about me or did i even cross her mind..
Saw her today and my heart was beating god damn fast. Was like panting.

have been doing work since 5 pm. only one, English compre. had alot of distractions. but im trying my best. very tired and I wanna sleep. I am gonna try my best so I wont regret it, just few more months it will all be over.


why am I still looking bback into the past. I made a mistake, for losing her. I missed her, I don't mind she scold me or hates me but I just wanna know if she ever thought of me this five years. I had been a fcuking flirt, its okay if she hates me, I will understand. and I am living my karma now, being an ugly bastard struggling thru his life finding sommeone or somewhat to help him out of it. my life is totally screwed, if I can go back to the past I will treat her better so we could be together and I wont feel so empty now... I miss her.

Yo ! Yesterday had English oral, total disaster man. My oral examiner is my english teacher, miss shammem ? Dunno how to spell her name.. When i sat down she gave me a boring stare and keep diao me when im talking.... I had alot of things to say but when i saw the looks she gave me, I felt very discouraged and the other teacher examining me wasnt any better than her. The worst part is, because im too nervous and i kept swing my legs, i accidently kicked their table and both of the teachers' laptop shake and very loud sia. LOL can see both the teachers very irritating and shocked. Haha
But it was really very a discouraging day because besides that alot of other things happened..

BUT today after a night sleep, i reflect and think that if the orals is hard, I have to conquer it because i knew i could do it just that i need more practice. I cant let it bother for long, I have to bring it down...

HyunA, G.NA & Yong Jun Hyung - A Bitter Day (English sub, Romanization, ...

Hyuna - A Bitter Day.

Sounds very nice :) The lyrics and very well-written.

A few days ago i was having my MT O level oral exam.
Was very nervous and scared that i wont be able to do well and not get A1.
And i was afraid that i might panic and not be able to think during the oral.
But i did quite well. Not bad, better than my expectations.

Today went out to ball with Junhao, raynor, thiam hock, audrey and huishi at first.
balled till around 3.30pm and then after that went home to prepare to go out with them for dinner !
We went to a nice chong pang nasi lemak store to buy our dinner and ate under a block. Talked and joked around alot ~
Then when we went to the beancurd shop to eat, a sad news arrived...
Hai.
Thoguht bout my family for awhile.

Overall today is great ! hope to have more of this !

Ohya and when we going to a coin disposal machine to deeposit money got one guy kp keep looking at us ! :x feel like #$@#$@ him keep looking lo. and with those kind of bitchy eyes.

"Hard work will beat talent that doesn't work hard- Kevin Eastman

YOYO ~ Today went to Sentosa with Awesome friends - Wei Shin, Jun hao, Thiam Hock, Raynor, Hamzah, Ryan, JiWei, Jia Yee, Audrey, Hui Shi and Marie ! Damn fun and high ! :DDD (HIGH HIGH. IM SO HIGH ~) Told alot of jokes, slack around, played around, sun tanned around, see chio bu around. LOL Being with is the best thing ever ~ !


After the Sentosa is another AWESOMEEE event.
We had a Perth BBQ outing ! Had hotdo

I am very slow because Im going to blog about the Perth trip (:

Perth from June 1st to June 7.

It was awesomeeeeeeee ! :)

Yeah ~

My best achievement was abseiling from a 20 storey high mountain - Mountain Quarry.
I didnt know i could do it when i looked from below, it was damnnnnnnnnn high. However I told myself i had to do it because I want to overcome myself.. In the end, I did it !
:D Was damn proud, had alot of fun, I stopped half way to enjoy the scenery. The first few steps are the most difficult and challenging de. Just like life, first few step are filled with risk and challenges, once you walked through first phase of life, it will be easier along the trip.

May 31 - today went for school for a few periods. the best is miss shammem period. She gave us a motivational talk, very nice (: then after the whole thing we went to nus!! for a motivation rally. lol. like okok only leh.. after that the walking around nus is a waste of time zzz.. just walking a big round the school zzz. That's all!
Last minute pack my luggage, a few mire hours to Perth :D excited!!

MAY 30 : TOday is the day of o level mt Chinese exam.. Paper 1 was quite easy but paper 2 is such a killer, the hardest o level paper I ever took..
after the exam, went to change for Perth money (: $300

Yo just finished doing Chinese hw! And ya, the time now is 2.37am midnight and i am still up (: just now practiced some dance around 1am lol.
So nervous and excited! Mt O levels in just 5days time and Perth trip in 1 week time. So probably next week de today I will be in Perth (:
Today Mt intensive very very tiring.. my head almost explode like OMG! Teacher kept confusing me, but fret not, I have just redo it and going to show cher Tmr. (: ( There are currently a lot of lightning and loud thunder outside my window)
Today hui shi said mt exam is at icreative room and I laughed like shyt! lol supposedly should be icreate room!! ok ba. I should go sleep now (:

Today activity is abseiling

May 17 2011

Yo, that day, I went out with Thiam Hock and Hui shi to shop for Jia min birthday present ! In the mean time, I also use this opportunity to shop for my Perth jacket! Too bad I went from Bugis junction to Bugis street and to somerset and then to far east, cannot even find one ! Maybe i will consider going back to far east again. Went to catch Fast 5 at Iluma Bugis filegarde. It was my second time watching! It was so awesome so I wacthed it twice! hui shi said its nice too!
Then shop shop around and saw alot people! Jia yee, raynor, ming shan, wei shin, audrey!
LOL laugh like shyt sia that day. Joked the whole entire day like nobody's business (:
Its fun, we must try that again sometime!

May 14 2011 Show Luo Concert !

Yeah ! Im abit slow but Im posting about that day !
Met Mandy Lee at yishun MRT then wait for Yu Ying and Bryan to come from Woodlands.
So excited :D
After that we trained to Stadium Station and then went to queue up for Show Luo concert mechardise. Ddint expect myself to buy anything cos im saving money for Perth trip but I was so tempted ! LOL Bought a Show Luo concert magazine and Show Luo freaking big poster. NICEEEEEEEEEEEEE ~
We queued for about 2 hours? from 4 plus to 6 plus then went to some random shopping mall de kopitam to eat.
AFter that went back to indoor stadium to queue up to and then enter the indoor sport hall. Mandy have to sit at different place cos we bought our tickets separately.
Overall the concert was awesome man !!
Cannot describe the feeling of the concert. Really too good to be true, I never thought in my entire life that I wll ever go to a Show Luo concert. It was so magnificent that I hoped my vocabulary is better so I can find a better word to describe it. Most importantly, all the people going are all fun people! After that we supper together in Northponit Mac and home !

Today is the first day of mt intensive for me cos ytd i kinda skipped it cos my sister got wedding dinner. Should post some pictures next time !
Anyway today is really very tiring.
After mt intensive really very tired and then still got mock exam paper and after that mock exam paper still got test cos i didnt go for mt intesinve ytd. tbc..

LOL the previous post is about all my past rants. LOL

"Twitter had caused us to be more emo one way or another. Like knowing things we shouldn't know, saying things we shouldn't say, hurting those who we shouldn't hurt."

"the worst thing's not remembering the sad times, but remembering the good times cze you know they're never gonna happen again."

"How do you expect him to know you love or miss him when you're not even showing it. Dont treat him like a mind-reader, sometimes you're jsut not that lucky."

"Don't ever show your temporary weakness, people who don't know you well will think its your permanent weakness."

"We were once so close, now, worst than being strangers."

"Stop at nothing when you have nothing to lose and everything to gain."

"Don't be angry with the right friend, you might just end up regretting afterwards, well I did."

"Sometimes I laugh at my life, cos its such a joke."

"How much I hoped I could bring her from the Past to the Present."

"It's nice to be important but its important to be nice."

"Finding someone who understands you is not easy. Especially when you are so complicated."

"When you say never say never, you had already said it twice."

"Im not the guy your heart is missing."

"Sometimes you love someone so much that you dont mind jsut being her friend. At least you can stay by her side..."

"To be forgotten is the saddest thing to forget."

"Why are we so afraid of failures, so afraid of trying? Isit because if we can't do it we would not be able to face the reality?"

"Trying to be different, can be sort of weird in the eyes of normal people; cos' we are different."

"When people says you copied others, ask them why they are wearing clothes, because everyone is wearing clothes, so are you copying them as well?"

"If we dont forgive and forget, eventually it will jsut turn out to be a cycle of never ending hatred."

"Love hurts but you have to find the right one who is worth the pain."

"When 'what if' stepped in and we stopped believing."

'"The best thing is not to have any connection with anyone."

"Been thinking bout this thing call love."

Respect the one who loves you, dont treat them like shit, cos when one day they are gone, you're gonna miss them in one way or another.


"If you obey all of the rules, you miss all of the fun. "

The disappoint you felt when you finally found a stapler but after you try to staple your paper and realized there are not staples inside );

NO MORE EMO POST !!!!OK I PROMISE FOR THE TIME BEING !

OK ! today is Vinesh birthday. Wa we do until very jia lat sia.
We bounded him to a chair with a tape and we carried him down to the canteen.
HAHAAHHAHAHA

Then in canteen, we pour flour and bashed him there. We also brought out the cake there and celebrated there. then after that have to clean up the floor lol.

BigBang - Love Song

Hello! today is a normal day. (: It's just that I saw her at the bus stop again today...
I was at quite a distance away from her, indeed she was across the road at the bus stop. And I was looking at her looking at me. We stared for a moment and we stood still looking at each other.. How much I hope I could act like someone she know and walks towards her and say hi. As I was crossing the road approaching her direction, my heart pumped unknowingly faster, as though it had met its pair, but as I walked towards her direction, she turned 360 degrees with her back facing me. I knew she saw me coming... just as I walked past her, I saw her slightly turn sideways and look at me. Was I imagining things? I hoped its not playing with me. Why after 4 years I still got feelings for her. Of course I didn't love her for 4 years straight, its just that when I see her, all the feelings that I once felt for her came rushing all over inside my body. Are they playing tricks on me? I had a damn fcuking hard bloody mother fcuker time trying to forget her, why must you let me see her now, now, I can't even get her out of my head. I thought karma had alrrady struck me? By making me this fcuking ugly, isn't this enough already? Why...

Today received the form to pay for the Perth Trip. Damn stressed. My mother ask me to pay her back after my O levels and I go to work. I need money now like seriously...
So stressed about so many things, coursework, studies, math, physics, chemistry and ENGLISH which is like almost everything..

I saw her at the bus stop today again. Then I spent my rest of the day thinking of her.. I wished I could just walk straight to her and say hi. if she was still angry with me I will scold myself. Shes a treasure I dint treasure.. I am still sorry that I hurt her so badly and I was unaware at that time. i just want to be her friend once more so I can stay by her side.

Today is the last day of Adam Khoo workshop.
For this past 3 days, I really did enjoyed myself, the trainers were great and their life experiences are great too!
Even though its tiring, but its worth it!
The closing ceremony was great

tbc

Sometimes there is no next time, no time-outs, no second chances; sometimes it's now or never. -Alan Bennet

March 15 2011 Tuesday

March 15
Today went to Marina Barrage with STMC and the Whites missing the Blacks.
Damn fun! Was late because i went to Jevon house for sleepover the day before. Then I rushed home from Jevon's house then to the outing.
First time to the Barrage was awesome! The place very nice and interesting!
When we reached Marina Bay, we saw the shuttle bus to the Barrage and i heard the bus only come once every 30 minutes. So hearing that, we all run to catch the bus ~
(;

Haha. Damn funny lo, imagine a group of 8 people all running to catch the bus zz
Thought we couldnt make it but we did !

Then after we reached there, we went to fly a kite. the kite damn cool, its a eagle. Junhao de kite.
Then hor tried the kite keep failing! LOL then in the end rained nuclear rain LOL>.<

Rumoured Nuclear Rain.

Then went into the shelter and talked and ate.
TBC

Today went to school for BC day - B2P water bottle collection.
Basically recycling the bottles to make pens.
And then we have to collect bottle caps for sec 1s for their Soul programme.

Im group with Khairul, Norres, Xiang Rong and Jia Min.

Actualy group with suvitra, Nisa, michelle and Pakit de but eventually changed with Yvonne.

Its damn fun lo! The 3 of us, norres khai and me damn high lo!
Haha. Then got a black car stalked us from 9 to 2 floor, i wanted to name it stalker but norres wanted to name it' black panther' Haha (:

Then after we walked down the block, I saw 2 more cats quarreling and norres took down the video!
They were like screaming and meowing very loud at each other!

Lost your pen=no pen
No pen=no notes
Nonotes=no study
No study=Fail
Fail=no diploma
No diploma=no work
no work=no money
no money=no food
no food=you get skinny
you get skinny=then you get ugly
Ugly=no love
no love=no marriage
no marriage=no children
no children= alone
alone=depression
depression=sickness
sickness=death

Lesson: Don’t lose your pen, you will die.. :P

A boy gave his girlfriend a challenge; to live a day without him & if she did it he would love her more. The girl agreed and she didnt talk to him for a day without knowing he had only 24 hours so live because he was suffering from cancer. She went to his house the next day tears falling from her eyes as she saw him lying in a coffin with a note on the side:'You did it baby,you can do it everyday

Thursday 17.02.11

WA Lucky my hair was not caught !
I cant be caught !
PLSS LOL. Anyway its already over lo.
My plan was to wax all my hair down to make it look as if its short :D Apparently, it worked!

Ithink that horoscope really accuarate leh !
I am currently a half Sagittarius and half Capricorn. LOL
Cos got the weird 13 horoscope come out and i dunno why my sentence is underlined?

I wanna buy new basketball shoe ~!Mine old de spoil le !
Freaking nice right? Dont try to deny. But the price is also very nice too! S$139 + );

Today got PTR, after school went for Green Club, then slack around school then go for PTR until 7 plus. Wasnt listening in hall at all. LOL
went for a round of basketball and jogging session jsut now. Now freaking tired and both of my leg got a part very pain ):

If people talk bad about you, let them. Because you cant go around explaining to everyone who have misunderstood you. Its too tiring, its unnecessary..

Im sorry.
If i had been more matured, if im had been more caring towards you, if i had never ignored you, if i never had been so flirt, i wouldnt have hurt you. I fking hate myself, perhaps what im encountering now is a retribution for me. I have been such an asshole, you are such a good girl and i miss you like hell now. I know something cant be amend, but i just hope i can return to the past and change it. If i can, im not going to let you go anymore.

Hi. Im blogging now! Yo sup!

to be continue.

If life was easy, everyone will be a millionaire.

Haven beign blogging lately as was busy.
Not with school work but with alot of unecesscary things which caused me to go side tracked.
Like playing online games, listening to songs, basketballing aiya, i jsut want to focus on my studies and i cant seem to focus nowadays in class. I have to step up.

Woah today is my birthday!
TBC !

If you can not make a woman loves you, make her laugh.

WAh SICK !
Today woke up whole body cui diao.
then measure my temperature, 38.2 degree! Then went to the doc and measure 38.4 degrees.!
Then come sleep and woke up 38.8 degree!
This two week fell sick 2 times.

Fuck , then even spread the cough virus to my friends ): FUCK ! ):

I really cannot stop my cough, its too much to control ):

"It's not about dropping subject to improve your other more important subjects, it's
about you undermining your own abilities while you're far more capable than jsut this."

"Laziness killed the Genius." "If u cant accept my worst , u dont deserve my best ."

LOL.
Today was a great day.
Dissmissed early and went to NYP for programming.
Today de quite easy.
Can understand.
Then after that went to Wei Shin house play Kinect ! Fun ~
Played the dance de and sports kinect.
Shiok!
Then junhao went to play blackshot at Wei Shin house.
Yea, we should have more of this kind of gathering.
We must stay UNITE ! XD

Maybe im jsut tired .
Maybe im jsut sick of it.
Maybe im just sick of everything.
Maybe i just wanna remain where i am now.
Maybe I just doesnt want to face it.

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I am caught in the dilemma of whether i should retake my o level mt.
I have high expectations.
Dpont wanna regret

Today got back my o level mt result, was expectating a A1
But got a A2 again. Hai. Top scholar got 10As, but we are only taking 8 subjects or 7. So even if we got all A1s, we still wont be noticed o.o
sian ok lets give up!
Just kidding~

Today went out to play basketball with Melvyn Bryan Sici and Haziq.
LOL damm fun la, laugh until stomache !!
Keep telling jokes and stuff.
But was damn tired! So sleepy XXX:
But still need to go northpoint to buy things and do hw !! HAI !!

Jan 6

Had a terrible morining. Had fever and sore throat, actually not going to school de, But i cant cos this year is o level year i cant afford to miss out anything.

I wanted to blog on jan 1 but busy la !! So kept delaying!

Dec 31
Met up with Jevon Vinesh Weishin and Norres.
Went to Orchard ion walk walk then went to marina there for countdown party >.<>.<

Jan 5
TODAY!
LOL Today second day of schhol~ felt abit better.
Then during CS lesson came to know that our course work starts next week.
Omg!
>.< so unbelievable. But i still have to do it ! :)
Then school suppose to end at 1.30pm but we goig NYP for VBA course! sian ttm !!
then went there to learn alto programming codes which i dont understand at all! So chim~
Left NYP at 6pm reached home around 8.