I like Xishan alot.
Its somewhere like a home, unlike YishunTown, dont feel a sense of belonging at Yishuntown.

"this is home truly, where i know i must be, this is where, i wont be alone, for this is where i know, i am home !! " extract from home (:
HAha. I wont forget this song, every national day we will sing as a whole (:
But now, it cant be experienced anymore :X
Thats why, every year i will and must go BACK !!!

Ha, mrs Sam still remembers me ! Happy happy (:
3 yrs never saw her le ):
Glad. I saw her, she was just about to drive home.
I had alot of deep thoughts there.

We sneak into music room, the smell still never change. So unforgettable. And the computer lab too.
We then inflitrated into math room, art room, ad walk inside very deep. Too bad the library is closed.

Then we sneaked back to our class (:
we took lift to the 6 floor.
Where our classrooms are.
It so well decorated.
Its so touching. My childhood memories. Are all just coming back.
Missed the tables and chairs and all the structures there.
Hope i can go back and study there again.

Rememebering the times when me and my friends are punished, the fear inside us, it seems as though we had spent very part of our life there and experinced everything there.
Love, fear, tears, treasuring, caring, sharing etc..

Yo.
Today is teacher's day !!
Haha. I said happy teacher's day to mrs phua she replied good morning :X
Performance was not bad.
After that went to eat with Xiang Rong and Cai Hong at food court.
Talked about alot of things.
Then later when going to watch movie le then saw huishi and she joined us go watch movie (:
"The Proposal" was the movie we watched.
The movie was great but theres a weird person sitting beside me -.-
I was quite scared. Got a weird smell coming from there and she kept laughing so exaggeratingly.
Whatever.
The movie was great.
After that went back to Xishan with Hui shi then met Ang.
She was late -.=""

The security is so strict at the gate as they dont want to let us pass.
The previous year was also strict, its like its stricter every year.
Then suddenly is began to rain heavily. Waited in the rain. Damn stupid lo.
Then was totally drenched in the end managed to get in.




The middle is my favorite teacher (: Which is call mr neo.



The rest below is random of my favorite places (:














corridor


View from upstairs




MY class locker





Ang, huishi and me (;



Beside me is the retard (: Hehe dont scold me if you sees this -.-...

Ang and Huishi









Sentosa (:






Jonathan classic slacking in class






Mrs Wong got sorethroat

Hi
i now at my primary school using the computer to blog (:
i miss my primary school (:

Hi
i now at my primary school using the computer to blog (:
i miss my primary school (:

Hello (:

I went to search for some lame photos, when ever you progress, you must never forget who you are, i am lame. and that will never change (: Take it or leave it.

Today went to play basketball, played with some very violent adults. And when i was fighting for the rebound with a big guy then he hit me from behind and i fall straight to the ground ):
He was very big size and my leg bleed.

CLICK TO VIEW !!!!!! Mr zhuo's camera very power !!
All the pictures that he had taken, one picture's memory space is 6 mb plus !!
It is equal to a song -.-
And his picture is so big size de, resize le blogger still can only portrait half of it. -.-

Hi.
My Blogger posting got some problems -.-
ok nvm it doesnt affect much.

Ok. Since the day i posted my last post, since that day i felt better and better (;
Like more people come talk to me, congrats me etc.
thanks (:

I really felt very happy that i have got such a good result for POA, Geog and SS.
For Poa, i was pretty confident but not for geog and ss.
During the Geog and SS test, i wasnt very confident so i did it half heartedly -.- so i was surprised, flabbergasted, that i was top for SS and Geog :DD

Poa : 92/100
Geog : 10/12
SS : 12/18
Hehe (:

But something just stop me from being happy; my English result.
I am really really felt regretful for my own English and i dont know why; regret.
I was very confident when i was doing the paper i know i will do well. What went wrong?
Was i too confident???
I kept trying to pledge teacher for some marks in every single way; like when the answer is very close, but my marks still nvr change. 33/80
Its too far from passing. . .
FAr.

but my poa and geog and ss really make me feel better, sort of like they seems to be trying to console me... -.-
my poa marks was damn high and i was damn high too when i gotten my marks. I was really really happy when i gotten my marks...

But...hai.

My conclusion. "dont compare yourself with others, you are just insulting yourself that you can be compare with others."


Math :27/35
English : 33/80
Physics : 19/30
Chemistry : 17.5/30
Mt : 28/40
Comp.S : 1000/1000000 :D -.-""

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Today got back english paper.
I failed.

hai, i felt as though my life had been altered. Or just someone had cursed me.
doing alot of things i don want to do, and alot of things supposed to be done not done.

I was very confident in my english paper but in the end i failed );
I dunno what i should do le.
I know that there will be some one laughing at my failure...

Yesterday i didnt go to school.
Most of the people didnt even realise i am gone, thats just show how significant i am.

I had try so hard to be a friend but in the end, it just doesnt worked out.

Was very sad today.

Thanks marie junhao and minqi for coming over to console me (:
thanks, i know they will nvr see this but this is the time when true friends appear and fake friends emerged, its easily able to divide them.
Thanks for caring (:

I am always alone, and i dunno why, everytime i want to join into the group, i just felt like i am an outcast.
And when i tried talking to people, even though they are just beside me, i have to call them 5 times then they will hear me or after i talked to them, they never even bother to reply and just looked away.
I just felt so bad coming to school everyday, really very sad, it just crush my already-gone confidence. For those who want to know why i never come on tues, hoping there are some who wants to know, its bvecause i don wan to face them. I felt like an idiot, a fool, just sitting there talking to myself. I am pathetic, laugh at me.

So tired.

Yesterday slept at 1 plus...
I went to bed at 10 but couldnt sleep ):

So tired. Felt so defeated :X

Tml maybe not going to school..

My primary school song !! (:

Missed it.


Stand up for Xishan
Never must we let her down
Shine with glory as the bright sun
Fame and honour crown*



May we always find excellence
Through the winds of change
Love and care and share our reliance
Steadfastly unchanged



Be true, Xishanites!
And be worthy of our name
Constantly we strive for great heights
Lead Xishan to fame



Brain and brawn must have a ballast
This must be our aim
Always invoke them and hold fast
Till our goals attained




(Repeat *)

I forgot how to sing it le.

You're not gonna them till they are gone

Haha, my basketball have really improve alot. thank god my physical training not in vein.
i can palm the backboard le. Just half a palm more to surprise all those giraffes (:

then when just about to win i sprained my leg and we lost :X

then have to drag my leg back home. and then saw marcus on the way. Actually when playing basketball already saw him le.

Yo.

What thiam hock said is right. Thanks thiam. (:
Quite meaningful.
Even though if you are sad, the day still goes on, even though you are happy, the day just goes on. So we can choose how we want to live everyday.
I think that life is made up every single little choices we made in our life. Every choice will surely lead you to somewhere, if it dont, that means you had made the wrong choice.

Rumors, why cant people live without rumors, the most important thing is that they are all coward which is the funniest clinical nonsense. Why dont dare to just walk to person and tell that person.?? If you are a coward, then dont hide behind people's shadow and talk bad about people !! For god's sake. And i know its very easy to struck out a rumor, but i dont want to (:
Hehe.

Today, went to play basketball and sprained my ankle, again. -.-
But i was happy with my ultimate performance. :D

Dunno what to blog le, before had alot on mind but when i wanted to blog, then couldnt think of anything.

If you enjoyed your primary school years, you'll do it.
If you have nothing else to do, you'll do it.
If you're here to read the questions/answers and pretend to hate to do it, deep down you'll still do it.

1) Which school did you go to?
Xishan Primary School :P

2) What classes were you in?
1A,2B,3D,4D,5B,6B

3) What was/were your favourite lesson(s)?
PE, with my fav pe teacher ): miss him.

4) If you could remember, what time was your recess?
9 plus ba? Keep changing de.

5) List down your favourite food/snacks.
The rice there wit the egg de black sauce plus a drumstick (: I ate the same food for the whole primary 5 year, so i dont know the other store that well (:

Style
1) Did you have a nickname way back in primary school?
Sia la, got damn loads, got Mr Low, Low, lzh, female ghost and loads loads more (:

2) How did you wear your socks?
I tried to copy others to wear ankle socks :P

3) Have you been suspended due to the way you put on your uniform?
No, just being punished to stand outside the principal office only.

4) Were you given plenty of reminders about your appearance?
Have, some? Class photos, year photo, etc...

5) Who did you look up to when you were in primary school?
I looked up to anyone. I Had ALOT ALOT OF friends, seems like anyone in the level is my friend (:
Andi have made some friends from other lower level because i was very random friendly -.-

Punishment
1) Name one memorable scene where you were punished in front of the whole class.
I always talk alot, so punished because of it. But i am considered obedient, well liked by teachers (:

3) Give one scene where you escaped from being caught/punished.
Couldnt remember leh, i was quite a coward when young and dont dare to own up mistakes but eventually i will own up so never escape (:

4) Did you vandalize any school property?
Tables?

5) Did you ever make any teacher cry?
The whole class did, and the teacher ran out agitatedly.

6) Who was your favourite teacher in primary school?
Mrs Ko and MR NEO (: Mr Neo is my life's most favorite teacher, till now every year i will go back and visit him and he still remembers me ...): Touched .

7) Describe your DM..
Stiff.

8) Who was the funniest/weirdest/loudest teacher?
not mine but my friend's class de chinese teacher, who was being called "boss" threw chairs at students de, damn fierce and scary. -.-
Social Circle
1) Were you popular back then?
YAAA ~~ DUH ?? Need to explain ?? So obvious !! -.- BHB. but its because i was very friendly though (:

2) Were you in a big group of boys/girls or small ones?
Big groups of boys and sometimes girls.

3) Who were your best friends?
jun long, elton, mu feng, kok chuen, vivian gui, clarice, samuel, fali, yusri, daniel, sheqin, seri, (shit i am going to forget my good friends' name le :P ) desmond, han xiang,shu yi, iris, gladys, geok ting, zi hao, arraon, presan huishi? got alot la ! couldnt rmb :P

4) Did you and your friends have nicknames?
Neh.

5) What were your favourite memories of you and your friends?
When during the NDP !!! When different singapore songs were played and some was so touching that we cried -.- then we will go to our negihbour school, yishun town, to celebrate our ndp together.
And when our teacher didnt come to school and we have to spilt class, the class will be spilt into diffrent grouos and go to other classes. Fun man !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Co-curricular Activities
1) What CCAs were you in?
HAHA :D

2) What did you have to bring to your CCA?
:D

3) What did your CCA require you to do?
:D

4) Got injured?
run and fall -.-


Crushes/Lovers
1) Who was your first crush?
HAHA, first was a malay girl -.- when i was in pri 1 -.- definitely, i was blind :X

2) Are you in good terms with your last crush?
Last crush? i remembered that when the last car almost crushed me then i had a pretty good fight with the driver, why should i be in good terms with that crush? It almost took my life :DDDDDDD
Ok..it pretty lame :X

3) Did you ever had a relationship with anyone in your primary school?
NOPE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

4) Have you ever made out in school?
We were still pure at that time. Like things like pure bio etc in secondary school. -.-

Closing Ceremony
1) How did primary school change you?
It made me realised alot alot of things, life matters, handling dangerous life threatening, teeth biting, hands shaking, head aching situation.

2) Sing one verse of your school song.
dont remeber le !!

3) What was your favourite question?
Why ah?


4) Who/what will you remember from your primary school?
Those who made my six years of primary school life memorable. We may not be as close now, but still, thank you. And those punishment we had with my friends, fun times, mischeivous time, defiant times, all those times we had, its wonderful, cool, exciting, none but the best (:

5) Any memories you will not forget.
Graduation day. Was called up the stage for fashion cat walk -.-
the teacher say i look like a taiwan singer (: oh thanks (:

Looking for my fear, why doesnt i fear anything ?

I hope that i have the power to make people smile when i looked into their eyes and smile at them.

We mustnt blame other factors for our own failure.

Growing is a process, growing can be a goal, yet someone just doesnt grow.

Loser look back to the past and regret and regret over the things they had done wrong and cry over it but winners look back at the past for mistakes they had made and amend from it.

Dont cry over the past, you dont have the power to control the past but you have the power to control the future.

Experience is not what happens to you, but it is what you do with what happens to you.

Happiness depends on what you can give, not what you can get.

Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else, eventually you are the one who gets burned.

Slow learning is a disadvantage, but you can turn it to an advantage as you learn slow and efficiently.

The key to immortality is living a life worth to be remembered.

A power-hungry individual follows a path to his own destruction.

Birthday coming soon (;
Going to become 16 le (:
I am looking forward to it !

I gotta study. I dont want to regret not studying hard enough in my life.
I have regretted doing and not doing some particular things and i dont want to regret about anything again so i must be extra careful .

Careful.

5 more months to my birthday.
Its a Sunday.
I doubt no one will remember it like this year.
I hope i can receive alot of presents and my friends will give me a surprise? Or someone? Anyone will do.

Of all of my birthdays, 15 years, i cant think of any birthday that i could remember and treat it as a HAPPy birthday.
They are plain, plain empty.

MY life is so plain, and my own will and motivation tried to convince myself that my life is "fun" "interesting" "great" . And I wonder how long my motivation and will of this comical clinical crap last.

I used to watch this cartoon when i was a kid !
It taught me alot of values in life !
I was looking for this for a long long time !!

ENG Lyrics
You've gotta be extra careful with
The things that are close and dearest to you
You know the closer you get to something
The tougher it is to see it
Explain to me all my happiness
That you just experienced by my side
Or maybe you're so blessed in ways that
You can't even remember it all
That you are standing here with me
That you live and breathe and see and feel
They're all little miracles and wonder
Just by themselves.
You've gotta be extra careful with
The things that are close and dearest to youYou know the closer you get to something
The tougher it is to see it
You know the closer you get to something
The tougher it is to see it
And I'll never take it for granted
It's fine to say "Never give up"
Say "Keep chasing your dreams on
But the more time you spend talking big
The less you get done with life
I'll let that handful of courage in my heart
Help me survive another day
And I'll never take it for granted
Let's go!

WOO HOO ~~
I gave her her birthday present !!!
So GLAD that she like it so much :P
HEHE (:

Glad (:
Happy (:

Thanks Domo ! I wont forget you de ! Thanks for helping me out!!

What should i do ?
Where should i find back my confident, when?
How am i going to find it back?
Should i even clutch on to the love that doesnt even exists?
It sounds stupid.

I am feeling so terrible and disgusted by myself...

Sian...
I am feeling so down and so inconfident...
I know i said i wont emo anymore more but this truly impacted me directly.
Sometimes i dont even dare to look into the mirrors ya know?
And you know what i meant.
If i have got no confidence in myself, whats more to say about having the confidence to like someone else?

Hi.
Firstly, i aint a emo person (:
Today i got back my ss test. 4/12
geog 9/12
my ss always always pull my humans down !!! Damn angry !!!
I wrote alot, I followed teacher's instruction, i studied, i tried !!
so overall my humans will be 13/24, just pass ):

My results are now all dropping. . maybe i thought i am very "clever" so thats no need to study so my results drops like hell. Arrogant );

I will try not to feel like way le.

as for my chinese compo 11/20

What the??
Math 8/20
Chem 43/52 ?? What the ??
Whats going on man !!! I must really find my own mistakes fast or else everything will be too late.

"The greatest thing humans can achieve is to find out one's own mistakes and improve"

Was abit tired, saw everyone so distracted and english teacher so distracted during the english lesson so decide to sneak out for a walk.
When i came back i felt better (:

I guess my results fall so badly is also because that thing that happen recently, was confused and distracted. It shouldnt happen again (:

Hi.
Blogged.
Later have SS and Geog test.
Hope i can do well for it.
Because i really depend on these two this time to pull my results up.
It seems that more people are visitng my blog, which is a good thing (:
So i think i shouldnt post anymore emo stuffs -.-
Cos i dont think i am actually a emo person.
(:
So long nvr post le. Cos sis keep using computer then i was studying then nvr use ...

I want to add on to the post which i went to pasir ris park for marcus birthday.
When we are taking taxi home, patrine and i alighted first then last is raynor.
Then when i was half way back home, i found out that my phone is missing !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I was so scare, and it as night time and i felt so helpless..
So i immediately rushed to a shop and requestedt them to lend me their phone to call my handphone. then eventually raynor picked up ! Thansk god man (:
hhaha !!

Everyday i drank at least 6 bottles of 1.5 litres of water (:

Hi.
Just came back from basketballing.
Was not feeling well.
Ate alot of things and drank alot of things.
Drank 2 bottles of 1.5 litres of water.
Ate 6 bananas
Ate a packet of biscuits.
Ate maggi noodles.
Drank some clod drinks.
And then went to play basketball.
felt dizzy, and tired of course (;

Ya, yesterday went to pasir ris park, sorry for leaving early becos i was tired and my body probably wont make it.
I must rest well. Really well.
And lastly i want to thanks Hui shi, Raynor and Jiayee for helping me out!
I felt much better and confidence. (:

Yo.
Tonight went to play basketball and saw a group of adults playing basketball.
They asked me to play till 10 and i was shocked. But still no difference, that time was 9 then.
So i played with them.
They said that every tue and thur they will be playing there and they asked me to join them (;
haha.
I finally can train at a tougher new boundaries le (:

Yo.
Tonight went to play basketball and saw a group of adults playing basketball.
They asked me to play till 10 and i was shocked. But still no difference, that time was 9 then.
So i played with them.
They said that every tue and thur they will be playing there and they asked me to join them (;
haha.
I finally can train at a tougher new boundaries le (:

I guess my fire has been burnt out, the motivation is gone.
I cant believe it, i thought i could stand longer.
After all that i had been through.
So tired, not those kind of sleep, wake up, everything is fine de tired.
Is sick and tired.
Math graphs.
...
Her.
...
Friends.
...
Responsibility.
...
Schoolwork.
...

shyt.

I hope i can take all this better.
Or perhaps looking this at a different angle.
I think there'll be lesser basketball for me, until i finally sort out everything.

Very stressed,
Alot of things suddenly popped out.
have to deal with something which doesnt even concern me, but i had decided to do something about it.

Yo.
Today slept for 14 hours -.-
Damn nice.
Had alot of dreams.
But once woke up i had forgotten some.