I dont think i will be anyone's type of guy they wanna be with.
Everytime i see couples walking down the streets, i thought to myself, will i find my another half someday?
Haha, sounds funny i know.

Woke up to a miss call from the recruit agency.
So i called back and they told me they found a job for me at Uniqlo somerset 313.
The pay is low but i agreed to it immediately as i dont want to miss out this chance.
Hmmm going to go broke soon so i just dont want to be too picky so i just accept it.
Its everyday from June 1st to June 13th 3pm-10pm. Hope everything is ok tmr.

Then after  that i rushed from Tampines to Dover SP to celebrate my friend's birthday ~
Been so long since i saw them!
They all rushing and stressing on assignment.. /:
Okay, it's junjie birthday and Yi xuan invited me to school to celebrate his birthday ~~

haha it was fun! I took a piece of cake and smash on his face LOL
Ok la! Hope they score well for their assignment cos they really work very hard for it! (:

 

Okay, after coming back from SP, I went back to YTSS to get my testimonial from school.

The security guard the indian woman one like v friendly sia.

Didnt expect her to be so.

So i went in and suddenly, when i was walking towards the general office, i looked around me, the school where i used to be. Everything seems so close and familiar but yet with a sense of unknown foreign feeling. It's like telling us we dont belong there anymore despite those time we spent in that school. 

So when i entered the general office, the place changed le, now we must walk right all the way to reach the reception counter.

Then i saw Mr Jackson. 

LOL, my arch enemy in YTSS. 

He everytime kp me for nothing.

I remember there's one time when i have my shirt tucked out and i walked past him and he called me to tuck in my shirt but i just walk away and ignore him.

Then he flared up and shouted :" Hey i call you to tuck in your shirt right?! Come with me to see the DM now!" 

LOL got so serious meh?

Seriously, i wasnt feeling scare at all then i just followed him. 

I  have not been called up by teacher to go see DM for a very very long time since sec 2 when i fought with Kelvan. 

So i was wondering what will it be like.

Then i just followed him and unexpectedly, we walked by Mr Lee Ah Liat!

He like damn good to me >.< 

So sad now he leave school le );

But anyway Mr Lee asked me and the teacher to go over and he helped me by confronting the teacher and ask him not to send me to DM >.<................... 

SO TOUCHED !!!

Then the stupid teacher released me and walked away.

WOW ~~~ Then Mr Lee actually helped me in alot of things.

Like i lack of a CCA teacher to sign my form that time when i wanna go Perth. 

Mr low doesnt want to sign (as Teacher in charge of volleyball)

then since i have been helping out in Green club ( in charge by Mr Lee Ah Liat), Mr lee without a doubt he just say come down and find me, i will help you sign ))))))))))):

OMG i cannot explain how i was feeling at tht point of time...

I am really very grateful towards him ...

i seriously dont know what to say.

Haha ok back to the main topic, so i just do some admin stuff then get my testimonial le :D

Went out with friends early in the morning to go gym. Not really early la jsut early for me cos i slept late /: It was great la, did many intense workout and my friends helped me. This is the first time i ever trained so hard in a gym! Then after that meet up with friends again to go SSC to eat a steaamboat buffet call FatFish ! It was not bad! But abit costly, $28. Ate and talked cock and have some catching up (: After that we randomly thoguht of going to LAN shop and play because they keep talking about blackshot when we are eating! Then we go play at the one nearest to SSC. The game like damn epic sia, ppl shouting here and there haha ~ We played like 1 hour but it seems damn long cos in the end we ended up being very tired due to all the shoutings >.< It is awesome to have meet up with friends after so long. Somemore i might be going ns this year and will have lesser chances of meeting them anymore. ): We should take friends for granted. They are a luxury for us.

Yo ~ Long time never post le. Havent being doing much stuff recently. 1 week without school and I alr cant take it le! I cant stand myself not doing anything productive or useful >.< Going to find a job soon. Hai. The tough time is not consider over but its jsut that I try to make no regards to it as much as possible..

Couldnt sleep. Thinking about what im going to do next. I have alr decide to go ns instead of studying but its like i see most of my friends enjoying themselves in poly but i cant help but to look at myself and ask myself why cant i have the same too? Why must everything be so hard on me? I know im too weak. but i have too many arising problems and my weakness is constantly pulling me down and i have no one to be there for me. Everyone else seems to have somekne behind them, Or someone who they can fall back on but everything i fall back, i just hurt my back. Now after quitting school, i feel even more stressed as obviously it was a stupid thing to do. Many ppl asking me not to quit and stuff but i cant hold on anymore. Then i realised i said i wanna work after quitting school but i only see myself staying at home everyday doing nothing. i dont wanna be like this man.. The reason i quitted poly is becos i have a dream. Im risking everything i have and to pursuitt my dreams. its a silly thing to do but i really want it so badly..even though its not realised..im going to try very hard to achieve it. Anything possible. Everything. i dont wanna regret not trying to go for my dream.

Today went to OCS - officer cadat school with my class.
The place quite boring la, but my friends made it fun (:
Early in the morning i have hti presentation with Junjie ~
He very good in talking sia, he see the paragraph one time jiu can summarise le.
Ytd do the powerpoint till like 4am then woke up at 7am >.<
Today is my last day in school ):
So i wanted to keep some good memories for myself so I wanted to treat my friends better for the last day LOL.
Anyway i really like this class ):
They bond in a fast way and we grow very close despite it only being the 1st month only.
I will miss them.

Today went to class; as usual, and when my classmate saw me they were damn surprised cos of my hair colour LOL.
They say they cant recognise me >.<

Anyway with this new colour, when i walk outside ppl keep staring -.-.

BUT I really like it! I think i can only keep it till end of this year then need go NS le ))):

Yo! Yesterday jsut dyed my hair ~
Personally i like the colour alot!
I spent a total of $55 on hair and $20 on ear piercing and earings /:
Shyt... my sister de camera still under repair.
Dont know need pay how much >.<
Damn stupid lo, that day accidentally dropped it into my maggie mee then spoil >.<

Okay, she finally repiled me.
Fianlly she gave me a answer, gave me a reason to give up on her.
She is as bitch as usual and I have to confirm one last time shes the same like every other girls.
After so many years, i thought she may have grown abit more mature but i was wrong.
So disappointed.
I was so bloody stupid to hold on and feel hurt for so long.
Those endless nights when i cry myself o sleep thinking of her was such a dumb thing to do.
She doesnt even know what love is.
She dont understand the feeling im going through.
Karma will meet up with her some day and f her upside down.
Bye, I shall bid farewell to this stranger who i never knew.

Anyway today i have decided to withdraw from poly.
Had been skippping soon for 2 days straigth and most probably tmr too.
I have no more motivation to stay in this course anymore.
Kept overslept, and wake up to a tired morning and then decide to skip school.
I have enoguh of all these.
Everyday have to do work till 4-5am in the morning then have to sleep afew hours then got to wake up and go school only to receive more assignments.

But after i quit poly, what should i do?
I really dunno.
I was hoping to be able to appeal to other school but it failed.
NS? Work? Rot at home?

I dont wanna be so useless.
I dont want to disappoint my parents.
I want to earn loads of money to repay them and then treat myself with something nice.

A path of uncertainty.
Quitting doesnt mean you are weaker.
Qutting leads me to a much tougher path.
I wish the best for myself. All the best.