hi, yesterday was the last day of foreign bodies production.
after 4-5 months of hardwork everything pays off.
Every week i had the thought of quitting production cos of the commitment and stuffs, but after these 2 days, i alr never regret joining it and was glad that i joined it (:

now that it ended, i feel so empty, it was so big and i am so small.

just feel very lonely and sort of like directionless even though there is dance synergy coming up next but its just so different.

i am really going to miss this journey. By the next production, i will probably be in NS :(

Sometimes you ask yourself, what did you do to deserve all these shit.
I dont deserve this. Why do disappointment strikes me like mad.
I have been losing people. Close ones, im almost alone now.
So close.
Anyone wanna leave can leave now

Have you ever experience heart break so bad you have to alight the train so people wont see you crying?

Why does ti feel so fking painful on my chest
Now i know why people call it heartache, cos it hurt just right there, on that spot.
I dont want to have to bring that up for you to message or even reply me. Or even come and meet me.
Cos it jsut hurts.
Threaten you then you come down? What a joke.
Then suddenly you seem to care so much for me.
For once i suddnely forgot how much you 'care' for me after i brought up that thing to you to make you come down,
Life is a joke, im a loser. I lost the game.
For once i thought i never have to be alone anymore and this shit comes up.
At this period of time, it jsut sucks big time.
I really really have no idea how to get back on my feet this time. Guide me please?

Finally blogged ~
SO bored
Rcently life is filled with projectsd and test but im jsut so lazy ~
Tmr got award ceremony to take my bursary and then to NYP for fbodz passing down parade ~

Abit tired but ya will go ~

bursary finally came and i will be 2k richer soon hehe ~

I miss you. I wished you were mine.
Another false alarm. I'm used to this i will get over this just like the other previous times. But how...

21 June 2014

Today is the last of the Fbodz camp ~
Last year, I was still like a junior, everything pass by so fast.
Alot of things happen thruout this journey but I had overcome them and had changed in a certain way for the better. the most mrmoerable part of the camp is when i have to dress up as  a ghost for night walk. Was afraid that i might look boring or not scary but in the end the feedback i got back was pretty good so Im satisfied (: I went all out for the first few groups and by the time its the 5 group, im already tired and i kept getting the wig hair into my mouth XD

Had a great time bomnding with the juniors, my batch mates and senuors. Will never forget that day (:

And thanks my Group 5 Tadpole for being so cooperative and so high during the camp! Will never wish for a better grp!

Yo ~
Long time no blog already. Today just ended my first hip hop production prac with wei meng, can say its a killer. Alot of things i cant catch and alot of things to learn >.<
In the end learn alto of things but very tired.

Tmr is fbodz camp! First time as seniors hahaha
Quite excited tho, had yet to pack.
Gonig to sleep first and pack tmr. Ciao ~

Yayyy ~ tmr is club crawl finally!
Have been training for like 1 month and it have finally come down to this day.
Hope everything will turn out well tmr ~ jiayou jiayou

Alot of things going on lately, SDD, club crawl items, fmo dance and work. Have to manage time well. Being tired is unavoidable. But everything will be worth it, hopefully?

Always the last of the last, backup of the backup. Wonder how it feels like to be important and needed for once. I forgotten how it feels like...

The thing I worry about most is happening already. I am all alone now.

Things are falling apart.
I cant hold on anymore.

Self

Sometimes when you have problems, no one is there for you. When you need someone, no one is there for you. You only have you yourself to get yourself back on track. You have to think only for yourself. And then people asked why are you so self centered, some are too blind to see. 

The project

Theres a battle in nyp today " The project"

Today went to chronos prac after school. Damn freaking tiring please.....
Was really damn tired almost going to faint. But performance is just 2 weeks time. We completed all the moves today already and we can focus on the small details and clean up.

Just feel really tired. I shouldtn really find all these things to make myself so busy. Exams is near and plus now, I am worknig and i have to juggle everything. I also want to focus on my studies ~.~


Prevention is better than recovery.

Ohya I had my birthday last week and it was great ! ^^ Both my classmates and fbodz matees celebrated for me~ Many thanks to my classmates for getting the cake and on the other side; carine, ahza and joanne for planning the surprise thing.

My wish for my 20th birthday is to be more matured and have a clearer path of what I want to do or be in the future. Being happy is also important (Y) 

"Try to imagine a life without timekeeping.

You probably can’t. You know the month, the year, the day of the week. There is a clock on your  car. You have a schedule, a calendar, a time for dinner or a movie.

Yet all around you, timekeeping is ignored. Birds are not late. A dog does not check its watch. Deer do not fret over passing birthdays.

Man alone measures time.

Man alone chimes the hour.

And, because of this, man alone suffers a paralyzing fear that no other creature endures.

A fear of time running out."

Been reading "The time keeper" by Mitch Albom. Really find his books very meaningful and I thought if i wanna start reading any books, i will start from his. 

This few days have been rough, it will get rougher when all the exams and work kicks in, I probably wont be able to handle it as now, even without all those shit I am barely hanging on.

It's like i tried so hard and Im not even one of them.
I have sarcfised so much and now im tired. What am i? In the end I am jsut wasting my life away.

Been pretty busy but surprisingly I have still got many few time. Gotta use my time wisely.  Study plus dance and work now. Got to work harder even though it will be tiring but everything will be worth it.

I really want to dance and improve. It seems now I have lesser time to dance because I need to work and study. I really wanna join SDD. I just want to improve amd show people I can do it. I just dont want to be left out of all these stuffs.

Yay ~ Ytd marks the last day of NYP Open House performance for Foreign bodies ~
It was a tiring and stress process but in the end it was all worth it!Looking at our performance video and feeling damn.............. we cool. Really missed all the pracs and the time we performed tgt as one
Looking forward to club crawl next!


SChool is reopening tmr, so dread going to school. Forgot almost most of the things alr~ time to get back on track !