Today went out to study at Yishun CC reading room with Patrine, Jun hao and ryan who came later. But in the end got do some homework but didnt managed to study.
But in the midst of doing homework, I saw her! She came to the study room to study also and when i saw her my heartbeat was beating damn fast... I didnt know why. WHY..
I just felt happy when i saw her. I dunno bout her though.. Then she sat a seat away from me! XD I was like ... :) ^^ :D XD But i was acting normal. /; Caught a few glimpse of her, shes still so .. erm pretty and cute. Haha.
HAPPY !!!

But even though i am feeling happy, at the same time i was feeling sad. This might be the only time i will get to talk to her and this is like my only chance. Fcuk me..
I was really a coward. I wanna talk to her, but will it make a difference anyway? I thought i saw her looking at me a few times but perhaps it might be my imagination? Who would want to look at someone as ugly as me? I really miss her alot. But since shes so happy without me, I should not disturb her life..

But its so painful, I kept telling myself not to care but the more i tell myself that, the more i care.I still cannot forget her face. I felt so useless on top of the already failed and useless and dumb and ugly me. I really want to fcuk myself upside down.

I was a stupuid idoit for letting her go, if i can return to the past, i will not make the same mistakes again.. I hope she will see this but i dont think its possible anyway.


ANYWAY, after that went basketball with Ryan, thiam hock, raynor and junhao and Daniel came later after that. It was fun! had alot of blister on my leg. /;