Had a very touching dream today. Dreamed that i helped a friend in school then got caught by the police and was sentenced to a jail of 1 or 2 years? Thats all i remembered about the dream. Then my friend knowing that I will be jailed due to helping a friend, they all gave me gifts and one gift was given by my friend which really touched me. She made a artifact of all my favorite food so that i can admire or something when im in jail or something but i am really touched as i really like food. I dunno la, it was just a very touching screen at that moment and i started to tear... then i realised when i really cry in that dream, after i woke up, i realised i was really crying in reality !! Was thinking bout that dream.

Today went to woodsland library to study alone. the feeling quite nice. Finally able to sit and study. (: Great achievement indeed, If i continue like this i can finish revising soon!

today went to work with hui shi and tth and jun hao in tanglin sec as catering de ppl. damn fun but tiring.. met new friend Shirley. she damn cool la, she also like k pop and learn a lot of kpop dances ((: earned $60 but cabbed home and bought working shoes $16 in the end like don't earn much..

I really missed her. I dunno why will become like this. its just a dance. anyway she's too good for me. its just another one sided love again. like dog. everyday I will tjink of her smile and it will make me very happy (:

Very tired recently. Had been cutting down on my basketball time as it had made me very tired. Today got Geog and SS test and i fell asleep alot of time. I dont think i will pass the test anyway cos i didnt study. /;
Everyday O level is approaching, my results seem to dropping instead of improving.

Saw her today at the bus stop after so long.
Guessed she didnt sleep well, her eyes were pretty swollen.
JC life isnt easy, so therefore i think i shouldnt introduce myself to her already hectic life. Anyway, its not like shes going to like me again.
She had made a mistake once and shes not so stupid to make the same mistake.
But recently life has been real tough and whenever i thought of her, it gave me strength to move on. But too bad its one-sided... I wonder what shes think about me or did i even cross her mind..
Saw her today and my heart was beating god damn fast. Was like panting.

have been doing work since 5 pm. only one, English compre. had alot of distractions. but im trying my best. very tired and I wanna sleep. I am gonna try my best so I wont regret it, just few more months it will all be over.


why am I still looking bback into the past. I made a mistake, for losing her. I missed her, I don't mind she scold me or hates me but I just wanna know if she ever thought of me this five years. I had been a fcuking flirt, its okay if she hates me, I will understand. and I am living my karma now, being an ugly bastard struggling thru his life finding sommeone or somewhat to help him out of it. my life is totally screwed, if I can go back to the past I will treat her better so we could be together and I wont feel so empty now... I miss her.

Yo ! Yesterday had English oral, total disaster man. My oral examiner is my english teacher, miss shammem ? Dunno how to spell her name.. When i sat down she gave me a boring stare and keep diao me when im talking.... I had alot of things to say but when i saw the looks she gave me, I felt very discouraged and the other teacher examining me wasnt any better than her. The worst part is, because im too nervous and i kept swing my legs, i accidently kicked their table and both of the teachers' laptop shake and very loud sia. LOL can see both the teachers very irritating and shocked. Haha
But it was really very a discouraging day because besides that alot of other things happened..

BUT today after a night sleep, i reflect and think that if the orals is hard, I have to conquer it because i knew i could do it just that i need more practice. I cant let it bother for long, I have to bring it down...

HyunA, G.NA & Yong Jun Hyung - A Bitter Day (English sub, Romanization, ...

Hyuna - A Bitter Day.

Sounds very nice :) The lyrics and very well-written.

A few days ago i was having my MT O level oral exam.
Was very nervous and scared that i wont be able to do well and not get A1.
And i was afraid that i might panic and not be able to think during the oral.
But i did quite well. Not bad, better than my expectations.

Today went out to ball with Junhao, raynor, thiam hock, audrey and huishi at first.
balled till around 3.30pm and then after that went home to prepare to go out with them for dinner !
We went to a nice chong pang nasi lemak store to buy our dinner and ate under a block. Talked and joked around alot ~
Then when we went to the beancurd shop to eat, a sad news arrived...
Hai.
Thoguht bout my family for awhile.

Overall today is great ! hope to have more of this !

Ohya and when we going to a coin disposal machine to deeposit money got one guy kp keep looking at us ! :x feel like #$@#$@ him keep looking lo. and with those kind of bitchy eyes.

"Hard work will beat talent that doesn't work hard- Kevin Eastman

YOYO ~ Today went to Sentosa with Awesome friends - Wei Shin, Jun hao, Thiam Hock, Raynor, Hamzah, Ryan, JiWei, Jia Yee, Audrey, Hui Shi and Marie ! Damn fun and high ! :DDD (HIGH HIGH. IM SO HIGH ~) Told alot of jokes, slack around, played around, sun tanned around, see chio bu around. LOL Being with is the best thing ever ~ !


After the Sentosa is another AWESOMEEE event.
We had a Perth BBQ outing ! Had hotdo

I am very slow because Im going to blog about the Perth trip (:

Perth from June 1st to June 7.

It was awesomeeeeeeee ! :)

Yeah ~

My best achievement was abseiling from a 20 storey high mountain - Mountain Quarry.
I didnt know i could do it when i looked from below, it was damnnnnnnnnn high. However I told myself i had to do it because I want to overcome myself.. In the end, I did it !
:D Was damn proud, had alot of fun, I stopped half way to enjoy the scenery. The first few steps are the most difficult and challenging de. Just like life, first few step are filled with risk and challenges, once you walked through first phase of life, it will be easier along the trip.

May 31 - today went for school for a few periods. the best is miss shammem period. She gave us a motivational talk, very nice (: then after the whole thing we went to nus!! for a motivation rally. lol. like okok only leh.. after that the walking around nus is a waste of time zzz.. just walking a big round the school zzz. That's all!
Last minute pack my luggage, a few mire hours to Perth :D excited!!

MAY 30 : TOday is the day of o level mt Chinese exam.. Paper 1 was quite easy but paper 2 is such a killer, the hardest o level paper I ever took..
after the exam, went to change for Perth money (: $300

Yo just finished doing Chinese hw! And ya, the time now is 2.37am midnight and i am still up (: just now practiced some dance around 1am lol.
So nervous and excited! Mt O levels in just 5days time and Perth trip in 1 week time. So probably next week de today I will be in Perth (:
Today Mt intensive very very tiring.. my head almost explode like OMG! Teacher kept confusing me, but fret not, I have just redo it and going to show cher Tmr. (: ( There are currently a lot of lightning and loud thunder outside my window)
Today hui shi said mt exam is at icreative room and I laughed like shyt! lol supposedly should be icreate room!! ok ba. I should go sleep now (:

Today activity is abseiling

May 17 2011

Yo, that day, I went out with Thiam Hock and Hui shi to shop for Jia min birthday present ! In the mean time, I also use this opportunity to shop for my Perth jacket! Too bad I went from Bugis junction to Bugis street and to somerset and then to far east, cannot even find one ! Maybe i will consider going back to far east again. Went to catch Fast 5 at Iluma Bugis filegarde. It was my second time watching! It was so awesome so I wacthed it twice! hui shi said its nice too!
Then shop shop around and saw alot people! Jia yee, raynor, ming shan, wei shin, audrey!
LOL laugh like shyt sia that day. Joked the whole entire day like nobody's business (:
Its fun, we must try that again sometime!

May 14 2011 Show Luo Concert !

Yeah ! Im abit slow but Im posting about that day !
Met Mandy Lee at yishun MRT then wait for Yu Ying and Bryan to come from Woodlands.
So excited :D
After that we trained to Stadium Station and then went to queue up for Show Luo concert mechardise. Ddint expect myself to buy anything cos im saving money for Perth trip but I was so tempted ! LOL Bought a Show Luo concert magazine and Show Luo freaking big poster. NICEEEEEEEEEEEEE ~
We queued for about 2 hours? from 4 plus to 6 plus then went to some random shopping mall de kopitam to eat.
AFter that went back to indoor stadium to queue up to and then enter the indoor sport hall. Mandy have to sit at different place cos we bought our tickets separately.
Overall the concert was awesome man !!
Cannot describe the feeling of the concert. Really too good to be true, I never thought in my entire life that I wll ever go to a Show Luo concert. It was so magnificent that I hoped my vocabulary is better so I can find a better word to describe it. Most importantly, all the people going are all fun people! After that we supper together in Northponit Mac and home !

Today is the first day of mt intensive for me cos ytd i kinda skipped it cos my sister got wedding dinner. Should post some pictures next time !
Anyway today is really very tiring.
After mt intensive really very tired and then still got mock exam paper and after that mock exam paper still got test cos i didnt go for mt intesinve ytd. tbc..

LOL the previous post is about all my past rants. LOL

"Twitter had caused us to be more emo one way or another. Like knowing things we shouldn't know, saying things we shouldn't say, hurting those who we shouldn't hurt."

"the worst thing's not remembering the sad times, but remembering the good times cze you know they're never gonna happen again."

"How do you expect him to know you love or miss him when you're not even showing it. Dont treat him like a mind-reader, sometimes you're jsut not that lucky."

"Don't ever show your temporary weakness, people who don't know you well will think its your permanent weakness."

"We were once so close, now, worst than being strangers."

"Stop at nothing when you have nothing to lose and everything to gain."

"Don't be angry with the right friend, you might just end up regretting afterwards, well I did."

"Sometimes I laugh at my life, cos its such a joke."

"How much I hoped I could bring her from the Past to the Present."

"It's nice to be important but its important to be nice."

"Finding someone who understands you is not easy. Especially when you are so complicated."

"When you say never say never, you had already said it twice."

"Im not the guy your heart is missing."

"Sometimes you love someone so much that you dont mind jsut being her friend. At least you can stay by her side..."

"To be forgotten is the saddest thing to forget."

"Why are we so afraid of failures, so afraid of trying? Isit because if we can't do it we would not be able to face the reality?"

"Trying to be different, can be sort of weird in the eyes of normal people; cos' we are different."

"When people says you copied others, ask them why they are wearing clothes, because everyone is wearing clothes, so are you copying them as well?"

"If we dont forgive and forget, eventually it will jsut turn out to be a cycle of never ending hatred."

"Love hurts but you have to find the right one who is worth the pain."

"When 'what if' stepped in and we stopped believing."

'"The best thing is not to have any connection with anyone."

"Been thinking bout this thing call love."

Respect the one who loves you, dont treat them like shit, cos when one day they are gone, you're gonna miss them in one way or another.


"If you obey all of the rules, you miss all of the fun. "

The disappoint you felt when you finally found a stapler but after you try to staple your paper and realized there are not staples inside );

NO MORE EMO POST !!!!OK I PROMISE FOR THE TIME BEING !

OK ! today is Vinesh birthday. Wa we do until very jia lat sia.
We bounded him to a chair with a tape and we carried him down to the canteen.
HAHAAHHAHAHA

Then in canteen, we pour flour and bashed him there. We also brought out the cake there and celebrated there. then after that have to clean up the floor lol.

BigBang - Love Song

Hello! today is a normal day. (: It's just that I saw her at the bus stop again today...
I was at quite a distance away from her, indeed she was across the road at the bus stop. And I was looking at her looking at me. We stared for a moment and we stood still looking at each other.. How much I hope I could act like someone she know and walks towards her and say hi. As I was crossing the road approaching her direction, my heart pumped unknowingly faster, as though it had met its pair, but as I walked towards her direction, she turned 360 degrees with her back facing me. I knew she saw me coming... just as I walked past her, I saw her slightly turn sideways and look at me. Was I imagining things? I hoped its not playing with me. Why after 4 years I still got feelings for her. Of course I didn't love her for 4 years straight, its just that when I see her, all the feelings that I once felt for her came rushing all over inside my body. Are they playing tricks on me? I had a damn fcuking hard bloody mother fcuker time trying to forget her, why must you let me see her now, now, I can't even get her out of my head. I thought karma had alrrady struck me? By making me this fcuking ugly, isn't this enough already? Why...

Today received the form to pay for the Perth Trip. Damn stressed. My mother ask me to pay her back after my O levels and I go to work. I need money now like seriously...
So stressed about so many things, coursework, studies, math, physics, chemistry and ENGLISH which is like almost everything..

I saw her at the bus stop today again. Then I spent my rest of the day thinking of her.. I wished I could just walk straight to her and say hi. if she was still angry with me I will scold myself. Shes a treasure I dint treasure.. I am still sorry that I hurt her so badly and I was unaware at that time. i just want to be her friend once more so I can stay by her side.

Today is the last day of Adam Khoo workshop.
For this past 3 days, I really did enjoyed myself, the trainers were great and their life experiences are great too!
Even though its tiring, but its worth it!
The closing ceremony was great

tbc

Sometimes there is no next time, no time-outs, no second chances; sometimes it's now or never. -Alan Bennet

March 15 2011 Tuesday

March 15
Today went to Marina Barrage with STMC and the Whites missing the Blacks.
Damn fun! Was late because i went to Jevon house for sleepover the day before. Then I rushed home from Jevon's house then to the outing.
First time to the Barrage was awesome! The place very nice and interesting!
When we reached Marina Bay, we saw the shuttle bus to the Barrage and i heard the bus only come once every 30 minutes. So hearing that, we all run to catch the bus ~
(;

Haha. Damn funny lo, imagine a group of 8 people all running to catch the bus zz
Thought we couldnt make it but we did !

Then after we reached there, we went to fly a kite. the kite damn cool, its a eagle. Junhao de kite.
Then hor tried the kite keep failing! LOL then in the end rained nuclear rain LOL>.<

Rumoured Nuclear Rain.

Then went into the shelter and talked and ate.
TBC

Today went to school for BC day - B2P water bottle collection.
Basically recycling the bottles to make pens.
And then we have to collect bottle caps for sec 1s for their Soul programme.

Im group with Khairul, Norres, Xiang Rong and Jia Min.

Actualy group with suvitra, Nisa, michelle and Pakit de but eventually changed with Yvonne.

Its damn fun lo! The 3 of us, norres khai and me damn high lo!
Haha. Then got a black car stalked us from 9 to 2 floor, i wanted to name it stalker but norres wanted to name it' black panther' Haha (:

Then after we walked down the block, I saw 2 more cats quarreling and norres took down the video!
They were like screaming and meowing very loud at each other!

Lost your pen=no pen
No pen=no notes
Nonotes=no study
No study=Fail
Fail=no diploma
No diploma=no work
no work=no money
no money=no food
no food=you get skinny
you get skinny=then you get ugly
Ugly=no love
no love=no marriage
no marriage=no children
no children= alone
alone=depression
depression=sickness
sickness=death

Lesson: Don’t lose your pen, you will die.. :P

A boy gave his girlfriend a challenge; to live a day without him & if she did it he would love her more. The girl agreed and she didnt talk to him for a day without knowing he had only 24 hours so live because he was suffering from cancer. She went to his house the next day tears falling from her eyes as she saw him lying in a coffin with a note on the side:'You did it baby,you can do it everyday

Thursday 17.02.11

WA Lucky my hair was not caught !
I cant be caught !
PLSS LOL. Anyway its already over lo.
My plan was to wax all my hair down to make it look as if its short :D Apparently, it worked!

Ithink that horoscope really accuarate leh !
I am currently a half Sagittarius and half Capricorn. LOL
Cos got the weird 13 horoscope come out and i dunno why my sentence is underlined?

I wanna buy new basketball shoe ~!Mine old de spoil le !
Freaking nice right? Dont try to deny. But the price is also very nice too! S$139 + );

Today got PTR, after school went for Green Club, then slack around school then go for PTR until 7 plus. Wasnt listening in hall at all. LOL
went for a round of basketball and jogging session jsut now. Now freaking tired and both of my leg got a part very pain ):

If people talk bad about you, let them. Because you cant go around explaining to everyone who have misunderstood you. Its too tiring, its unnecessary..

Im sorry.
If i had been more matured, if im had been more caring towards you, if i had never ignored you, if i never had been so flirt, i wouldnt have hurt you. I fking hate myself, perhaps what im encountering now is a retribution for me. I have been such an asshole, you are such a good girl and i miss you like hell now. I know something cant be amend, but i just hope i can return to the past and change it. If i can, im not going to let you go anymore.

Hi. Im blogging now! Yo sup!

to be continue.

If life was easy, everyone will be a millionaire.

Haven beign blogging lately as was busy.
Not with school work but with alot of unecesscary things which caused me to go side tracked.
Like playing online games, listening to songs, basketballing aiya, i jsut want to focus on my studies and i cant seem to focus nowadays in class. I have to step up.

Woah today is my birthday!
TBC !

If you can not make a woman loves you, make her laugh.

WAh SICK !
Today woke up whole body cui diao.
then measure my temperature, 38.2 degree! Then went to the doc and measure 38.4 degrees.!
Then come sleep and woke up 38.8 degree!
This two week fell sick 2 times.

Fuck , then even spread the cough virus to my friends ): FUCK ! ):

I really cannot stop my cough, its too much to control ):

"It's not about dropping subject to improve your other more important subjects, it's
about you undermining your own abilities while you're far more capable than jsut this."

"Laziness killed the Genius." "If u cant accept my worst , u dont deserve my best ."

LOL.
Today was a great day.
Dissmissed early and went to NYP for programming.
Today de quite easy.
Can understand.
Then after that went to Wei Shin house play Kinect ! Fun ~
Played the dance de and sports kinect.
Shiok!
Then junhao went to play blackshot at Wei Shin house.
Yea, we should have more of this kind of gathering.
We must stay UNITE ! XD

Maybe im jsut tired .
Maybe im jsut sick of it.
Maybe im just sick of everything.
Maybe i just wanna remain where i am now.
Maybe I just doesnt want to face it.

====================================

I am caught in the dilemma of whether i should retake my o level mt.
I have high expectations.
Dpont wanna regret

Today got back my o level mt result, was expectating a A1
But got a A2 again. Hai. Top scholar got 10As, but we are only taking 8 subjects or 7. So even if we got all A1s, we still wont be noticed o.o
sian ok lets give up!
Just kidding~

Today went out to play basketball with Melvyn Bryan Sici and Haziq.
LOL damm fun la, laugh until stomache !!
Keep telling jokes and stuff.
But was damn tired! So sleepy XXX:
But still need to go northpoint to buy things and do hw !! HAI !!

Jan 6

Had a terrible morining. Had fever and sore throat, actually not going to school de, But i cant cos this year is o level year i cant afford to miss out anything.

I wanted to blog on jan 1 but busy la !! So kept delaying!

Dec 31
Met up with Jevon Vinesh Weishin and Norres.
Went to Orchard ion walk walk then went to marina there for countdown party >.<>.<

Jan 5
TODAY!
LOL Today second day of schhol~ felt abit better.
Then during CS lesson came to know that our course work starts next week.
Omg!
>.< so unbelievable. But i still have to do it ! :)
Then school suppose to end at 1.30pm but we goig NYP for VBA course! sian ttm !!
then went there to learn alto programming codes which i dont understand at all! So chim~
Left NYP at 6pm reached home around 8.

Hai. I thot passing the reassessment everything will be fine le. Then now i still have to write 3 or 4 more scripts for it.. I am seriously got sick of it. Like seriously tired.

Today went out to do homework with Vinesh, Jevon, WeiShin. Woo~ Quite fun la~
Dam relax. Kept talking and talkign and only get to finish half a worksheet cos its so hard..
I realised that i have forgetten everything le...
Hai /:

So sian. Today i die 8 times in maple.
Wasted like 12 hours of training.
Doing my service learning script now. Hai /;
Delayed for so long le.

" "Stalking" is a strong word, lets look at it as "intense research on an individual". "

They keep saying the right person will come along, I think mine got hit by a truck.

Yo, today weent for service learning reasssessment and i pass (:
Hehe Kim was so kind to pass me :) Shes a nice person man!
Ytd channel 8 got the gao xiao xin dong, damn funny la!
Cos one guy wish that his mother can follow him to NS cos everything his mother did for him at home, then he say now he need to wash cloth so troublesome, so he decided to call his mother come NS with him !! LOL SUPER DUPER FUNNY ~

Studying for my reassessment now, i shall try my best and remember all the facts, if i fail this time round, I have got nothing to say. tehre are like 13 or 14 animals in the fishing cat trail and, its kinda hard but i must not give up :p

Change

-If you want your life to change for the better, you have to change.
-If you resist change and keep doing the same things previously, your life will stay the same way as it is today. Nothing will change.
-If you refuse to open your mind and resist the positive change in your mindset, your life will stay the same way as it is as today. Nothing will change.
-If you take the first step to change the way to do things, your life may change for the better.
-If you are open to a positive change in mindset, better life will likely to follow.
-Change in mindset is tough. Change in mindset is difficult. But if mindset doesn’t change, your life will remain the same way it is for the rest of your living years.

December 11 2010


Went to watch 'Let Me In'. It was nice because the girl acting as vampire is so cute :D
Hehe :) Watched with liang ying jasmine and wei cai. After that went to LAN to play left 4 dead 2 then went home :)

Changed

I guess I had really changed alot compare to 2009, for the worst. I have become more negative, weak and more emo -.- I remember last year I was ... very different, have different goal, different mindset, different attitude, different hair. Now my attitude towards studies is like cmi. Last year i was so keen in learning, treated studies seriously, I guess I have alot to learn from Zhehao'09
From this moment onward, I have decided to be less-emo; i will try my best. And to think more positively than before! :D No more emo-ing! I AM GONNA CHANGE FOR THE BETTER XD

6 Simple Tips How to Mend a Broken Heart.

6 Simple Tips How to Mend a Broken Heart.

1. Survive! Give yourself permission to mourn. Call in sick at work, sleep all day, eat too much ice cream, sob.

2. Congratulate yourself for being human: It is only when you open yourself to love that your heart can break.

3. Develop and repeat a helpful mantra, such as "This too shall pass" or "I will survive".

4. Reach out to a close friend or family. It helps to share your thoughts with others

5. Watch a movie to distract yourself. Choose a comedy that has cheered you up in the past.

6. All you can do is to take your time busy! MOVE ON!

MISS CHALET LIKE SERIOUSLY !!!
Everyday wake up le then got friends beside you then talk talk then not happy then can tau pok ppl ;p
I will remember those time de :)

People who are meant to be together, will always find their way in the end

No matter who I meet, I cant open up one part of my heart and I keep your place empty.

Yo, today jsut came back from "Jevon's Chalet" :) LOL.
Damn fun ah, i miss the group. (: Just now went to watch a movie"Hello Stranger" Damn nice la!!! :D Its so sweet and romantic (: I cried at the part when the guy confess to the girl. LOL. Nice la.
BUT
however all the fun shld end here ba..sigh :/

It's so scary how one thing which once meant so much can be so easily forgotten like nothing..
"I am not sure if i likes you, but when i am with you, I felt very happy and when you are not around, I feel very empty."

Tmr is chalet le, its the most stressful chalet I have ever been on. I have only left with 10 plus dollars for the chalet unless i receive my pay on wed. I damn angry with myself due to the fact that i still have to ask money from my parents and i felt really fking useless. Today i went for interview with vinesh but the job was a waiter job and he says he parents doestn allow him to be a waiter so in the end we went to ion orchard to look for jobs. We found 3 jobs but all is we must leave our contact number down and they will contact us, i think also zai zai de la.
They wont call de. Damn sian, I hope i can pay for the overseas filedtrip next year without my parents giving me a single cent. I am deciding to join the nee soon cc de basketball team, lol, dunno if they even wants me. I will try man.
MOST SIAN DE THING IS next week i have to go back for reassessment, i seriously know i cant do it I MEAN LIKE SERIOUSLY OK? I am really dam angry with the fact that mr woo didnt try to understand me and kept saying come on come on you cant give up that easily. Damn. He thinks he knows me. Haha...
The remaining days after the chalet will be doing homework, basketball, hopefully working and learning how to dance. :p
Damn sian de last few days of holidays.
"You have to give up your current life, for the life you want"

Yts is our primary school friends de gathering, most of them are from 6A. While im from 6B. Damn sian..
I really hope to see my class de friends.. too bad all of them are working and diont hacve time to come down. Ytd wwas my first time flying a kite, damn fun but difficult, in the end i got stucked in the trees and the string was torn, then we jsut left that place lo, a good experiewnce for me. Then we cycled around pasir ris aprk and i was cycling the double sided bicyckle becos one of my friend jia hong doesnt know how to cycle so i carry him lo. Hes quite heavy and its hard to control the bike, when i carry lee jie, its much easier as she was much lighter then him lol. Then when arrying her, we had a small chat and we jsut cycle around. the pasir ris beach was damn dirty, alot of oil smell on the sand.

Dont feel like going sell ice cream, so tired after my basktball competition.. nad im like damn lazy..

Try to make it a habit to blog daily (:

Today went to play basketball, had a terrible fall, my arm and leg got rubbed against the ground and it kept bleeding.. sian. IM GONNA GET FIT, GET SIX PACK ! :D WAHAHA~
Still worrying about money, money made me so stressed up! I dont want to keep taking money from my parents...
I hope I can pay for the overseas fieldtrip entirely by myself without getting money from my parents.
My chalet in 6 days.. no $$$ CAN ME PLEASE HELP ME >.<

Im so fucking angry with myself.
Today got basketball 3 on 3 competiton .
Last night couldnt sleep well cos i was planning for my sister baby de buffet decoration till very late and then i missed my sleep time. On top of that i came home at 11.45pm after selling ice creamie~
So need rush here rush there. Very busy guy dey~
Today basketball match is total disaster la.
First match 12:8.
Second match 25:3
Third match 12：3
we got thrashed inside outside upside down.
The referee look down on us when we were down by 10 on the third match (10-0) then when the shot clock is still running and its our time to have the ball, he purposely waste our time by chatting with his friends while he was holding the ball! Damn, then the opponent coach keep mocking us. Ｆｋｅｒ．
Ya lo. Then damn sad, then i ask wilson why do he think we will lost, he say becos we dunno how to ball ....
o.o
Anyway, tried and fail but i never tried my best. Never have enough sleep ba?
I only slept for 3 hours last night cos i scare i might over slept so i dont dare to sleep!

Yesterday night went to sell ice cream with jun hao, met alot of kind souls !
They helped us alot because we jsut started the jobs then they jsut never listen to any introduction or what and they jsut buy from us (:
Later going to basketball competition soon le. Wish me best of luck (: Will update when come up later

"In real life, people judge you from your actions without knowing the reason behind it". -Joseph Conrad

"Tears is the only way how my eyes speak when my mouth can’t explain how things made my heart broken". -Lerry Noviatama

"You're not truly free unless you're financially free."

Worry about money all day. Thinking about how to make money other ways other than just working part time blindly. I currently got $4 in my wallet and thats it.
A man without money is like a man without authority.

"Be careful what you say: "I love you" takes a few seconds; but a lifetime to prove it. Be wise!"

"Be yourself and express what you feel! Because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind"

November 21 : I quitted my job, quarrel with one of the workers then boss came in extra and i sacked the boss. Damnn, I am the senior worker leh! I started work when the shop just open till now and now they had hired more CHIOＢＵ workers，they want to kp people to make them quit ):
I am the only male worker there and the rest are girls, isnt that fking obvious the dog boss only wants to hire girls, somemore, they must be pretty. Fk him.
Then i left half way while quarreling with them, Siti cried, Lisa and Jacinta stood up for me because they know im not in the wrong.. But its useless.. Im not going back anymore.

I shall post about my Thru train fieldtrip to Cameron Highland on Nov 13, 14, 15, 16 (:

DAY ONE

hi, day 1 was great, only at the beginning.
Reached the airport, alot of friends came, but not for us though.
Then took some photos are departed to wait our planes.
First time take airplane, budget one somemore.
Then the feeeling when the plane took off quite shiok ah.
then when reached there, the first thing we do is went to eat Ipoh de Hor Fun.
Not bad la, okok only. then i add some more rice.
Because i cant eat chicken then i eat more rice (:

then after that my nightmares had jsut started. Next destination is butterfly farm or something la. The trip is damn long and i experience motion sickness!
Becos i long time nvr travel le, so now suddenly go far will motion sickness de
I almost vomit sia.
Then we went to visit the beetles, frogs, scorpion and butterflies (;
Ate alot of sweets cause i sacare i vomit.
Then after the butterfly farm, we travelhours again to go to the boh tea farm.
Then I felt that i had already reached my limit alr, i cant tahan not vomitting. But i still managed to pull it through.
I totally no mood at boh tea there cause I am damn dizzy and sick.
then after boh tea we travel back to our apartment and thats when I finally VOMMITED ..
Sian.
The feeling damn $%$#%$#
Then when i reached my apartment settle down, bathed, then i feel better le.
After going to our apartment. Rest awhile, played around with the tv and discovering how to use the controls to watch specific channels. After that went to eat organic steamboat for dinner, abit tasteless lo. After that we went to buy our breakfast for tmr. Then after that we went to the night market and it was raining, we went there and get drenched in the rain then retreat back to kfc, i didnt wear my poncho becos i was lazy to take it out. After that went back to apartment and learned how to play monopoly deal with Serene and Pei Lih. Quite fun la! Then after that we watched some horror show which is quite scary and lame. After that then went back to bed and slept!!

(finally finish writing day one )

DAY TWO

woke up and have maggi mee as breakfast, freaking unhealthy. Then after the breakfast we went to organic farm and listen to a talk by Mr Lee. Its really too late. Struck me. Ya i agree its too late. That talk is really very meaningful and full of impact. After that we have lunch and then began the trekking. At first I didnt know we will be travelling for hours jsut to see a flower, its kinda stupid though, LOL, BUT!! Its ok la! The trekking was quite fun. And its the well-known Rafflesia Flower! the girls took the bumpy ride up while the boys walked up the hill. The road was not very muddy at first but Mr Woo got his shoes stuck in mud i dunno how he did it. then we walked like damn long then saw the others at the bridge. That was when the real trekking starts! The road was challenging and dangerous! We helped each other throughout the trip, :D Then we kept walking and Mr Choo kept saying " One more hour to go!" Wa kao, damn irritating lo~ At one of the trip, I ALMOST DIE~~ Because the road was very narrow and next to the road is the ledge, means if you trip and fall sideways you will have to say bye bye to your friends. Then I almost fall sia, then Audrey saved my life! She was behind me and she grabbed my bag!!
LOL if not I wont be here blogging le... Thanks la! After hours travelling finally see the FLOWER~ Took photos then left le. THEN MUST TRVEL BACK FROM THE WAY WE COME FROM>.< After the trekking we went to a nonya restaurant to have our dinner. The food was not bad, I added 4 four bowls of rice XD then went back to apartment to play monopoly deal TO BE CONTINUED

Today is ytss open house day :D
I missed out last year de cos of one stupid weak reason.
Went to help Green Club :D
Fun la.
Fun to see them joke ard, play ard.
Then jiu walk around the school, cos its damn sian and we got nothing to do.
This year de open house very less people.
then after went to eat lunch then i realised i dropped $9 )):
I alr no money le leh..
Then after went to ball.
WA LAO JIA LAT!
My skills gg LIAO LAAAA~
Damn sad.
Then i fall 2 times cos its damn slippery.
I injured my left upper thigh. F*** pain, got scar there freaking pain la. Walk also got problem, cant walk.
Then tmr i dunno how im going to work le, have to stand for 10 hours..
Then got one stupid person keep laughing. )):
I am worry then I cant train anymore ..

THE REASON WHY I LIKE BASketball...
is ..
i am good in basketball only, if im not good in basketball, then, i just a good-for-nothing person.
Thats why i worked so hard in basketball.
Everytime like a girl also dont dare to fight for her,want study also lazy, basketball is the only thing i can fight hard to win and hard work will awarded.

I didnt choose it.
I didnt choose to be so ugly, so boring, so useless.
I didnt choose my life.
If I can choose, it will not be like this, it will turn out differently.
I will try to smile and hide all the sadness because I deserve to.

YOYO~
So busy man.
Novem 16 just came back FROM CAMERON LOWLAND!!
IT WAS FREAKING FUN WITH THOSE PEOPLE ~
Great place.
I will blog about it sooner or later cos I am afraid I might forget about it.
8 more days to my basketball competition. So busy, have to work and train and sleep.
o.o
Hai. I dont wanna lost another basketball competition, becos this cmopetition cos me to skipped my sister's baby de 满月 de something. )): Damn F*** I wanna go.
But basketball is so so.. !!!! ARGHHHHH~~~
I MUST WIN ON THAT DAY NO MATTER WHAT LA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tmr is my o level mt paper again !
I havent start revising as im very busy planning right now lol.
Have to plan when Should i go to work, train basketball, get a life and alot of things.
Now my priority is to earn money, ya.
Today is my first and last day in school. LOL i only went once due to chicken pox.
And chicken pox caused me to miss out work for 2 weeks which i can earn more than $200.
zzz.

I hope i can do well for the paper tmr, later i going to serious mode le :X

Sometimes we have to lie to ourselves in order to keep moving forward.

I got so fking irritated so easily.

day 4 was abit batter. its just that i still doesnt dare to look at my face in the mirror

day 4 of chicken pox

Fever seems to be gone. Sore throat gone. and the thing which seems to be stucked at my throat is also gone.

Ya..
But all the pox not gone. not even one.

I hope i can heal faster than i can go get my salary and do alot other things

HAIIZZZZ CHICKEN POX SUCKSSS ):
I look sucky.
Cant go out, must stay at home,I got so many things that i have to do, my responsibilty, but I am now sick ):

2 days ago was my competition. It was dam tough and rough.
Seriously man, I　ｈａｄ　ｎｅｖｅｒ　ｐｌａｙｅｄ　ｓｏ　ｖｉｏｌｅｎｔ　ｂｅｆｏｒｅ．　ＬＯＬ．
Ｗｅ　ｌｏｓｔ　ｌａ．．．．．．．．．．
Ｓｉａｎ．
Ｔｏｄａｙ　ｆｉｒｓｔ　ｄａｙ　ｏｆ　ｓｃｈｏｏｌ　ｒｅｏｐｅｎ　ｄｉｓａｓｔｅｒ　ｍａｎ．　Ｈａｉｒ　ｇｏｔ　ｃａｕｇｈｔ　ａｓ　ｕｓｕａｌ　ａｎｄ　ｐｒｅｄｉｃｔｅｄ　ａｎｄ　ｅａｒｌｙ　ｉｎ　ｔｈｅ　ｍｏｒｎｉｎｇ　ｃｈｉｎｅｓｅ　ｐｒｅｌｉｍｓ．
Ｔｈｅｎ　ｔｍｒ　ｇｏｔ　ｇｅｏｇ　ｔｅｓｔ　ａｎｄ　ｍａｔｈ　ｈｗ　））：
Ｓｅｒｉｏｕｓｌｙ，　ｉ　ｍｅａｎ，　ｓｅｒｉｏｕｓｌｙ？

Yo, today is offically my competition, LOL
couldnt sleep last night.
Then when i slept i had a nightmare,
i dreamed of me waking up late, #$#
goddammit, it was so real.
Until i woke up i realised it was all jsut a dream.
Sigh.

This few days a bit stress over money matters.
I want to be financially stable so I can feel at ease.
I dont want to be constraint by money and have to limit my spending.
I will try to find some jobs and now jsut waiting for reply.
Lol, have to save up for the upcoming holiday.

I going to sleep le cya~

HAi hai, no money le, i wanna work but it seems a waste of time man. Work a few hours only earn a few dollars only z.
Hai hai, 7 more days to my competiton. ):
Not confident. Seriously /;
If she come to see my match I will be confident :DDDDD

Yo, yesterday and today went to cycle.
Shiok and tired.
Hardcore cycle to bukit panjang today with thiam hock, raynor and ji wei.

sian~ we got a team member last minute withdraw, what should i do..

I am happy because I had found a basketball team and will be going for competition in 3 weeks time, I am stress because I am injured and I want to win that competition so badly but 3 weeks is a short period to improve so muchie..

PLus i need to work and earn money, and i need to study and get good grades, and i have to learn how to play guitar, and i have to get to lvl 50 for my maple char to get the explorer ring. I want to do so many stuff. I am going mad ...

I injured my fingers, my back and my thigh. How to train for basketball..
I need to get enough sleep so i wont get dark eye cicles but i cant sleep.

Yesterday 18.08.10 got back o level result after waiting for sooooo long....
Ok la, i got a A2. Damn.. so close... I guess i will retake again. I got nothing to lost anyway..
I will try even harder and be more serious !!
Grats YongSheng and Pearlin the 2 A1 people in our class (:
Shiok sia~ No need retake le. But somehow still felt happy for them :DDDD

For those who are retaking the paper , DONT GIVE UP !!! NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE.

We fell, we stood up, we move and look forward. We've got to seize the second chance that we will get and make the most out of it. In the first place we have got nothing to lost and everything to gain.

I wanted to study so much but I just couldnt seem to do so. I will try my utmost best no matter what. !

My injuries from a few days ago just open up.
As i went to play basketball despite the injuries, then accidentally kena kill by someone.
The bleeding stop but its still painful.
I want to play basketball so badly but mu injuries kept getting in the way.

Today had a crazy day in school.
LOL, I enjoyed it.
Erm... have to enjoy and make full use of my time in school, one more year and we will be out of ytss and i am sure we'll going to miss ytss and secondary school life..

Yo, the day before yesterday i injured myself while playing basketball. zzz.
Now the injuries had caused me so much pain and hassle. Cannot even practice my guitar now.
AiYa!!!

Prelims prelims..
Sian, at least we get to go home earlier.
What should I do /;
I am such a loser.