Very tiring handling private matters.. hoping everything will end soon.

Very excited for school to start! Thats when i can get to know more friends and my new life begins!
Even though NYP is like not a v happening school but it gave me a second chance. I will never waste this chance again...
I will work hard to get good grades and be a better person (:

Something big happened today.
Got to leave chalet abruptly.
Didnt know everything would escalate so fast.
I will protect my family no matter what.
I wont let my mistake affect them.

People who are truly strong is always laughing when whey want to cry. They endure all of the pain and sorrow while laughing with everybody else.

 

Hi ~
I just got a letter saying i got into NYP 1 week ago >.<
I was so damn happy ~
I got into Business management!

Hi all ~ Just got a new job in Clarke Quay DYO! Deisgn Your Own! It's like a custom t shirt design shop and most importantly, its daily pay! So shiok sia. Took up this job because i am short of money. But still working at rubi though. Work is pretty simple, sit down there and use the machine and quite relax also, not like rubi cant use phone or what. Working at Clarke reminds me of my Brewerkz tough days /: Now when i think back its actually quite fufilling. Walked past the restaurant and saw some familiar faces, Bruce, Lotus, Pok and Bryan. But sadly none of them rmb me and they act very hard to act as though they rmb me lol. Hmmm these few days had been rough, but tough tie will pass tough man will last! JIA YOU ZHE HAO!

HAPPY NEW YEAR ~~ Yeserday went to rich's house for cny. Met Shamir, Vinesh and norres to go. there's alot of people at rich house sia. Damn happening LOL At first went to his room to play ps3 thn went out to play Blackjack with his friends. Lost all the way from the beginning till the end. Damn suey sia. Then in the end i stopped playing le. It was fun overall, his parents realyl knows how to entertain guests and were very friendly (: The rest of my cny i spent mostly sleeping LOL.

Jan 18 2013 Went out with my Rubi friends for supper and they surprised me with a cake! Didnt expect it thou. Really grateful for them! Thought nobody was going to celebrate with me. Then a few days later NEST have a outing and we went out with everyone bringing one food of theirs and we met at Woodlands waterfront. Had fun and catchup session with them. It's been so long since we had seen each other.

2012-2013 summary ~

Hello ~ Long time no blog le! alot of things i wanna blog about but I am so lazy ;p Firstly i want to talk about my deferment. Was happy that i was deferred from NS. Now I must realyl choose the course i want carefully. The admission of DAE starts already but I still haven research on the course i want even though i have a few on my mind. I am just scare that i might choose the wrong course again and just escaping. I didnt want to choose one so fast, but if i dont do it in time, I will have to go NS ): Not even sure if I am able to get into the course i want also though. For the past few months i spent most of my time at Rubi. After quitting school i joined Rubi and have worked there since then. I learned alot there and get to know many friends (: I become a better and funnier person through working there. I become more open and more confident to talk to people, really grateful for my friends over there (: Yesterday was my birthday, didnt celebrate it cos i dont have any plans ): Was quite sad though. I spent my birthday at Rubi working as i dont want to stay at home and do nothing. At least i can keep myself busy and stop myself from thinking so much. Ya! And I dyed my hair slightly blond! Was really not used to it and when i go out people will keep staring.. ( cos its just so nice ) (: HAHA was really happy that my life is becoming better. Hope life doesnt come back and kick me in the ass! After dying blond, i will dye white and i will stay white awhile and then i will dye red (: I was abit hesitant about dying red as I scare it wont be nice >.< But i thought I only live and is only young once, why not try something new and daring? (Not YOLO) just got to be at your best at any given time so there will be no regrets and live life to the fullest. Only we ourselves can make us happy. Dont depend your happiness on someone else.

Got a job at NCS, a admin job. Have been working there for 1 month already. This coming week will be my last. Abit dont bear to leave my friends as i will stop working there as I got my enlistment letter from NS. Dec 13 2012. Abit sudden la. Everything haven prepare yet and they only send me the letter one month in advnace. So I am leaving the job. I called and replied them to ask for deferment and they said they will help me to request for a short deferment till i got in to a school. Till now they still haven reply me and its only 2-3 weeks left to enlistment date. So worry. Cant live each day without worrying. its like 50/50 chances of deferring. Yaya! And i saw his girl worknig at NCS who really look like taeyeon! OMG LOL. Now everytime i saw her i will keep staring at her. I think she and her friends will think i am some sort of psycho or something LOL. Ya the next week is the last week i can see her then i gotta leave le! IF. IF i really enter NS. I wish all my friends who are currently reading this all the best for their life and dont miss me! Hahaha if theres any? LOL Hmm.. 2 years is not short. I have certainly made a few bad decisions in life which really brought my life to the bottomless pit. Without anyone beside me or anyone there for me, I think this is the best result I can produce by myself. Cheering myself on, pulling myself up when I'm down, crying in the middle of the night till i sleep (lol) ya and countless time of comforting myself. Since the day I left school I felt so lost. But I have made many friends in rubi and from NCS. I have learned many things and this is what made this period liveable. And for that, even if my deferment fails, this doesnt mean my life is over. I am still young, I will never stop kicking till I'm dead.

"In another life, you can be my girl"

"...after the movies ended, Eric accompanied Jane home. Throughout the journey, they talked about life and joked around whenever possible, people who doesn't know them will think they are a couple. There's nothing which they won't talk about and nothing they won't share. Upon reaching Jane's stop, they alighted and walked through the walkway with the light breeze blowing by. Then it was all quiet. The mood became very serious with a mix of awkwardness as they have nothing else to talk about anymore. Walking as slowly as possible as they are departing soon, not wanting the moment to end so fast. As Eric walked Jane to her block, she broke the silence. As it was late, Jane didn't want Eric to walk her all the way so she asked Eric to send her till where they are. Both of them still not willing to leave. "Ok bye! See you next time" Eric started off and turned his body about to leave, but he stopped suddenly.
"Hey Jane!"
"Hmm yes?"
"There's something I want to ask you"
Jane stood there rooted waiting for Eric to say what he wanted to say as Eric was very shy and uncertain whether he should say it.
"Hmm, just wanna ask..."
"What?! Hurry up its late! Say what you gonna say! You gotta catch the last bus, you have work tomorrow!"
"It's nothing actually, see you next time!"
"Alright"
Jane turned and walked away.
Then she turned her head to make sure Eric had safely crossed the streets to the bus stop.
Eric stood across the road staring at Jane and shouted.
"If you don't have a boyfriend, will you be with me?!"
Jane was astonished. Eric wasn't waiting for an answer. He just always wanted to ask that question for a long time but he didn't want to be a third party and spoil the relationship of Jane and her boyfriend.
After shouting, Eric turned and walked away with his heads down.
"Yes!!" Jane suddenly exclaimed at the top of her lungs.
" I hope I can spend the rest of my life with you!"
Eric couldn't believe what he heard and he ran straight missing the bus stop. He was just sprinting straight as he couldn't believe it. Tears came flowing down non stop. It was too good to be truth. But, it is the end.

"If you want to get to the next level, you're going to have to go out there and a guy's guarding you in practice, you're going to have to punish him and send him a message. Make the guy who's guarding him think about if he wants to play in the NBA anymore." - Kobe Bryant

8/10/12 Went to watch "Possession" with Jasmine at Cineleisure ~ So boring one LOL Then after the show we walked around and shopped. We walked from Somerset to Orchard Far East and Jasmine had some tied hair highlights on her hair! She really liked it (: I sort of 'lend' her the money to do it but hell I am not going to ask her back for the money LOL. Just take it as a treat from me ya (: Then we suddenly have the intention to take a random bus and go to a random location LOL. So I suggested we head to Somerset's bustop to take it as a lot of buses passes by there. So we walked there and suddenly decide to jsut take 171 back home. After we arrived at Somerset we realised there was no 171 there -.- SO, we walked back to Orchard again. LOL Its like Somerset>Ochard>Somerset>Orchard. LOL After we boarded the bus, we were damn tired >.< Then we had some h2h talk about life and stuffs. After a long close to 2 hours ride, we are finally back in yishun and we went to have dinner! dinner was good just that i waited very long and very pekcek /: Shared dinner with Jas and then after that we went home ~ Tiring but fun day for me (: I asked her out cos she seemed abit sad la. Hope she had fun (:

I am just someone looking for some love. Didn't it to turn out this way though. So lonely ya know?

Ytd got a weird dream.
Dreamed of the end of the world and someone predicted it.
All of us were hopeless and just stood there waiting for the countdown to the end of the world. But it's damn saddening sia. The loss of hope and surrendering to fate. No one was fighting.

Okay tonight spam post LOL. I want to stop being so emo. Actually i am less emo thesedays. I asked myself will this thing that currently affects me today matter in the future? Why dont we just have fun but YET make something good out of your life. You only ahve one life, do you wanna live a life of regrets or with awesome memories that when you're old, you will have something to smile or laugh at when you reminiscent the past? Girls? Love? Loneliness? Nah. Actually nowadays i prefer to be alone. The feeling of independence and freedom is awesome. You can do whatever you like, whatever you want. Girls? Love? - We should just let nature take its course. I want to improve more on myslef before i go into a relationship or something. If you're not confident of yourself, how could you keep your another half? IF you dont love yourself, how do you expect others to love you?

G DRAGON new mv is out ~ CRAYONS ~ GO GET YOUR CRAYONS ~ haha very catchy but i dont really like this song. I prefer his "This XX". This song's lyrics is very right-at-the-heart. Not forgetting he compose all of his own songs. English translation: I happened to see your man while walking [Yea I saw him] It seems my assumptions were right [I told you] Without the ring you gave him and with his arm linked... I'll just tell you this much [I don't wanna hurt you] But you for some reason get mad at me [Why?] You say there's no way he would do that [Sure, you're right] I notice how you look and say I must have seen someone else Yeah, I'll lie for you [I'm sorry] Oh, I hate that you don't understand me I don't like waiting so let go When you're sad I feel like dying, baby What does that xx (=bastard/son of b**ch/motherf***er) have that I don't Why in the world can't I have you That xx doesn't love you How much longer are you just gonna cry stupidly You look happy when you talk about that person [You look happy] it looks good to see you laughing like this [I'm happy] You say you really love him You believe that it will last forever [I don't know what to say no more] Your friends all know him well [yup, they know] Why are you the only one who can't see when it's so obvious? [It's you] They say love is blind. Oh, baby you're so blind I'll keep hoping that you two will separate Oh, I hate that you don't understand me I don't like waiting so let go When you're sad I feel like dying, baby What does that xx have that I don't Why in the world can't I have you That xx doesn't love you How much longer are you just gonna cry stupidly You fit with expensive cars pretty clothes luxurious restaurants But that xx isn't for you, he doesn't fit He has a fake smile in front of you while touching your cheek and hair Inside for sure, he's thinking of a different girl. How could he do this, it's a sin! I'll treat you better for all of the tears you've dropped, baby Can you share your pain with me that you've experienced alone, baby Just look at me, why don't you know that I'm your love why are you the only one who doesn't know? What does that xx have that I don't Why in the world can't I have you That xx doesn't love you How much longer are you just gonna cry stupidly What does that xx have that I don't Why in the world can't I have you That xx doesn't love you How much longer are you just gonna cry stupidly GD is so creative and he is my role model hahaa

Yesterday went to give weicai a surprise for his birthday ~ He was really surprised to see us hahahaha ~ Ok la not bad, everything went as planned/ Then i smashed the cake on to hsi face LOL Then after that went to Chomp Chomp to makan makan! My first time going to that place leh. Not bad la, yuying as the professional eater lead me and weitao to bu all the food. Bought many food :D Nice catching up, and joked around ~ AFter that went to slack at a random shopping mall around Chomp Chomp. Took many pictures and had loads of fun :) Hope we can have more of this catching up session :D

Went to repair phone ytd. When i reached Ang mo kio, i realised i didnt bring my spoilt phone, (for the second time) so i decided to go home and take it. LOL wasted like 1 hour going back and forth. Upon reaching that place, i was lost >.< I couldnt find the place and it rained ): Was fully drenched and I was under the rain for around 1 hour >.< My phone de GPS got problem and it made me walked arpund the whole area twice ! Was damn irritated and I decided to ask people for direction and I reached the place around 15 minutes. Fixed my phone's LCD for $80 dollars (: Will be using my 3GS until IPhone 5 comes out and my contract ends! Quite looking forward to iphone 5 After that went bugis street to shop for clothes. At first i only want to buy 2 shirts and 1 cardigan but in the end i ended up buying 11 shirts, 1 pair of shoes, 3 cardigans, 1 coat and 2 hats and spent around $500 ..... I really need to control my spendings... Have to call NS for deferment. Hmm if not they wil enlist me soon. I want to go back to poly to study first...

31 August Went back to school for teachers day celebration. It's good to see my friends after such a long time I miss the teachers too too bad they dont recognise us. But it was fun ~ Catch up with friends and took many pictures. After that went to Food court to eat with friends then follow by a movie session with Karin ! We watched Step Up Revolution and it was damn nice ~~~ Inspired to do a flashmob hahaha! Actually i got work one, I skipped it due to all the fun and also because i have camp later on. After watching movie i chiong to get my mc and then go to yishun mrt to meet junhao, raynor, ryan and thiamhock. 31 August - 2 Sep Reached Ngee Ann poly around 730pm. Then settled down and listened to the briefing from 7-11pm then proceed to making dummies for the activity. Didnt sleep much cos the table were too damn hard and the air con were too damn cold. tbc going work now ~ then we played running man and stuff during the camp, even though it was tiring but it was damn fun (: I miss Ngee Ann poly now >.<