Hahaha today I am dammmm happy :D So heres the story. 2 weeks ago i sold my precious alienware laptop to this guy online. I told him my laptop specs and everything and he agreed to buy my laptop. After I met him hes real nice and stuff but he said because I dont have the receipt for the laptop he only pay $900 first and after i found the receipt, I contact him and pass him the receipt and he will pass me the remainding $200. Since he look so nice and kind, I accepted his offer and he only paid me $900 and I receive the money and leaving home happily. After I reached home, I immediately went to look for the receipt, within minutes, I found it. The next morning I contacted him to tell him that I have found the receipt and asked him when he want to meet me to pass me the $200. He took a long time to reply. After a while, he replied saying that my laptop processor is a older version i5 procssor and said that $900 for that laptop is too ex and refuse to pay for the remainding $200 and wanted to refund. I told him I had already spent most of the $900 as I need to return some of the money to my mother. And he repiled "LOL" I immedaitely shoot back at him saying this is not a joke. He had agreed to deal after i told him the version of my procssor beforehand and now he wants to change his words. I told him that I had told him the version of my procssor and he agree to it now hes trying to change his words then he replied "hmm do you have the message to prove?" I told him i had screenshot the message and can show him. tbc i go sleep.

Yoyo ~ Yesterday had a awesome dream! I dreamed that I am someone like a Iron man but also with the ability of spiderman! LOL Then throughout the story, I drank something poisonous and it damaged my body so the doctor have to implant some mechanic stuff into my body but I am only left with 9 hours to live. ( Even though the story doesnt make sense but I am jsut typing out all that i can remember) Then after that I ended up in some shopping mall, wandering around and that was when I found out i can shoot spider webs out of my hands ! >.< Then I swing around the shopping mall and enjoying my last 9 hours on Earth. Then suddenly I saw one of my close friend; a girl, crying at a corner. I cant leave her alone as she seems shes going to do something silly as shes at the top level of the shopping mall; i was afraid she might do something stupid. So I approached her and talk to her and realised her boyfriend had just broke up with her. Knowing that, I tried all means to console her to calm her down. After awhile, she said she will be fine and told me to leave her alone as she need some time to be by herself. I agreed and left. Still worrrying for her, I hid somewhere watch her to make sure shes alright already. To my surprise, I saw her climbing over the railing trying to jump down from the top floor. I was shocked and I froze upon my position. In a split second, she was falling down from the top floor. Then I suddenly shoot web across the building and swing towards her and grabbed her. LOL so dramatic. then all the shoppers below were all staring at me as I slowly ascend to the first floor dropping her on the floor. All the shoppers around me cheered for me as though I am a hero, that feeling was awesme, but before I know it, I felt as though my body was suddenly paralysed. I stood there, trying to comprehend what was going on. It was the poison, it took over my body faster than the doctor had thought to be 9 hours. I started to wobble around, trying to find something to grab. Suddnely some unknown guy appeared behind me, supporting me but I coudlnt help but fell to the ground. I kept trying to stand up but my head were shakey and I couldnt stablise myself, the last glimpse I caught before I deactiviated was the scene of passer-by cheering for me. I died in honour. LOL okok the above story is what i feel during the dream, its still quite strong in my brain as i can remember most of the content.

Lol, i know no one is reading my blog alr. its not like i can interest anyone in my life story lol. So im just blogging down my present events for future purposes (: i want to look back and tell myself that my life have been become better and im no longer alone (:

Yoyo~ todays as per normal. Tmr going to meet the scammer who scammed my $200. So stress sia. I dunno why im afraid i am not even in the wrong.. I used my another number to cheat him into meetinge as he didnt answer my call or reply my messages. I am definitely getting back my money no matter what. Its my hard earn money no one has the right to take it. Many of my friends are going to quit school. Two of them changing course next year one going back to kl to study. I somehow think its my fault. I thought i shouldnt openly post on fb that i quitted school. it opens up options of other ppl who saw my post and think its ok to quit school? Im not saying like as though im a role model or what but as a friend, i feel i really did something wrong there. I just feel wrong and guilty ):

Past, present, future.

After viewing my photos on facebook, i dunno why but i just fel extremely happy that i have those memories! (: I feel like i should appreciate life more and not stay sad all the time. i stil have alot of things i wanna do and my life cant just end here. i am proceeding to the next phrase of life and shouldnt keep regretting things which i would have done. As i look back to my past pictures, most of the pictures remind me of time when i was not confident of myself because of those acne and stuff and i always think back and told myself "i could have done that..if only i was abit more confident" it really sucks to have to think of that all the time. I dont want to have this thinking anymore. I have a dream that i always wanted to pursuit,i mustnt let go of it. All these suddenly came to me and i just wanna blog all these event down for the future me to read. Imagine 10 or 20 years later i will still see this post. lol. HI to my future self,if you are still alive and kicking! I knkw now you are definitely living your dream! Even though its really tiring and you are busy all the time but i still wanna remind you dont forget the friends who helped you and encouraged you so you can get to where you are now. Dont neglect your family because they have tolerate you and nurture you, without them, you wont be able to pursue your dreams! Zhehao, continue living hiur dream and live the most out of your life, even though you might feel linely at times but remember those people supporting you behind your back and you have me, the 18 years old me supporting you! FIGHTING ! ^^ Signing off, 10 years ago me. Zhe hao

It's late in the night, wanted to sleep but in the end i went to view my past pictures on facebook and alot of memories started to come back to me :)
It's so awesome a picture can remind me of so many things.
Those were the times, I wished i could have been more fun of a person and would be more confident and do what i want to do.

Missed those immatured days of having fun.

Am feeling sad.
Joyce is going to leave the house soon...
My parents are going to miss her after taking care of her for 1 year plus.
After that, I will be leaving for NS.
They will be all alone soon /:
After that. i will be working and probably spend very little time at home.
Or maybe work overseas ( one of my dream )
Then they will be all alone.
I dont wanna go NS, i feel that i am wasting my youth on NS.
I can use it to do more stuffs.

Now that i have made the decision to quit school and go NS, I am putting a very huge bet on my future. I am still uncertain about what to do. I must decide as soon as possible if not it will be wasted again but i am feeling very lost. It's like im just spending everyday as it is. If i go on like this, it wont turn out good... NS............ hai
My youth is bring burned away.


No one owe you happiness,you have to fight for it.

 

Went to Sentosa today with friends !

Very fun ah! The weather not very good though ): It rained in the end.

It may going to be a long time till the next time i am meeting them? not sure though /:

And the rest of my friends too.

 

I saw Her !! Thats so many things on my mind when I saw her. But. She will just think I am weird, like im a pervertic stalker stalking her but im not. But its my fault anyway, any normal human beings will think I am from all those messages I have sent her... I thought she still have feelings for me when last year i saw her at the Yishun CC study room and I caught glimpse of her staring at me. I guess it was all one-sided, i was thinkign too much. How could she be staring at me? HAHHAHA joke. It's only me giving myself false feeling and hope. She dont feel that way i do for her. AND why do I feel something for her after so long? I still dont get it. Why cant i move on? Wanted to talk to her when we alighted the bus. At least as a friend; but i guess we are not even friends in the first place. Stupid sia.. But...its as though something was stuck in my throat. I just wanna say hi thats all /: Then she walked away very quickly, maybe shes afraid i might stalk her since she stay near to me LOL. And my stupid dumbbell is so heavy >.< It's all freaking one sided. I dont feel anything for her already. Really. It's jsut that whenever i see her, my heart will pump very fast and my hands will shake and i become very nervous. But I really dont like her anymore. Cos its jsut awkward. I am jsut a stupid pervertic stalker for her. And personally I am disgust by myself. So I must stop it. I never know her and she never know me.

Yoyo ~ I cant sleep !! Ahhhh ~ SO many things on my mind /: Its like a chain of thoughts one leading to another. I hate it when alot of things come to my mind, mostly worries. Frankly speaking I do think that i worry too much on alot of things. Either small or big matters, i worry alot. Something, worrying leads to over-thinking and over-thinking will lead to emo-ing. LOL I want to worry less and just take things as it is. Worrying doesnt change anything. I want to be more positive and happy as I believe as long as i stay positive, things around me will turn out well! When i entered Secondary school, I became more negative as I was very realistic and doesnt want to give myself false hope so i always expect the worst in everything and sometimes i am misunderstood as being a pessimist. Reailty is cruel, staying positive is like lying to yourself and you expect things to turn out for the better. But when it doesnt, you will feel disappointed. So my whole secondary school life was a period of negativity, so things were never really going good for me. Most of the time i can remember is those emo times i have to go through by myself. In conclusion, worries wont go away if you worry.

I just cant stand loneliness I dont wanna to be alone. I have to have someone by myself. Someone whom i can care for, someone who belong to me, someone whom i can call mine. Sometimes when i see couple on the streets, i will feel very lonely. Arent we all the same, why cant we have the same thing? I just want to experience it once, it is so hard to ask for? Im just glad i have friends :) But im such a bastard. I had backstabbed friends, talked bad about them behind their back, and they still recognise me as their friends as they were ignornant of who i really am. I really regret. /:

Todays a normal day. Morning went to Tampines to my agency to hand in the form. I hate taking the 969 >.< Then coincidentally, i saw marie on the bus! At first i didnt notice until she messaged me! Soon after she arrived she fell asleep hahaha, shes still the same haven change! She sleep until damn unglam HAHAHAHA ! Ok after handing in the form i took 969 back agaim /: shag. then everything goes on as usual. Sian, today my sis husband coming over to take Joyce, my niece away and will be coming back on Sunday. /: Just now when they came to take her, she was crying like hell cos she doesnt want to leave. It really hurts me when i saw that, i just went back to my room immediately. Then after she left, my mother said she saw from the kitchen window down at the carpark, she saw him forcefully passing Joyce to his father's girlfriend and forced her to enter the car ): They didnt give birth to the child, they have totally no regards to her well being. My mother said she saw her still crying, i guessed she was shocked and scared ): Why does she have to go through all these? I pity her... But my sister didnt fight for her. I was always feeling lonely at home. It was Joyce who made me feel less lonely sometimes with her random trips to my room. Sometimes she will carry her push car into my room and just leave it here. LOL. Sometimes she will come into my room and just smile :D Hahaha thinking about it just make my day :) Her laughter is priceless! In about a few months time, she will be really leaving our house and going to her father side to stay /: I dont know when i will see her again or will she still remember this family or me, but i hope she will grow up to be a good girl ! She haven even learned how to talk, i wanna hear how her voice sounded like (: I bet my parents would like to hear it too!

Today went to YTSS for class outing! Vivien and minqi bought pizza for the outing and we chatted and talked wait i go sleep first ........... Ok i am back! Ok so first we arrived in school and eat the pizza, then we gathered around and chat abit before the running man games vivien ho and min qi organised starts. Was pretty excited as they pasted the name tag on my shirt! Hahaahh So then cos theres only 4 boys, they split the four boys and made 2 boys the captain of the team. Me and Ashwin were in the same group and norres and Khai is in another. So we get to choose our team mates first, i chose Jiayee, Marie, Yvonne, Michelle, Geraldine and the other team chose Suvitra, Nisa, Huishi, Audrey. The first part of the game will deicide who will be the seeker or hider of the game! We have to run a short distance like the shutter run and we have to run to the other side and finish a drink and then run back to win the game! I represent our team to be the runner and the other chose Khai. then so the race starts and i ran like hell ! I was the first to reach and i gobbled down the drink till i choked! I drank it damn fast cos i thought khai may be quite fast but when i finished the drink and went back, he still haven finish his drink LOL they added tomato or chill sauce into our milo drink lol i only realised it upon reaching the finishing line. But i won and we chose to be the seeker. tbc.............

Yoyo ! Yesterday just ended work in Uniqlo~ Quite happy cos i finally gret to rest after 13 days straight of work! Very exhausting but i recover fast (: Really gonna miss the Uniqlo staffs like Hafiq, Hafeez, ming Da, Bob and the rest la! They really made us feel as though we belong there even though we are just temp staff! Departure sucks /: Then after work went to meet H?an long to drink and lepak. Then we went to the hill top to slack then when we went to the toilet, we suddenly heard some moaning sound coming from the handicapped toilet! LOL. I was showing the epic face to han long because he didnt notice it at first! Then he climbed on top to peek first then followed by me haha! Ok abit sick la /: Then i also climbed and i saw............. ya LOL okay la, then we slack slack then jiu went home le! What a day!

Have been working for 8 days straight now. Dan tired have to keep cattying heavy chunks of boxes and stuff around.. 4 more days till my work end and i will have freedom ~ Its been long since i last ball.. and i need more sleep.

Imagine your plans 2 or 3 years later suddenly having to push forward and have to face everyrhing and adapt to everything. Ever have that?

I dont think i will be anyone's type of guy they wanna be with.
Everytime i see couples walking down the streets, i thought to myself, will i find my another half someday?
Haha, sounds funny i know.

Woke up to a miss call from the recruit agency.
So i called back and they told me they found a job for me at Uniqlo somerset 313.
The pay is low but i agreed to it immediately as i dont want to miss out this chance.
Hmmm going to go broke soon so i just dont want to be too picky so i just accept it.
Its everyday from June 1st to June 13th 3pm-10pm. Hope everything is ok tmr.

Then after  that i rushed from Tampines to Dover SP to celebrate my friend's birthday ~
Been so long since i saw them!
They all rushing and stressing on assignment.. /:
Okay, it's junjie birthday and Yi xuan invited me to school to celebrate his birthday ~~

haha it was fun! I took a piece of cake and smash on his face LOL
Ok la! Hope they score well for their assignment cos they really work very hard for it! (:

 

Okay, after coming back from SP, I went back to YTSS to get my testimonial from school.

The security guard the indian woman one like v friendly sia.

Didnt expect her to be so.

So i went in and suddenly, when i was walking towards the general office, i looked around me, the school where i used to be. Everything seems so close and familiar but yet with a sense of unknown foreign feeling. It's like telling us we dont belong there anymore despite those time we spent in that school. 

So when i entered the general office, the place changed le, now we must walk right all the way to reach the reception counter.

Then i saw Mr Jackson. 

LOL, my arch enemy in YTSS. 

He everytime kp me for nothing.

I remember there's one time when i have my shirt tucked out and i walked past him and he called me to tuck in my shirt but i just walk away and ignore him.

Then he flared up and shouted :" Hey i call you to tuck in your shirt right?! Come with me to see the DM now!" 

LOL got so serious meh?

Seriously, i wasnt feeling scare at all then i just followed him. 

I  have not been called up by teacher to go see DM for a very very long time since sec 2 when i fought with Kelvan. 

So i was wondering what will it be like.

Then i just followed him and unexpectedly, we walked by Mr Lee Ah Liat!

He like damn good to me >.< 

So sad now he leave school le );

But anyway Mr Lee asked me and the teacher to go over and he helped me by confronting the teacher and ask him not to send me to DM >.<................... 

SO TOUCHED !!!

Then the stupid teacher released me and walked away.

WOW ~~~ Then Mr Lee actually helped me in alot of things.

Like i lack of a CCA teacher to sign my form that time when i wanna go Perth. 

Mr low doesnt want to sign (as Teacher in charge of volleyball)

then since i have been helping out in Green club ( in charge by Mr Lee Ah Liat), Mr lee without a doubt he just say come down and find me, i will help you sign ))))))))))):

OMG i cannot explain how i was feeling at tht point of time...

I am really very grateful towards him ...

i seriously dont know what to say.

Haha ok back to the main topic, so i just do some admin stuff then get my testimonial le :D

Went out with friends early in the morning to go gym. Not really early la jsut early for me cos i slept late /: It was great la, did many intense workout and my friends helped me. This is the first time i ever trained so hard in a gym! Then after that meet up with friends again to go SSC to eat a steaamboat buffet call FatFish ! It was not bad! But abit costly, $28. Ate and talked cock and have some catching up (: After that we randomly thoguht of going to LAN shop and play because they keep talking about blackshot when we are eating! Then we go play at the one nearest to SSC. The game like damn epic sia, ppl shouting here and there haha ~ We played like 1 hour but it seems damn long cos in the end we ended up being very tired due to all the shoutings >.< It is awesome to have meet up with friends after so long. Somemore i might be going ns this year and will have lesser chances of meeting them anymore. ): We should take friends for granted. They are a luxury for us.