My blog posts all like so emo
Okay going to post something happy now (:

17 January 2012

Everything i do reminds me of her, now i have to start all over again.

Today 17 jan 2012, is my birthday(:
I am happy.
Even though i got no birthday cake or celebration..
at least i tried to be.
luckily i didnt expect anything. if not i will be more disappointed.
Anyway now 18 years old le...
Ya.

MEOW ~ LOL so cute HAHA

Tmr by 4pm have to submit the JAE.
Doesnt even have one fking choice of course down.
Hah.
How? Why am i like that.

Jan 9

It's the day of O level result release day.
I was aiming for a 13 or at worst 15.
In the end i got a 17.
fk up.
I did my best le in the end i only i got a B3 for my POA and CS.
Fk, the 2 subjects i depend heavily on.
I was confident in my English and was expecting a B3 or at worst B4.
In the end C6.
My targets my poly courses -.-...

Jan 11

Went to cycle with thiam hock, raynor and junhao ~
Overslept and when i woke up i saw 5 missed calls on my phone and i saw my clock i panic !
Then tth came to my house.
LOL was really very tired.
Ate breakfast then cycle to Kranji
Lol i fell down! Got many injuries here and there.
I think i did a flip and i injured my wrist, shoulder, butt, palm and ankle.
then we went to Sungei Buloh water reserve.
There got many big monitor lizard !
Very cool la, first time see so big monitor lizard!
Then walked around hoping to see a crocodile because the sign write "Caution, watch it!" with a crocodile picture there.
Overall its fun (:

TOMORROW is the official release of O level result....
I dun know if i feel anything.
I dunno what course or school i wanna go to.
What if i fail?
I got no target at all.
What will my score be? What school or course will i go to?
Excited, but feel so empty and aimless.

Expect the worst, prepare for it. So whatever shyt happens it cannot be worst than what you had prepared for; you will be able to handle it.

Jan 08 2012
Today didnt go to work due to something.
Went to polyclinic but it was too late and it closed and many shyt happpens
I lost my 93355989 sim card and i lost my ez link card. Very f up
I back tracked my route to find my ez link card but to no avail.
I spent like 1 hour plus walking back the road i walked under the blazing hot sun.
Then i went to all the clinic all closed.
Today is really a f up day.
Tmr getting my LG optimus 3D le ~
Finally changing phone. But that will also add up to my expenses.
I have to pay adult fare alr and have to pay my own phone bill.

It's the New Year yo ~

Say hello to 2012 !

On December 21 2011 i spent my last second with my friends Weishin, Jevon, Norres, Ashwin and Danial or something, dunno how to spell his name.

Chiong to meet them when i ended work at 10pm.
Luckily i was able to make it.
Walked very long and we stood at the bridge waiting for the countdown when Jevon and some other people tear down the plastic cover and we climbed over the fence to have a clearer view of the fireworks ~
This year was better than last year's because last year was cramped and this year is just great~

Lucky they invited me or i will go home and sleep after work~ ):

LOL.

Today is my 11th day of being a server in Brewerkz ~
and i am still counting on ~~

NEW YEAR CHANGES

I want to be more matured and expect a big postive change in myself whether it's internal or external self.
I want to earn money for my future and my dreams.
I want to look more different (handsome) haha.
Be better in Basketball
Learn more dances.

Yo ~
Today is christmas eve !
Today i went for work and its John's last day ):
He treated me, Angela and Kim a tower of Kolsch, snack sampler and Hawaiian pizza.
Almost drank sia
Abit suey here suey there so stop drinking le.
He keep hugging everyone because everyone is so close with him
He told me some stuff and I was very touched.
He taught me many stuffs and i am very grateful to him...
Then ate and chiong to mrt to catch last train lucky manage to get onto one.
If not will have to cab home ):

Work work work ~

Work today extend till 10pm. Was supposed to end at 6 because friday is really a very busy day.
I started working as a server today.
tbc

Today wake up damn early for work!
Then trained and walked to clarke quay.
Then when i reached there i realised I wasnt suppose to work today! Oh my tian ~
I was supposed to tmr at the same timing but i went today instead.
FYI. my timing for tmr is a killer schedule which is 12-11pm and i experienced it today and have to again tmr!
But like that i earn around $80 dollars one day not bad eh (:
But its just damn tiring, my body almost couldnt take it and i spammed coffee at work.
The coffee was damn bitter and i dunno how to make it less bitter and when i drank it, i immediately hyped up!

AND WORST OF ALL
I dropped a pizza today ):
Was very guilty about it and i scalded my hands ):
But the manager jsut said :"nvm nvm, accidents do happen.."
That manager normally very fierece one and he suddenly so ... I very ... you know.

Aiya, but ya, hope it wont happen again (:
I scalded my hands alot of times and i sometimes have to endure the burning hot plates on my hands all the way to my customer's table.

It was all worth it though.
Even tough it was tough but it was fun (:

She is a good girl.
I took her for granted.
I wanted to show her I have changed, but how?
Not treasuring her was my mistake.
If i can, i want to turn back time.

Had a tough day at work yesterday.
Leave house at 1015 to go to work and have to reach at 12.
Have been working at Brewerkz and ytd was my 4th day there.
The person there is very nice but there are some .. ya.
You cant expect everyone to treat you well.
Ytd was my first day of full shift work where i have to work from morning to night for around 10 hours. Tmr i have the same full shift again and i will be working for 11 hours.
I started out great and was starting out to enjoy myself when i got tired and suddenly i thought of her.
It was when I started to make a lot of silly mistakes and i can see from the eyes of the manager and some sucky staff that their eyes say something bad about me.
But i dont care man.
I dont give a damn about them if they treat me like that. I just have to try best to work and make lesser mistakes and do my job and not slack off.

Met Pook and Poulina 2 new workers there.
There are very friendly and chatted with Poulina for almost all the while when there is no work to do and she is a uni grad who is on a internship or something if im not wrong, with Brewerkz.
Got to know one guy, Ron.
He taught me some stuff and talked and etc.

Suddenly thought of her. It sucks.
Messaged her but she didnt reply. It sucks.
Another night of thinking of her and crying till Im tired then sleep.
I am afraid of waking with the same feeling of pain knowing she is happy without me and doesnt need me.
I miss her.
But she miss me no more.

"To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing."

Saw this on her tumblr.
I have tried so hard to forget her and this is the result.
I kept going to her tumblr uncontrollably and even thought of going JC for her.

Dec 2 2011

Went to work with huishi and junhao at Pasir Ris Camp as server.
It was a NCC event and we have to serve food for them
It was very fun and get to know many people and after that, we went to have supper then walk home !

Dec 29 and Dec 30

Went to MBS with friends ~

Yesterday night went to Audrey house to partyyyy ~
It was really boring at first but it eventually turn out great!