Went for foreign bodies dance audition today. Waited for like  5 hours til its my turn. Feelinghhungry amd tired I screwed up my audition fking badly. I just stood there my mind went blank. I was so dishearten. I couldn't believe history repeated itself again...
What the fk is wromg with me.why am I not up to challenge. It was something I believed I was good at...now im good at nothing. Feeling damm fk up. Practised for like 2-3 hours till I am fuckkng drained. Could have gone home to work on my oral presentation. Judt feel real damn fk up. It have always been lkke this. I always screw up. Why...dance is my life.
My drive in life seems to be gone.