this marks the end of 2015.
towards the end, i thought i have met the love of my life and was actually happy for once, which actually turns out to be a lie as usual
but stil this year have been good thanks to the friends i made and know this year.
I definitely wont regret and wont feel sad as i have learned alot of things this year.
I have made a lot of mistakes and know what i want.

Ended things off with nicole officially.
She brought me alot of beautiful memories which brought a smile on my face.
its the first time someone ever love me and the feeling was actually mutual.
We had a lot of differences and we got to end it off and its for the good for both of us.
I will miss her always...

long time since i blogged.

recently everything has not being smooth sailing for me. Met with alot of problems

one of it is her. I never know i will fall in love with her but she made me have so much to remember.
Trying to find distractinons to forget her.

Recently taking a break off from dance as i want to focus mroe on improving myself and spend more time with friends. Just very tired to go for practises haha

Today i had my biz finance ica. going to retake next year alr hahaha i skipped the whole section c shame on me!!

Just hope everything will be better and i will be a better person.

Next time i will look back to all these days when i messed up when i am successful.

RIP ENGLISh

hi, yesterday was the last day of foreign bodies production.
after 4-5 months of hardwork everything pays off.
Every week i had the thought of quitting production cos of the commitment and stuffs, but after these 2 days, i alr never regret joining it and was glad that i joined it (:

now that it ended, i feel so empty, it was so big and i am so small.

just feel very lonely and sort of like directionless even though there is dance synergy coming up next but its just so different.

i am really going to miss this journey. By the next production, i will probably be in NS :(

Sometimes you ask yourself, what did you do to deserve all these shit.
I dont deserve this. Why do disappointment strikes me like mad.
I have been losing people. Close ones, im almost alone now.
So close.
Anyone wanna leave can leave now

Have you ever experience heart break so bad you have to alight the train so people wont see you crying?

Why does ti feel so fking painful on my chest
Now i know why people call it heartache, cos it hurt just right there, on that spot.
I dont want to have to bring that up for you to message or even reply me. Or even come and meet me.
Cos it jsut hurts.
Threaten you then you come down? What a joke.
Then suddenly you seem to care so much for me.
For once i suddnely forgot how much you 'care' for me after i brought up that thing to you to make you come down,
Life is a joke, im a loser. I lost the game.
For once i thought i never have to be alone anymore and this shit comes up.
At this period of time, it jsut sucks big time.
I really really have no idea how to get back on my feet this time. Guide me please?

Finally blogged ~
SO bored
Rcently life is filled with projectsd and test but im jsut so lazy ~
Tmr got award ceremony to take my bursary and then to NYP for fbodz passing down parade ~

Abit tired but ya will go ~

bursary finally came and i will be 2k richer soon hehe ~

I miss you. I wished you were mine.
Another false alarm. I'm used to this i will get over this just like the other previous times. But how...

21 June 2014

Today is the last of the Fbodz camp ~
Last year, I was still like a junior, everything pass by so fast.
Alot of things happen thruout this journey but I had overcome them and had changed in a certain way for the better. the most mrmoerable part of the camp is when i have to dress up as  a ghost for night walk. Was afraid that i might look boring or not scary but in the end the feedback i got back was pretty good so Im satisfied (: I went all out for the first few groups and by the time its the 5 group, im already tired and i kept getting the wig hair into my mouth XD

Had a great time bomnding with the juniors, my batch mates and senuors. Will never forget that day (:

And thanks my Group 5 Tadpole for being so cooperative and so high during the camp! Will never wish for a better grp!

Yo ~
Long time no blog already. Today just ended my first hip hop production prac with wei meng, can say its a killer. Alot of things i cant catch and alot of things to learn >.<
In the end learn alto of things but very tired.

Tmr is fbodz camp! First time as seniors hahaha
Quite excited tho, had yet to pack.
Gonig to sleep first and pack tmr. Ciao ~

Yayyy ~ tmr is club crawl finally!
Have been training for like 1 month and it have finally come down to this day.
Hope everything will turn out well tmr ~ jiayou jiayou

Alot of things going on lately, SDD, club crawl items, fmo dance and work. Have to manage time well. Being tired is unavoidable. But everything will be worth it, hopefully?

Always the last of the last, backup of the backup. Wonder how it feels like to be important and needed for once. I forgotten how it feels like...

The thing I worry about most is happening already. I am all alone now.

Things are falling apart.
I cant hold on anymore.

Self

Sometimes when you have problems, no one is there for you. When you need someone, no one is there for you. You only have you yourself to get yourself back on track. You have to think only for yourself. And then people asked why are you so self centered, some are too blind to see. 

The project

Theres a battle in nyp today " The project"

Today went to chronos prac after school. Damn freaking tiring please.....
Was really damn tired almost going to faint. But performance is just 2 weeks time. We completed all the moves today already and we can focus on the small details and clean up.

Just feel really tired. I shouldtn really find all these things to make myself so busy. Exams is near and plus now, I am worknig and i have to juggle everything. I also want to focus on my studies ~.~


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