Ytd got a weird dream.
Dreamed of the end of the world and someone predicted it.
All of us were hopeless and just stood there waiting for the countdown to the end of the world. But it's damn saddening sia. The loss of hope and surrendering to fate. No one was fighting.

Okay tonight spam post LOL. I want to stop being so emo. Actually i am less emo thesedays. I asked myself will this thing that currently affects me today matter in the future? Why dont we just have fun but YET make something good out of your life. You only ahve one life, do you wanna live a life of regrets or with awesome memories that when you're old, you will have something to smile or laugh at when you reminiscent the past? Girls? Love? Loneliness? Nah. Actually nowadays i prefer to be alone. The feeling of independence and freedom is awesome. You can do whatever you like, whatever you want. Girls? Love? - We should just let nature take its course. I want to improve more on myslef before i go into a relationship or something. If you're not confident of yourself, how could you keep your another half? IF you dont love yourself, how do you expect others to love you?

G DRAGON new mv is out ~ CRAYONS ~ GO GET YOUR CRAYONS ~ haha very catchy but i dont really like this song. I prefer his "This XX". This song's lyrics is very right-at-the-heart. Not forgetting he compose all of his own songs. English translation: I happened to see your man while walking [Yea I saw him] It seems my assumptions were right [I told you] Without the ring you gave him and with his arm linked... I'll just tell you this much [I don't wanna hurt you] But you for some reason get mad at me [Why?] You say there's no way he would do that [Sure, you're right] I notice how you look and say I must have seen someone else Yeah, I'll lie for you [I'm sorry] Oh, I hate that you don't understand me I don't like waiting so let go When you're sad I feel like dying, baby What does that xx (=bastard/son of b**ch/motherf***er) have that I don't Why in the world can't I have you That xx doesn't love you How much longer are you just gonna cry stupidly You look happy when you talk about that person [You look happy] it looks good to see you laughing like this [I'm happy] You say you really love him You believe that it will last forever [I don't know what to say no more] Your friends all know him well [yup, they know] Why are you the only one who can't see when it's so obvious? [It's you] They say love is blind. Oh, baby you're so blind I'll keep hoping that you two will separate Oh, I hate that you don't understand me I don't like waiting so let go When you're sad I feel like dying, baby What does that xx have that I don't Why in the world can't I have you That xx doesn't love you How much longer are you just gonna cry stupidly You fit with expensive cars pretty clothes luxurious restaurants But that xx isn't for you, he doesn't fit He has a fake smile in front of you while touching your cheek and hair Inside for sure, he's thinking of a different girl. How could he do this, it's a sin! I'll treat you better for all of the tears you've dropped, baby Can you share your pain with me that you've experienced alone, baby Just look at me, why don't you know that I'm your love why are you the only one who doesn't know? What does that xx have that I don't Why in the world can't I have you That xx doesn't love you How much longer are you just gonna cry stupidly What does that xx have that I don't Why in the world can't I have you That xx doesn't love you How much longer are you just gonna cry stupidly GD is so creative and he is my role model hahaa

Yesterday went to give weicai a surprise for his birthday ~ He was really surprised to see us hahahaha ~ Ok la not bad, everything went as planned/ Then i smashed the cake on to hsi face LOL Then after that went to Chomp Chomp to makan makan! My first time going to that place leh. Not bad la, yuying as the professional eater lead me and weitao to bu all the food. Bought many food :D Nice catching up, and joked around ~ AFter that went to slack at a random shopping mall around Chomp Chomp. Took many pictures and had loads of fun :) Hope we can have more of this catching up session :D

Went to repair phone ytd. When i reached Ang mo kio, i realised i didnt bring my spoilt phone, (for the second time) so i decided to go home and take it. LOL wasted like 1 hour going back and forth. Upon reaching that place, i was lost >.< I couldnt find the place and it rained ): Was fully drenched and I was under the rain for around 1 hour >.< My phone de GPS got problem and it made me walked arpund the whole area twice ! Was damn irritated and I decided to ask people for direction and I reached the place around 15 minutes. Fixed my phone's LCD for $80 dollars (: Will be using my 3GS until IPhone 5 comes out and my contract ends! Quite looking forward to iphone 5 After that went bugis street to shop for clothes. At first i only want to buy 2 shirts and 1 cardigan but in the end i ended up buying 11 shirts, 1 pair of shoes, 3 cardigans, 1 coat and 2 hats and spent around $500 ..... I really need to control my spendings... Have to call NS for deferment. Hmm if not they wil enlist me soon. I want to go back to poly to study first...

31 August Went back to school for teachers day celebration. It's good to see my friends after such a long time I miss the teachers too too bad they dont recognise us. But it was fun ~ Catch up with friends and took many pictures. After that went to Food court to eat with friends then follow by a movie session with Karin ! We watched Step Up Revolution and it was damn nice ~~~ Inspired to do a flashmob hahaha! Actually i got work one, I skipped it due to all the fun and also because i have camp later on. After watching movie i chiong to get my mc and then go to yishun mrt to meet junhao, raynor, ryan and thiamhock. 31 August - 2 Sep Reached Ngee Ann poly around 730pm. Then settled down and listened to the briefing from 7-11pm then proceed to making dummies for the activity. Didnt sleep much cos the table were too damn hard and the air con were too damn cold. tbc going work now ~ then we played running man and stuff during the camp, even though it was tiring but it was damn fun (: I miss Ngee Ann poly now >.<

24 august

Woo ~ today is a very happy and awesome day for me! ^^ Today after work went to eat with Jerlyn and a random shopping trip at far east! Very happy ^^ Joked and chit chat ~ After that I sent her home to Sembawang! :D

Ok, i found out she got a boyfriebd. Fucking fail dia zhebao.. good job for treating her so well. I couldnt take it. Seriously. I dont want to accept it. Shes the first girl i ever treat so well and got a response and thos thibgs i did with her and she say she have a gf... i am such a joke...... i wanna fk myself. I was so happy with her, i want her so bad, her boyfriebd is so lucky to have her.. shes esomso cute and awesome.. momment with her is awmse and haopy. i wont forget it

Monday, August 20, 2012 - Although you have relationship issues on your mind, they're just a distraction from the real dilemma at hand. Your more immediate concern is about your career path; decisions need to be made that can have long-lasting ramifications. Ironically, your current choices have a significant impact on a partner or spouse. Luckily, your emotions settle down later in the day, revealing a clear path to your goal. Patience, combined with hard work, leads you to your desired destination. This is my horoscope for the day ~ I think its quite accurate lol Hmm... It's 5.55am now, going to sleep soon to wake up for work at 2pm!

Hi! So long never blog le! Recently I injured my left leg ): My dumbbell dropped from the bed and crashed onto my leg and it was swollen immediately. I saw that there was blood on my leg but there was no cuts and I later found out from the doctor that my arteries/veins burst lol. Sounds so scary. I have to thank my right leg for carrying the weights of my left leg (: Anyway this few days don't have enough sleep. Was into maple and legion. Plus some work. Recently I scrolled my Aran overswing 30 successfully! I bought it for 19m an I only left 10m! Have been searching for that skill book for very long >.< Anyway this few days haven being sleeping well. I missed jerlyn lol. I got a feeling it's another one sides again cos no girls will like the likes of me /: and I have already accepte the fact .. That time when I called bak to rubi to ask bout my scedule, she picked up. It's so good to hear her voice after so long. Lol, I dunno what she think about me though. Hai. Love sucks. So it's being like 3 weeks since I last seen her cos she's not working. The next time I will see her is on aug 10! Looking forward to that day (: My face have become worst recently /: I wanna stop myself from doing what the cause but I couldn't suppress it /: it wa too overwhelming... I need someone to help me. Hai. I keep forgetting to remind myself how much days I have left become I enter army and my life will become more sucky. I have to really appreciate the times I have now. So today I went to national heart centre. Took like 30 minutes to find that place /: the nurse all damn Chio lol! Ok anyway I will get to know the result of my heart test by next week! Cya ! Tmr have to wake up at 6am and its alr am left 3 hrs to wake up for work... Sian gtg

Hahaha today I am dammmm happy :D So heres the story. 2 weeks ago i sold my precious alienware laptop to this guy online. I told him my laptop specs and everything and he agreed to buy my laptop. After I met him hes real nice and stuff but he said because I dont have the receipt for the laptop he only pay $900 first and after i found the receipt, I contact him and pass him the receipt and he will pass me the remainding $200. Since he look so nice and kind, I accepted his offer and he only paid me $900 and I receive the money and leaving home happily. After I reached home, I immediately went to look for the receipt, within minutes, I found it. The next morning I contacted him to tell him that I have found the receipt and asked him when he want to meet me to pass me the $200. He took a long time to reply. After a while, he replied saying that my laptop processor is a older version i5 procssor and said that $900 for that laptop is too ex and refuse to pay for the remainding $200 and wanted to refund. I told him I had already spent most of the $900 as I need to return some of the money to my mother. And he repiled "LOL" I immedaitely shoot back at him saying this is not a joke. He had agreed to deal after i told him the version of my procssor beforehand and now he wants to change his words. I told him that I had told him the version of my procssor and he agree to it now hes trying to change his words then he replied "hmm do you have the message to prove?" I told him i had screenshot the message and can show him. tbc i go sleep.

Yoyo ~ Yesterday had a awesome dream! I dreamed that I am someone like a Iron man but also with the ability of spiderman! LOL Then throughout the story, I drank something poisonous and it damaged my body so the doctor have to implant some mechanic stuff into my body but I am only left with 9 hours to live. ( Even though the story doesnt make sense but I am jsut typing out all that i can remember) Then after that I ended up in some shopping mall, wandering around and that was when I found out i can shoot spider webs out of my hands ! >.< Then I swing around the shopping mall and enjoying my last 9 hours on Earth. Then suddenly I saw one of my close friend; a girl, crying at a corner. I cant leave her alone as she seems shes going to do something silly as shes at the top level of the shopping mall; i was afraid she might do something stupid. So I approached her and talk to her and realised her boyfriend had just broke up with her. Knowing that, I tried all means to console her to calm her down. After awhile, she said she will be fine and told me to leave her alone as she need some time to be by herself. I agreed and left. Still worrrying for her, I hid somewhere watch her to make sure shes alright already. To my surprise, I saw her climbing over the railing trying to jump down from the top floor. I was shocked and I froze upon my position. In a split second, she was falling down from the top floor. Then I suddenly shoot web across the building and swing towards her and grabbed her. LOL so dramatic. then all the shoppers below were all staring at me as I slowly ascend to the first floor dropping her on the floor. All the shoppers around me cheered for me as though I am a hero, that feeling was awesme, but before I know it, I felt as though my body was suddenly paralysed. I stood there, trying to comprehend what was going on. It was the poison, it took over my body faster than the doctor had thought to be 9 hours. I started to wobble around, trying to find something to grab. Suddnely some unknown guy appeared behind me, supporting me but I coudlnt help but fell to the ground. I kept trying to stand up but my head were shakey and I couldnt stablise myself, the last glimpse I caught before I deactiviated was the scene of passer-by cheering for me. I died in honour. LOL okok the above story is what i feel during the dream, its still quite strong in my brain as i can remember most of the content.

Lol, i know no one is reading my blog alr. its not like i can interest anyone in my life story lol. So im just blogging down my present events for future purposes (: i want to look back and tell myself that my life have been become better and im no longer alone (:

Yoyo~ todays as per normal. Tmr going to meet the scammer who scammed my $200. So stress sia. I dunno why im afraid i am not even in the wrong.. I used my another number to cheat him into meetinge as he didnt answer my call or reply my messages. I am definitely getting back my money no matter what. Its my hard earn money no one has the right to take it. Many of my friends are going to quit school. Two of them changing course next year one going back to kl to study. I somehow think its my fault. I thought i shouldnt openly post on fb that i quitted school. it opens up options of other ppl who saw my post and think its ok to quit school? Im not saying like as though im a role model or what but as a friend, i feel i really did something wrong there. I just feel wrong and guilty ):

Past, present, future.

After viewing my photos on facebook, i dunno why but i just fel extremely happy that i have those memories! (: I feel like i should appreciate life more and not stay sad all the time. i stil have alot of things i wanna do and my life cant just end here. i am proceeding to the next phrase of life and shouldnt keep regretting things which i would have done. As i look back to my past pictures, most of the pictures remind me of time when i was not confident of myself because of those acne and stuff and i always think back and told myself "i could have done that..if only i was abit more confident" it really sucks to have to think of that all the time. I dont want to have this thinking anymore. I have a dream that i always wanted to pursuit,i mustnt let go of it. All these suddenly came to me and i just wanna blog all these event down for the future me to read. Imagine 10 or 20 years later i will still see this post. lol. HI to my future self,if you are still alive and kicking! I knkw now you are definitely living your dream! Even though its really tiring and you are busy all the time but i still wanna remind you dont forget the friends who helped you and encouraged you so you can get to where you are now. Dont neglect your family because they have tolerate you and nurture you, without them, you wont be able to pursue your dreams! Zhehao, continue living hiur dream and live the most out of your life, even though you might feel linely at times but remember those people supporting you behind your back and you have me, the 18 years old me supporting you! FIGHTING ! ^^ Signing off, 10 years ago me. Zhe hao

It's late in the night, wanted to sleep but in the end i went to view my past pictures on facebook and alot of memories started to come back to me :)
It's so awesome a picture can remind me of so many things.
Those were the times, I wished i could have been more fun of a person and would be more confident and do what i want to do.

Missed those immatured days of having fun.

Am feeling sad.
Joyce is going to leave the house soon...
My parents are going to miss her after taking care of her for 1 year plus.
After that, I will be leaving for NS.
They will be all alone soon /:
After that. i will be working and probably spend very little time at home.
Or maybe work overseas ( one of my dream )
Then they will be all alone.
I dont wanna go NS, i feel that i am wasting my youth on NS.
I can use it to do more stuffs.

Now that i have made the decision to quit school and go NS, I am putting a very huge bet on my future. I am still uncertain about what to do. I must decide as soon as possible if not it will be wasted again but i am feeling very lost. It's like im just spending everyday as it is. If i go on like this, it wont turn out good... NS............ hai
My youth is bring burned away.


No one owe you happiness,you have to fight for it.

 

Went to Sentosa today with friends !

Very fun ah! The weather not very good though ): It rained in the end.

It may going to be a long time till the next time i am meeting them? not sure though /:

And the rest of my friends too.