Went to VAS late for 30mins in the end the cher haven take attendence yet. lol

Pon FDS to go watch dance performance.

My life is now seriously damn aimless. I have lost my direction...

I am just like walking without a direction.

I seriously dunno what to do next ):

My future is on the line /:

Please help me. Someone, help me ):

I cant continue like this. I deserve a bit more...

today is SP cca carnival. Signed up for basetkball and hip hop dance club
Met up with hui shi tth junhao and khai to walk around the cca booth.
Thank god got them if not i alone
I dont think i will have time to go for the cca though cos of my fuck up course.

today i call TP admission hotline and they said they had close on the appeal and intake of student.
I rly dunno what to do, I dun wanna stay in this course.
I cant stand it,
it is draining my life away.
Everyday i feel myself dying more and more.

The lecturer said " After you hand in your assignment, we will brief you on your next assignment."

............
Fuck him seriously.

Every day since i entered Design school, everyday i have to worry bout assignemnt.
Fk it.
It's just assignment after assignment,

I wanna get out of this place.
Can anyone help me?
I feel very lost and confused.
If i quit this course, then do i ahve to wait one more year for the next intake?
Then i will waste another one year. /:
I rly dun wan this to happen
Why cant everything go smothly for me.
I just want a normal life like everyone.
Maybe find someone i like, enter a good course, enter a good cca have a good part time job and then just lead a simple life. Can i?

Now at SP da vinci library.
I just called TP admission and they said they had closed the appeal and intake of student in interior and architecture design..
My hopes are all gone now.

Damn, why does all this shit always happen to me.
I dont want to stay in this course /:

DAMN TIRED.
Today morning lesson almost faint in class but luckily yi xuan gave me sweets!
She didnt know that she saved my life!
Was still feeling abit sick and stuff
Wanted to go home after first lesson but in the end i stayed for the whole thing.
Just rushed thru my FDS work. DAMN SIAN
Tmr got fds see the lecturer then sian liao
I just found out that tmr morning i have gen ed which start at 8 !!!
So i goign sleep to now cya

Today went to Scape to work in the flea market!
Was sick so im damn tired ):
Hope i recover soon so i can focus on my work.
Work was alright, i am selling phone accessories.
Just sit there and when got customer come then attend to him or her.
Okay la. The thing that attracted me is that it pays me daily  ^^
So i can get my pay straight after work ! ((:

Now sick and i will postpone my painting work to tmr and tmr must chiong le!
JYJY ~

This is my final product, I have done 'In the car' halfway. Hope everything turns out well. Got so many assignment to hand in and its just week 1.

Today is a rough day for me. Went to school with fever and seem not able to cope with anything..
Almost gave up.
The VAS was killer man, they want us to paint 4 pictures in the weekend but i got work on saturday..
Then i also sucks at painting..
Then i was damn worried and damn stressed... /:

Then after VAS is FDS ! The worst killer ever. The lecture all very big shot and damn kp!
Cant stand them, treat us like secondary school kids. They will say "Why do i still hear people talking?!"
Maybe becos they have ears thats why they can hear us talking? LOL

Especially the female lecturer. Damn sarcastic /:
Entertaining herself nia

For FDS, we have to draw dots o.o
Seriously, i find what i m learning in CF have no relation to my interior designing.
I was caught in a freaking dilemma to transfer to TP /:

TP interior design and architecture is very direct and they learn designing straight in 1st year not like us ):
I feel this is a total waste of time. Later on we still have to print stuff on t shirt and do some silk screen crap /:

I was on the verge of tears, i know abit gay right? Haha, but really stress.  If i change school i have to readapt to TP and i will definitely lost all contacts of my friends in SP.
I went for FOC design camp, Sports camp and FOP and i came to know many serious and friends from other course. If i change school, everything will be in vain and ... but is my future more impt or my friends? Or should i stick to my current course? Can someone give me a answer? Please. i need help. I dunno if i can withstand this...

Got a very bad flu ):
very jialat...
doing some work now ~
ahhh tmr is gonna be a long day ): wish myself all the best !
Cos tmr is fds and vas most chim subject ):

Poly life have been tiring so far..
VAS, GC, OC, FDS, BDC, HTI and Gen ed.
Every module will have to keep sketchbook/journal /:
Very stress la.

Today went artfriend to buy newsprint paper for the class. Its damn heavy man...then i went straight to orchard for job interview. The interview was damn stupid.. she asked me to come back 2 months later o.o like wtf? if im in no need of money then why i go work? Then still have to wait for 2 months?
Wasted trip down and my ez link card is crying, badly.
My hands now very jelly. No strength at all. /:
Plus my damn heavy lappy..

Tmr is the start of poly life!
Kinda excited but sian. /: Prepared all the stuffs for tmr le!
Wish myself all the best for tmr (:

Zircon 2012 Class 53 with our 2 wonderful Gls Rahimi and Jehenn! (missing Agnes, Lisa and Wei Jun)

These 2 wonderful gls made our FOP extra fun, crazy, hyper and embarrassed ! Haha, embarrasased because they are always doing stupid and nonsensical stuff all the time!

We only knew each other for like 4 days and we joked around, give each other names, scold each other for fun LOL. We open up because of our gls !
Frankly speaking, at first when I saw Rahimi, i thought sian la! Why got him as a gl? But in the end i found out hes actually a fun guy to be with! (sound so gay) LOL

Woke up early in the morning to miss my appointment /:
Was damn tired ytd as I woke up damn early for SP flag day!
Was very enthu but our location was preety bad ):
Our location was at commonwealth mrt station and the crowd was alright so the money i collected was very little ):
I collect $22.50, I donated $2.20 from my own pocket (:
Was damn disappointed cos i tried very hard ):

then ytd after flag day went to SP aSPire rock concert with classmates and in the end they left one by one and eventually left me alone so i met up with hui Shi, min qi and vivien and went back home /:

As for today, in the afternoon i went to Sp to activate my Photoshop and AutoCAD.
then suddenly thoguht of going to try and find jobs so in the end met up with Jasmine to go Jcube ~
It was alright ): It was disappointing..
Heard alot of people saying how good Jcube was but in the end i went, it has little shops not that most of them are renovating. And we took our time slowly to walk around it and we finished walking the whole shopping centre in around an hour o.o

Went to the Ice Rink to laugh at people falling down! LOL
then went to Kungfu Paradise to makan ~ The food was nice (:

Then went home and took some pictures on mrt ~

Just a short post.
Today got SPICE training and material fair and stuff.
After SPICE theres a briefing on the DID bursary award.
The award is damn tempting and I dont have to work anymore. On top of that, after I come out of NS i will surely get a job with a min pay of $2.5k ++

But do i really want to be Interior Designer? If I really go for it I wont be able to pursue my dream. Even so, will i be good enough for the bursary? Will my result be good enough?

500 th post

Sports camp jsut ended ! Wil be blogging about it soon ~

Hi! My sports camp just ended 2 days ago and currently im on the train to SP for sports camp at St John Island! Will update more soon (: Cya guys on Saturday!

Its not that i wanna run away; escape from everything.
I'm too tired to shoulder all these by myself; in my current state.
Give me some time.

Feeling so shitty.
So tired
Had an intense basketball match just now in the end no appetite to eat dinner..
Everytime i over exhaust myself I will have no appetite to eat.
Waste food /:
People in those poor countries dont even have food to eat );

Now I'm feeling very sick and tired.
Maybe I played too hard just now.
What's more tmr is Design camp! -.-... Haven pack my bag haha ~
Hope everything turns out well (:

羅志祥 - 不具名的悲傷 完整CD版

羅志祥 - 不具名的悲傷

作詞：管啟源
作曲：林倛玉

我沒有比 其他人強悍
這沒有什麼好隱瞞
淚水和你一樣燙 也會有心慌
只是不代表我要對人講

工作很忙 沒有誰不忙
我在工作之間流浪
剩下的未標示的時光 就像一個空罐
找不到任何事情 可以填滿

有一種情緒是不具名的悲傷
跟我愛不到的那人彷彿無關
只有回憶發出的悶響
越聽越覺遺憾
我可不可以什麼都不想

這是你留給我不具名的悲傷
我甚至說不出痛在哪個地方
愛不費一顆子彈 靈魂卻洞穿
我投降 能不能把記憶關上

工作很忙 沒有誰不忙
我在工作之間流浪
剩下的未標示的時光 就像一個空罐
找不到任何事情 可以填滿

有一種情緒是不具名的悲傷
跟我愛不到的那人彷彿無關
只有回憶發出的悶響
越聽越覺遺憾
我可不可以什麼都不想

這是你留給我不具名的悲傷
我甚至說不出痛在哪個地方
愛不費一顆子彈 靈魂卻洞穿
我投降 能不能把記憶關上

越強烈的愛後勁越強
痛一直延長 在往後的每個夜晚
我以為時間是最好的偏方
治好的全都只是皮外傷

我的不具名的悲傷
跟我愛不到的那人彷彿無關
只有回憶發出的悶響
越聽越覺遺憾
我可不可以什麼都不想

這是你留給我不具名的悲傷
我甚至說不出痛在哪個地方
愛不費一顆子彈 靈魂卻洞穿
我投降 能不能把記憶關上

Recently I just bought a Alienware M14X laptop!
Ahhh.. borrowed money from parents to buy it.
Have to work even when school starts but haven even find job yet!
Went for cotton on interview and everything seems fine but they didnt call me ):

Hai alot of my seniors say its really very hard for anyone to really work part time.
I was even thinking of joining dance club.... -.-
LOL see how ba!
Tmr going down to SP for my Sports camp meeting ~
Then bring my lappy down to see if theres any free slots for configuration (:
Then dont have to keep traveling down le!