long time since i blogged.

recently everything has not being smooth sailing for me. Met with alot of problems

one of it is her. I never know i will fall in love with her but she made me have so much to remember.
Trying to find distractinons to forget her.

Recently taking a break off from dance as i want to focus mroe on improving myself and spend more time with friends. Just very tired to go for practises haha

Today i had my biz finance ica. going to retake next year alr hahaha i skipped the whole section c shame on me!!

Just hope everything will be better and i will be a better person.

Next time i will look back to all these days when i messed up when i am successful.

RIP ENGLISh

hi, yesterday was the last day of foreign bodies production.
after 4-5 months of hardwork everything pays off.
Every week i had the thought of quitting production cos of the commitment and stuffs, but after these 2 days, i alr never regret joining it and was glad that i joined it (:

now that it ended, i feel so empty, it was so big and i am so small.

just feel very lonely and sort of like directionless even though there is dance synergy coming up next but its just so different.

i am really going to miss this journey. By the next production, i will probably be in NS :(

Sometimes you ask yourself, what did you do to deserve all these shit.
I dont deserve this. Why do disappointment strikes me like mad.
I have been losing people. Close ones, im almost alone now.
So close.
Anyone wanna leave can leave now

Have you ever experience heart break so bad you have to alight the train so people wont see you crying?

Why does ti feel so fking painful on my chest
Now i know why people call it heartache, cos it hurt just right there, on that spot.
I dont want to have to bring that up for you to message or even reply me. Or even come and meet me.
Cos it jsut hurts.
Threaten you then you come down? What a joke.
Then suddenly you seem to care so much for me.
For once i suddnely forgot how much you 'care' for me after i brought up that thing to you to make you come down,
Life is a joke, im a loser. I lost the game.
For once i thought i never have to be alone anymore and this shit comes up.
At this period of time, it jsut sucks big time.
I really really have no idea how to get back on my feet this time. Guide me please?

Finally blogged ~
SO bored
Rcently life is filled with projectsd and test but im jsut so lazy ~
Tmr got award ceremony to take my bursary and then to NYP for fbodz passing down parade ~

Abit tired but ya will go ~

bursary finally came and i will be 2k richer soon hehe ~

I miss you. I wished you were mine.
Another false alarm. I'm used to this i will get over this just like the other previous times. But how...

21 June 2014

Today is the last of the Fbodz camp ~
Last year, I was still like a junior, everything pass by so fast.
Alot of things happen thruout this journey but I had overcome them and had changed in a certain way for the better. the most mrmoerable part of the camp is when i have to dress up as  a ghost for night walk. Was afraid that i might look boring or not scary but in the end the feedback i got back was pretty good so Im satisfied (: I went all out for the first few groups and by the time its the 5 group, im already tired and i kept getting the wig hair into my mouth XD

Had a great time bomnding with the juniors, my batch mates and senuors. Will never forget that day (:

And thanks my Group 5 Tadpole for being so cooperative and so high during the camp! Will never wish for a better grp!

Yo ~
Long time no blog already. Today just ended my first hip hop production prac with wei meng, can say its a killer. Alot of things i cant catch and alot of things to learn >.<
In the end learn alto of things but very tired.

Tmr is fbodz camp! First time as seniors hahaha
Quite excited tho, had yet to pack.
Gonig to sleep first and pack tmr. Ciao ~

Yayyy ~ tmr is club crawl finally!
Have been training for like 1 month and it have finally come down to this day.
Hope everything will turn out well tmr ~ jiayou jiayou

Alot of things going on lately, SDD, club crawl items, fmo dance and work. Have to manage time well. Being tired is unavoidable. But everything will be worth it, hopefully?

Always the last of the last, backup of the backup. Wonder how it feels like to be important and needed for once. I forgotten how it feels like...

The thing I worry about most is happening already. I am all alone now.

Things are falling apart.
I cant hold on anymore.

Self

Sometimes when you have problems, no one is there for you. When you need someone, no one is there for you. You only have you yourself to get yourself back on track. You have to think only for yourself. And then people asked why are you so self centered, some are too blind to see. 

The project

Theres a battle in nyp today " The project"

Today went to chronos prac after school. Damn freaking tiring please.....
Was really damn tired almost going to faint. But performance is just 2 weeks time. We completed all the moves today already and we can focus on the small details and clean up.

Just feel really tired. I shouldtn really find all these things to make myself so busy. Exams is near and plus now, I am worknig and i have to juggle everything. I also want to focus on my studies ~.~


Prevention is better than recovery.

Ohya I had my birthday last week and it was great ! ^^ Both my classmates and fbodz matees celebrated for me~ Many thanks to my classmates for getting the cake and on the other side; carine, ahza and joanne for planning the surprise thing.

My wish for my 20th birthday is to be more matured and have a clearer path of what I want to do or be in the future. Being happy is also important (Y) 

"Try to imagine a life without timekeeping.

You probably can’t. You know the month, the year, the day of the week. There is a clock on your  car. You have a schedule, a calendar, a time for dinner or a movie.

Yet all around you, timekeeping is ignored. Birds are not late. A dog does not check its watch. Deer do not fret over passing birthdays.

Man alone measures time.

Man alone chimes the hour.

And, because of this, man alone suffers a paralyzing fear that no other creature endures.

A fear of time running out."

Been reading "The time keeper" by Mitch Albom. Really find his books very meaningful and I thought if i wanna start reading any books, i will start from his. 

This few days have been rough, it will get rougher when all the exams and work kicks in, I probably wont be able to handle it as now, even without all those shit I am barely hanging on.

It's like i tried so hard and Im not even one of them.
I have sarcfised so much and now im tired. What am i? In the end I am jsut wasting my life away.

Been pretty busy but surprisingly I have still got many few time. Gotta use my time wisely.  Study plus dance and work now. Got to work harder even though it will be tiring but everything will be worth it.

I really want to dance and improve. It seems now I have lesser time to dance because I need to work and study. I really wanna join SDD. I just want to improve amd show people I can do it. I just dont want to be left out of all these stuffs.

Yay ~ Ytd marks the last day of NYP Open House performance for Foreign bodies ~
It was a tiring and stress process but in the end it was all worth it!Looking at our performance video and feeling damn.............. we cool. Really missed all the pracs and the time we performed tgt as one
Looking forward to club crawl next!


SChool is reopening tmr, so dread going to school. Forgot almost most of the things alr~ time to get back on track ! 

Xmas

Heyyy ~ its been long since I blogged. Busy with open house prac for fbodz. Life is ok so far but still contented. Went to joanna house on the 23th for a small xmas gathering

Been trying too hard for dance. Always feel as though I am not good enough,  like I am nothing in fbodz. I wanna be something.  But I am tired.

If you want something in your life you never had, you’ll have to do something you have never done.

Recent

YOYOYO ~

Its been log since i blogged.
My life is pretty good lately and i can say i am really happy with my life now.
Just had a lunchtime performance with my fbodz mate at teck ghee cc and pm lee hsien lnog is there ~
Did quite badly but overall experience is good. Zowell helped me to put on some makeup and she made me damn chio LOL

Movie

Had an amazing impromptu movie date with sam . We watched Carrie and it was pretty terrible ~.~  overall it was fun ~

Je 2

Foreign bodies junior exam 2 is finally over! Damn happy haha. Hopefully I will have more freee time to myself to work :( and relax :)
It was a tough time doing all the je 2 stuffs. But overall it was memorable and nice experience. Learned alot and know what im weak at.

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Having junior exam 2 for foreign bodies soon. Damn busy sia. My work is interrupted thanks to the prac. Performance is also coming up soon and there will be more prac then usual :( really damn.... thanks to je 2 I have to compromise our kpop competition and alot of stuffs also... damn.

:(

No more kpop dance competition.
... feel so .... cheated. Everything is already decided and they made me excited like a kid. Ive always been looking forward to this. Just one simple message could just end everything. Maybe then its my fault, for not choosing the correct person. Then maybe its my fault, for not knowing more people who are into kpop amd join our group. Then maybe its my fault, to think of this stupid idea of forming a kpop dance group for competition.  I am so fucking dumb. Every thing is my fault. Everything around me is falling apart. The same old stuffs. Friends, relationship everything. I always question myself why ive got no true friends? Am I really that bad? I keep finding faults in me because its not only the first time. Its my fault right? I am not a really good friend. Hard person to communicate with. I really just want a really good friend who I can trust. I am always on my bed. Hi-bye friends. Backstabbers. Whats new. I am such a failure.

Foreign bodies prac 29/8

Today we learned some new techniques for prac. Improved on my isolation and realised how long I have not done iso. And also alot of basics are missed out too. Was so bloody tired but its ok ~ get to know my junior exam 2 group mates and they are bowen, asleah, zowell,  si pei and yosh! I really like this grouping becos i want to work with people I dont know very well! New spark might be born haha.

First day of work

First day of work at the sushi bar in FEP. It was veey tiring as they are really short of manpower. When customers ask me things regarding the sushi I really got no idea how tk answer hahaa. It was a daily paid job. I recieve my money as the end of the work ^^

Last paper last day of exams

Yoooo today is the last day of exams which is the pom paper!! ^^ it was a disaster ~.~ fufillingoooo also didn't study and what's over is over alr...time to look forward to the holidays and work even harder to improve myself. Look better and hopefully financially stronger too. I also wanna gain weight till 70kg and become very buff ^^
This holiday will be a improvement holiday for me. Better lifestyle and more self esteem. But first I will need to work and get money first haha.

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So after the POM exams we had a surprise belated birthday for gilson ^^

c

After that we went to eat at poppeye and went to play pool ^^ it was a very fun and fufilling

Day as i laughed and joke alot haha. Nice day to end off the exam week. 

Microecons final ica

Damn I am fked for tmr microecons paper... all the terms is not getting into my head. Last min work again. .. so many things to rmb. Stats was easy and I also revised last min. Poa today was pretty nerve wreaking, quite tricky, hope I get pretty good marks. Microecons tmr, zero confident. ..hai

Stats ica 2

Damnnn I haven really completed studying for statistic. .. really hope I can at least get a b+! So I placed my stats notes under my pillow hoping for thw better ^^ nights!

'Spring' cleaning

So today will be the day I am clearing my secondary scholl stuffs. Loads of memories. Rmember I always dread doing filing as I will alqays have one or two worksheets missing lol. Then some subjects even require us to put divider and arrange them according to date/ test/revision/ etc. Will be keeping some worksheets for memories!

Today is the last day of the semester. Time to reflect what I have done and could have done better. First, I shouldn't keep worrying about how others think of me. Damn I am always tired and falling during lectures. I must hav enough rest and try to go school earlier so I wont miss lectures.
Thats all I can think of haha.

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 Damn today went to ask my ec for number.  Damn ps sia. Tio humiloated. Worst feeling ever in front of so many people. I feel so small... hai a day to rmb though. ..

There's always people talking bad about me. I treated them all so well and this is how they treat me. Tsk. Trust no one.

Preparing to go for TBG now! Excited!Cant wait to see my Foreign bodies friends! Still got projects undone and tests not studied ):

Hi, I am Zhe Hao now i will be sharing with you why foreign labour are necessary in singapore. There are four main reasons why foreign labour are necessary in Singapore and that is to strengthen our workforce, their attitude while working, to help companies to build up their business and to motivate Singaporeans to work harder.

Firstly, I will talk about how the foreign workers helped Singapore to strengthen our workforce. Singapore have been experiencing a decline of birth rate since the 80s and this caused a shortage in number of manpower resulting in the government bringing in more foreign labour for support. Foreign labour help to fill in on our shortage of manpower and solving labour shortage problems in some job industry like cleaning and construction work. The foreign workers have no troubles taking up all these jobs but Singaporeans wouldn't as they have a lot of ego and pride and they think these are the ‘low-class’ job.  They helped us to strengthen our workforce so as to make sure we don't fall behind other countries in terms of development.

With them filling up the shortage of manpower, it will definitely help Singapore to progress forward and support Singapore towards being a more developed country. If Singapore become more developed, its economy will improve and it will eventually benefit most Singaporeans at some point. Despite all that, Singaporeans does not really appreciate what the government is trying to do and instead, they complain about it.  

The arrival of foreign labour to Singapore might be disliked by many singaporeans but we cannot deny that foreign labour had contributed a lot to help singapore in it’s development, without them, Singapore won't be where it is now.

Secondly, foreign workers are very hardworking and motivated.This can be due to the fact that they have come all the way from their hometown to Singapore hoping to get  better job with a better income to send money back to their family at their hometown.If they doesn’t work hard, then their trip to Singapore will in vain. This attracts employers to hire them as they have a goal, people with goal are usually more motivated.

Thirdly, companies who just started operating can consider hiring foreign workers as they are paid much lesser than Singaporeans. Companies or business that are just starting out might not have a lot of capital so they can reach out to foreign workers. Moreover, foreign workers don't mind low income this is because, compared to the income they are earning back at their hometown, it is still much higher to be working in Singapore. With the company paying out lesser salaries to their workers, they will incur lesser expenses and generate more profit for the business, who wouldn't want that?

Furthermore, singapore has a declining birth rate. In other words, there would not be enough manpower to support the country in the future.As such the Governement tried to entice these foreign workers to  come here and work.Should the living and work conditions be satisfying to them,they might decide to stay in Singapore and build a family.This will then help to contribute to the population in Singapore.

Lastly, I feel that the increase in foreign workers helps to increase competition for Singaporeans.Foreign workers pose as a threat to Singaporeans as they are afraid they might lose their jobs to the foreign workers.As such,there is a need for Singaporeans to work harder.The increase competition will help to boost Singapore economy because Singaporeans are more motivated to work and to do well.

Overall, reasons why Singapore need foreign labour to be brought into Singapore, as they are essential to strengthen our workforce,  helps companies to build up their business,and to motivate Singaporeans to work harder.

Next, my friend Suriani will share with you the reason why foreign labour are not necessary needed in singapore.

Studies :(

Falling behind in studies. Projects piling up. Damn. Whyy alson whyyy. Did I nake the wrong decision to come back to study? I cant seem to focus and study anymore. Even though I did well for the first part of sem 1 but I dont think I can maintain.
Int and web quiz - 22/30
Poa presentation - A
Microecons - 28/30
Oral - B
So far its like that.
Need to really focus focus and FCOUS!
TAHAN one more month then can relax le!

Temp work at Kraze burger

ytd I went for a temp job at Kraze burger at MBS. Damn far right.
I was so nervous as recently i wasnt feeling very confident lol.
But overall the job was ok, it was very busy and can see that they really lack manpower!
thanks to my experience in Brewerkz, i was able to get it right away as brewerkz is alaways harder than any FNB job! Got 2 free meals there and the burgers is awesome! I ordered Chicken burger. The people there are great and i hope i will go back there to work again ~

Fbodz prac friday 5/7

Have been looking forward to this day for very long!

I got a new family in NYP and they are the Foreign Bodies! ^^ 

this is our fbodz camp group and we have slowly grown closer through prac and outings. We all have dance as common interest, will be looking forward to the first performance with them! ^^

Anyway Fbodz training was awesomeeeee ~

It was tiring and damn.

But i still enjoyed it.

A senior from the 8th batch jin wen came back to teach us some basics and also to do some splits! Haha, i couldnt even do shit man! But i will practise hard to do it! I am known as the hard man and I have failed my napfa sit and reach -.- will be breaking out of my comfort zone to do it!

Doing Internet and web webapge ICA project.

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recent

Been busy with work, dance and studies. Alot of projects coming up stress!
Haven even finish any of it. As a leader for all the projects; pom, econs and internet and web I feel so useless. I wish I can take more initiative to org meetings and finish it up asap.

Good things never happen, that's why I must work harder. So at the end of the day, at least I can tell myself I've tried my best.

Damn.

Sometimes I see a pretty girl looking at me, I will just shake it off. Thinking she might not be looking at me or I am just looking weird. I will never think anyone will be interested to even look at me.

Tough and tiring.
Having alot of projects coming up and I am trying my best not to wait till the last minute to do. Ive always trying my best, never giving up. But wished there was someone by myself cheering me on, not just me myself cheering mr up; encouraging myself.  Its so tiring. Wished I wasnt alone in the first place. Sigh..

Today went for SU Camp!
Was ok la, abit boring.
Sarcfise my assignment time for it ): zzz

What comes easy, won't last. What lasts, won't come easy.

Yo
it is going to be the mid term already! Time flies!
Not being able to cope with studies haha ^^
But at least I am stll holidng on
Having troubles to study lately, cant seem to focus and got no motivation
AND BY THE WAY, I GOT INTO FOREIGN BODIES!
WOO HOO
I went for the second audition and mentioned to get in tgt with my classmate Lala!
Was so happy ^^
Looking forward to the next foeign bodies practise!

Hi waddup life.
It's being long since i updated my blog.
Everything have being a roller coaster ride so far.
Dont even know what im doing.
I've got my second chance here right at my hand but I am just wasting it away.
Feel so lazy to even start on my work and projects. On top of that I dont even understand most of the stuffs taught. Always leave work till last minute to be done and staying up late and eventually feeling very tired the next day and cant focus in class.
Damnnnn.
I need a change meh.

Went for foreign bodies dance audition today. Waited for like  5 hours til its my turn. Feelinghhungry amd tired I screwed up my audition fking badly. I just stood there my mind went blank. I was so dishearten. I couldn't believe history repeated itself again...
What the fk is wromg with me.why am I not up to challenge. It was something I believed I was good at...now im good at nothing. Feeling damm fk up. Practised for like 2-3 hours till I am fuckkng drained. Could have gone home to work on my oral presentation. Judt feel real damn fk up. It have always been lkke this. I always screw up. Why...dance is my life.
My drive in life seems to be gone.

Sometimes I wish I was from a more well-off family.
Myabe I dont have to work as hard and enojy life more.
Why do I work so hard..
I am so tired, I dont think i can take it anymore. I am my own pillar of strength but I can hold on anymore.

yesterday was the first day of nyp orientation. it qas not bad.  just very hot lol. the classmates were fine too. going tk sleep early now damm tired.

Hi ~
Going to sleep soon tmr morning working morning shift again ~.~
Had thoughts of quitting Rubi but it seems too many people are quitting so I thoguht maybe i should hold it off? At least do them a favour.
Because I thought I wouldnt like the new SM but in the end, shes not that bad! At least better than Angela, at least she wont scold people for no reason. And I just thought, maybe i might just want to continue working there? Hah.
Have been working extra hard to earn money, hopefully in a few months time, I will get all my wants and still be able to payback my parents.
Excited for school to start, cant wait to know more people (girls). Hopefully I wont waste this chance again.
And today i just redyed my hair (: It was then I realised my back hair wasnt bleached properly (after many months) so the purple wont stick to my hair that well and doesnt stand out. Overall the purple tone varies all over my hair lol.
#randomthoughts.

Very tiring handling private matters.. hoping everything will end soon.

Very excited for school to start! Thats when i can get to know more friends and my new life begins!
Even though NYP is like not a v happening school but it gave me a second chance. I will never waste this chance again...
I will work hard to get good grades and be a better person (:

Something big happened today.
Got to leave chalet abruptly.
Didnt know everything would escalate so fast.
I will protect my family no matter what.
I wont let my mistake affect them.

People who are truly strong is always laughing when whey want to cry. They endure all of the pain and sorrow while laughing with everybody else.

 

Hi ~
I just got a letter saying i got into NYP 1 week ago >.<
I was so damn happy ~
I got into Business management!

Hi all ~ Just got a new job in Clarke Quay DYO! Deisgn Your Own! It's like a custom t shirt design shop and most importantly, its daily pay! So shiok sia. Took up this job because i am short of money. But still working at rubi though. Work is pretty simple, sit down there and use the machine and quite relax also, not like rubi cant use phone or what. Working at Clarke reminds me of my Brewerkz tough days /: Now when i think back its actually quite fufilling. Walked past the restaurant and saw some familiar faces, Bruce, Lotus, Pok and Bryan. But sadly none of them rmb me and they act very hard to act as though they rmb me lol. Hmmm these few days had been rough, but tough tie will pass tough man will last! JIA YOU ZHE HAO!

HAPPY NEW YEAR ~~ Yeserday went to rich's house for cny. Met Shamir, Vinesh and norres to go. there's alot of people at rich house sia. Damn happening LOL At first went to his room to play ps3 thn went out to play Blackjack with his friends. Lost all the way from the beginning till the end. Damn suey sia. Then in the end i stopped playing le. It was fun overall, his parents realyl knows how to entertain guests and were very friendly (: The rest of my cny i spent mostly sleeping LOL.

Jan 18 2013 Went out with my Rubi friends for supper and they surprised me with a cake! Didnt expect it thou. Really grateful for them! Thought nobody was going to celebrate with me. Then a few days later NEST have a outing and we went out with everyone bringing one food of theirs and we met at Woodlands waterfront. Had fun and catchup session with them. It's been so long since we had seen each other.

2012-2013 summary ~

Hello ~ Long time no blog le! alot of things i wanna blog about but I am so lazy ;p Firstly i want to talk about my deferment. Was happy that i was deferred from NS. Now I must realyl choose the course i want carefully. The admission of DAE starts already but I still haven research on the course i want even though i have a few on my mind. I am just scare that i might choose the wrong course again and just escaping. I didnt want to choose one so fast, but if i dont do it in time, I will have to go NS ): Not even sure if I am able to get into the course i want also though. For the past few months i spent most of my time at Rubi. After quitting school i joined Rubi and have worked there since then. I learned alot there and get to know many friends (: I become a better and funnier person through working there. I become more open and more confident to talk to people, really grateful for my friends over there (: Yesterday was my birthday, didnt celebrate it cos i dont have any plans ): Was quite sad though. I spent my birthday at Rubi working as i dont want to stay at home and do nothing. At least i can keep myself busy and stop myself from thinking so much. Ya! And I dyed my hair slightly blond! Was really not used to it and when i go out people will keep staring.. ( cos its just so nice ) (: HAHA was really happy that my life is becoming better. Hope life doesnt come back and kick me in the ass! After dying blond, i will dye white and i will stay white awhile and then i will dye red (: I was abit hesitant about dying red as I scare it wont be nice >.< But i thought I only live and is only young once, why not try something new and daring? (Not YOLO) just got to be at your best at any given time so there will be no regrets and live life to the fullest. Only we ourselves can make us happy. Dont depend your happiness on someone else.

Got a job at NCS, a admin job. Have been working there for 1 month already. This coming week will be my last. Abit dont bear to leave my friends as i will stop working there as I got my enlistment letter from NS. Dec 13 2012. Abit sudden la. Everything haven prepare yet and they only send me the letter one month in advnace. So I am leaving the job. I called and replied them to ask for deferment and they said they will help me to request for a short deferment till i got in to a school. Till now they still haven reply me and its only 2-3 weeks left to enlistment date. So worry. Cant live each day without worrying. its like 50/50 chances of deferring. Yaya! And i saw his girl worknig at NCS who really look like taeyeon! OMG LOL. Now everytime i saw her i will keep staring at her. I think she and her friends will think i am some sort of psycho or something LOL. Ya the next week is the last week i can see her then i gotta leave le! IF. IF i really enter NS. I wish all my friends who are currently reading this all the best for their life and dont miss me! Hahaha if theres any? LOL Hmm.. 2 years is not short. I have certainly made a few bad decisions in life which really brought my life to the bottomless pit. Without anyone beside me or anyone there for me, I think this is the best result I can produce by myself. Cheering myself on, pulling myself up when I'm down, crying in the middle of the night till i sleep (lol) ya and countless time of comforting myself. Since the day I left school I felt so lost. But I have made many friends in rubi and from NCS. I have learned many things and this is what made this period liveable. And for that, even if my deferment fails, this doesnt mean my life is over. I am still young, I will never stop kicking till I'm dead.

"In another life, you can be my girl"

"...after the movies ended, Eric accompanied Jane home. Throughout the journey, they talked about life and joked around whenever possible, people who doesn't know them will think they are a couple. There's nothing which they won't talk about and nothing they won't share. Upon reaching Jane's stop, they alighted and walked through the walkway with the light breeze blowing by. Then it was all quiet. The mood became very serious with a mix of awkwardness as they have nothing else to talk about anymore. Walking as slowly as possible as they are departing soon, not wanting the moment to end so fast. As Eric walked Jane to her block, she broke the silence. As it was late, Jane didn't want Eric to walk her all the way so she asked Eric to send her till where they are. Both of them still not willing to leave. "Ok bye! See you next time" Eric started off and turned his body about to leave, but he stopped suddenly.
"Hey Jane!"
"Hmm yes?"
"There's something I want to ask you"
Jane stood there rooted waiting for Eric to say what he wanted to say as Eric was very shy and uncertain whether he should say it.
"Hmm, just wanna ask..."
"What?! Hurry up its late! Say what you gonna say! You gotta catch the last bus, you have work tomorrow!"
"It's nothing actually, see you next time!"
"Alright"
Jane turned and walked away.
Then she turned her head to make sure Eric had safely crossed the streets to the bus stop.
Eric stood across the road staring at Jane and shouted.
"If you don't have a boyfriend, will you be with me?!"
Jane was astonished. Eric wasn't waiting for an answer. He just always wanted to ask that question for a long time but he didn't want to be a third party and spoil the relationship of Jane and her boyfriend.
After shouting, Eric turned and walked away with his heads down.
"Yes!!" Jane suddenly exclaimed at the top of her lungs.
" I hope I can spend the rest of my life with you!"
Eric couldn't believe what he heard and he ran straight missing the bus stop. He was just sprinting straight as he couldn't believe it. Tears came flowing down non stop. It was too good to be truth. But, it is the end.

"If you want to get to the next level, you're going to have to go out there and a guy's guarding you in practice, you're going to have to punish him and send him a message. Make the guy who's guarding him think about if he wants to play in the NBA anymore." - Kobe Bryant

8/10/12 Went to watch "Possession" with Jasmine at Cineleisure ~ So boring one LOL Then after the show we walked around and shopped. We walked from Somerset to Orchard Far East and Jasmine had some tied hair highlights on her hair! She really liked it (: I sort of 'lend' her the money to do it but hell I am not going to ask her back for the money LOL. Just take it as a treat from me ya (: Then we suddenly have the intention to take a random bus and go to a random location LOL. So I suggested we head to Somerset's bustop to take it as a lot of buses passes by there. So we walked there and suddenly decide to jsut take 171 back home. After we arrived at Somerset we realised there was no 171 there -.- SO, we walked back to Orchard again. LOL Its like Somerset>Ochard>Somerset>Orchard. LOL After we boarded the bus, we were damn tired >.< Then we had some h2h talk about life and stuffs. After a long close to 2 hours ride, we are finally back in yishun and we went to have dinner! dinner was good just that i waited very long and very pekcek /: Shared dinner with Jas and then after that we went home ~ Tiring but fun day for me (: I asked her out cos she seemed abit sad la. Hope she had fun (:

I am just someone looking for some love. Didn't it to turn out this way though. So lonely ya know?

Ytd got a weird dream.
Dreamed of the end of the world and someone predicted it.
All of us were hopeless and just stood there waiting for the countdown to the end of the world. But it's damn saddening sia. The loss of hope and surrendering to fate. No one was fighting.

Okay tonight spam post LOL. I want to stop being so emo. Actually i am less emo thesedays. I asked myself will this thing that currently affects me today matter in the future? Why dont we just have fun but YET make something good out of your life. You only ahve one life, do you wanna live a life of regrets or with awesome memories that when you're old, you will have something to smile or laugh at when you reminiscent the past? Girls? Love? Loneliness? Nah. Actually nowadays i prefer to be alone. The feeling of independence and freedom is awesome. You can do whatever you like, whatever you want. Girls? Love? - We should just let nature take its course. I want to improve more on myslef before i go into a relationship or something. If you're not confident of yourself, how could you keep your another half? IF you dont love yourself, how do you expect others to love you?

G DRAGON new mv is out ~ CRAYONS ~ GO GET YOUR CRAYONS ~ haha very catchy but i dont really like this song. I prefer his "This XX". This song's lyrics is very right-at-the-heart. Not forgetting he compose all of his own songs. English translation: I happened to see your man while walking [Yea I saw him] It seems my assumptions were right [I told you] Without the ring you gave him and with his arm linked... I'll just tell you this much [I don't wanna hurt you] But you for some reason get mad at me [Why?] You say there's no way he would do that [Sure, you're right] I notice how you look and say I must have seen someone else Yeah, I'll lie for you [I'm sorry] Oh, I hate that you don't understand me I don't like waiting so let go When you're sad I feel like dying, baby What does that xx (=bastard/son of b**ch/motherf***er) have that I don't Why in the world can't I have you That xx doesn't love you How much longer are you just gonna cry stupidly You look happy when you talk about that person [You look happy] it looks good to see you laughing like this [I'm happy] You say you really love him You believe that it will last forever [I don't know what to say no more] Your friends all know him well [yup, they know] Why are you the only one who can't see when it's so obvious? [It's you] They say love is blind. Oh, baby you're so blind I'll keep hoping that you two will separate Oh, I hate that you don't understand me I don't like waiting so let go When you're sad I feel like dying, baby What does that xx have that I don't Why in the world can't I have you That xx doesn't love you How much longer are you just gonna cry stupidly You fit with expensive cars pretty clothes luxurious restaurants But that xx isn't for you, he doesn't fit He has a fake smile in front of you while touching your cheek and hair Inside for sure, he's thinking of a different girl. How could he do this, it's a sin! I'll treat you better for all of the tears you've dropped, baby Can you share your pain with me that you've experienced alone, baby Just look at me, why don't you know that I'm your love why are you the only one who doesn't know? What does that xx have that I don't Why in the world can't I have you That xx doesn't love you How much longer are you just gonna cry stupidly What does that xx have that I don't Why in the world can't I have you That xx doesn't love you How much longer are you just gonna cry stupidly GD is so creative and he is my role model hahaa

Yesterday went to give weicai a surprise for his birthday ~ He was really surprised to see us hahahaha ~ Ok la not bad, everything went as planned/ Then i smashed the cake on to hsi face LOL Then after that went to Chomp Chomp to makan makan! My first time going to that place leh. Not bad la, yuying as the professional eater lead me and weitao to bu all the food. Bought many food :D Nice catching up, and joked around ~ AFter that went to slack at a random shopping mall around Chomp Chomp. Took many pictures and had loads of fun :) Hope we can have more of this catching up session :D

Went to repair phone ytd. When i reached Ang mo kio, i realised i didnt bring my spoilt phone, (for the second time) so i decided to go home and take it. LOL wasted like 1 hour going back and forth. Upon reaching that place, i was lost >.< I couldnt find the place and it rained ): Was fully drenched and I was under the rain for around 1 hour >.< My phone de GPS got problem and it made me walked arpund the whole area twice ! Was damn irritated and I decided to ask people for direction and I reached the place around 15 minutes. Fixed my phone's LCD for $80 dollars (: Will be using my 3GS until IPhone 5 comes out and my contract ends! Quite looking forward to iphone 5 After that went bugis street to shop for clothes. At first i only want to buy 2 shirts and 1 cardigan but in the end i ended up buying 11 shirts, 1 pair of shoes, 3 cardigans, 1 coat and 2 hats and spent around $500 ..... I really need to control my spendings... Have to call NS for deferment. Hmm if not they wil enlist me soon. I want to go back to poly to study first...

31 August Went back to school for teachers day celebration. It's good to see my friends after such a long time I miss the teachers too too bad they dont recognise us. But it was fun ~ Catch up with friends and took many pictures. After that went to Food court to eat with friends then follow by a movie session with Karin ! We watched Step Up Revolution and it was damn nice ~~~ Inspired to do a flashmob hahaha! Actually i got work one, I skipped it due to all the fun and also because i have camp later on. After watching movie i chiong to get my mc and then go to yishun mrt to meet junhao, raynor, ryan and thiamhock. 31 August - 2 Sep Reached Ngee Ann poly around 730pm. Then settled down and listened to the briefing from 7-11pm then proceed to making dummies for the activity. Didnt sleep much cos the table were too damn hard and the air con were too damn cold. tbc going work now ~ then we played running man and stuff during the camp, even though it was tiring but it was damn fun (: I miss Ngee Ann poly now >.<

24 august

Woo ~ today is a very happy and awesome day for me! ^^ Today after work went to eat with Jerlyn and a random shopping trip at far east! Very happy ^^ Joked and chit chat ~ After that I sent her home to Sembawang! :D

Ok, i found out she got a boyfriebd. Fucking fail dia zhebao.. good job for treating her so well. I couldnt take it. Seriously. I dont want to accept it. Shes the first girl i ever treat so well and got a response and thos thibgs i did with her and she say she have a gf... i am such a joke...... i wanna fk myself. I was so happy with her, i want her so bad, her boyfriebd is so lucky to have her.. shes esomso cute and awesome.. momment with her is awmse and haopy. i wont forget it

Monday, August 20, 2012 - Although you have relationship issues on your mind, they're just a distraction from the real dilemma at hand. Your more immediate concern is about your career path; decisions need to be made that can have long-lasting ramifications. Ironically, your current choices have a significant impact on a partner or spouse. Luckily, your emotions settle down later in the day, revealing a clear path to your goal. Patience, combined with hard work, leads you to your desired destination. This is my horoscope for the day ~ I think its quite accurate lol Hmm... It's 5.55am now, going to sleep soon to wake up for work at 2pm!

Hi! So long never blog le! Recently I injured my left leg ): My dumbbell dropped from the bed and crashed onto my leg and it was swollen immediately. I saw that there was blood on my leg but there was no cuts and I later found out from the doctor that my arteries/veins burst lol. Sounds so scary. I have to thank my right leg for carrying the weights of my left leg (: Anyway this few days don't have enough sleep. Was into maple and legion. Plus some work. Recently I scrolled my Aran overswing 30 successfully! I bought it for 19m an I only left 10m! Have been searching for that skill book for very long >.< Anyway this few days haven being sleeping well. I missed jerlyn lol. I got a feeling it's another one sides again cos no girls will like the likes of me /: and I have already accepte the fact .. That time when I called bak to rubi to ask bout my scedule, she picked up. It's so good to hear her voice after so long. Lol, I dunno what she think about me though. Hai. Love sucks. So it's being like 3 weeks since I last seen her cos she's not working. The next time I will see her is on aug 10! Looking forward to that day (: My face have become worst recently /: I wanna stop myself from doing what the cause but I couldn't suppress it /: it wa too overwhelming... I need someone to help me. Hai. I keep forgetting to remind myself how much days I have left become I enter army and my life will become more sucky. I have to really appreciate the times I have now. So today I went to national heart centre. Took like 30 minutes to find that place /: the nurse all damn Chio lol! Ok anyway I will get to know the result of my heart test by next week! Cya ! Tmr have to wake up at 6am and its alr am left 3 hrs to wake up for work... Sian gtg

Hahaha today I am dammmm happy :D So heres the story. 2 weeks ago i sold my precious alienware laptop to this guy online. I told him my laptop specs and everything and he agreed to buy my laptop. After I met him hes real nice and stuff but he said because I dont have the receipt for the laptop he only pay $900 first and after i found the receipt, I contact him and pass him the receipt and he will pass me the remainding $200. Since he look so nice and kind, I accepted his offer and he only paid me $900 and I receive the money and leaving home happily. After I reached home, I immediately went to look for the receipt, within minutes, I found it. The next morning I contacted him to tell him that I have found the receipt and asked him when he want to meet me to pass me the $200. He took a long time to reply. After a while, he replied saying that my laptop processor is a older version i5 procssor and said that $900 for that laptop is too ex and refuse to pay for the remainding $200 and wanted to refund. I told him I had already spent most of the $900 as I need to return some of the money to my mother. And he repiled "LOL" I immedaitely shoot back at him saying this is not a joke. He had agreed to deal after i told him the version of my procssor beforehand and now he wants to change his words. I told him that I had told him the version of my procssor and he agree to it now hes trying to change his words then he replied "hmm do you have the message to prove?" I told him i had screenshot the message and can show him. tbc i go sleep.

Yoyo ~ Yesterday had a awesome dream! I dreamed that I am someone like a Iron man but also with the ability of spiderman! LOL Then throughout the story, I drank something poisonous and it damaged my body so the doctor have to implant some mechanic stuff into my body but I am only left with 9 hours to live. ( Even though the story doesnt make sense but I am jsut typing out all that i can remember) Then after that I ended up in some shopping mall, wandering around and that was when I found out i can shoot spider webs out of my hands ! >.< Then I swing around the shopping mall and enjoying my last 9 hours on Earth. Then suddenly I saw one of my close friend; a girl, crying at a corner. I cant leave her alone as she seems shes going to do something silly as shes at the top level of the shopping mall; i was afraid she might do something stupid. So I approached her and talk to her and realised her boyfriend had just broke up with her. Knowing that, I tried all means to console her to calm her down. After awhile, she said she will be fine and told me to leave her alone as she need some time to be by herself. I agreed and left. Still worrrying for her, I hid somewhere watch her to make sure shes alright already. To my surprise, I saw her climbing over the railing trying to jump down from the top floor. I was shocked and I froze upon my position. In a split second, she was falling down from the top floor. Then I suddenly shoot web across the building and swing towards her and grabbed her. LOL so dramatic. then all the shoppers below were all staring at me as I slowly ascend to the first floor dropping her on the floor. All the shoppers around me cheered for me as though I am a hero, that feeling was awesme, but before I know it, I felt as though my body was suddenly paralysed. I stood there, trying to comprehend what was going on. It was the poison, it took over my body faster than the doctor had thought to be 9 hours. I started to wobble around, trying to find something to grab. Suddnely some unknown guy appeared behind me, supporting me but I coudlnt help but fell to the ground. I kept trying to stand up but my head were shakey and I couldnt stablise myself, the last glimpse I caught before I deactiviated was the scene of passer-by cheering for me. I died in honour. LOL okok the above story is what i feel during the dream, its still quite strong in my brain as i can remember most of the content.

Lol, i know no one is reading my blog alr. its not like i can interest anyone in my life story lol. So im just blogging down my present events for future purposes (: i want to look back and tell myself that my life have been become better and im no longer alone (:

Yoyo~ todays as per normal. Tmr going to meet the scammer who scammed my $200. So stress sia. I dunno why im afraid i am not even in the wrong.. I used my another number to cheat him into meetinge as he didnt answer my call or reply my messages. I am definitely getting back my money no matter what. Its my hard earn money no one has the right to take it. Many of my friends are going to quit school. Two of them changing course next year one going back to kl to study. I somehow think its my fault. I thought i shouldnt openly post on fb that i quitted school. it opens up options of other ppl who saw my post and think its ok to quit school? Im not saying like as though im a role model or what but as a friend, i feel i really did something wrong there. I just feel wrong and guilty ):

Past, present, future.

After viewing my photos on facebook, i dunno why but i just fel extremely happy that i have those memories! (: I feel like i should appreciate life more and not stay sad all the time. i stil have alot of things i wanna do and my life cant just end here. i am proceeding to the next phrase of life and shouldnt keep regretting things which i would have done. As i look back to my past pictures, most of the pictures remind me of time when i was not confident of myself because of those acne and stuff and i always think back and told myself "i could have done that..if only i was abit more confident" it really sucks to have to think of that all the time. I dont want to have this thinking anymore. I have a dream that i always wanted to pursuit,i mustnt let go of it. All these suddenly came to me and i just wanna blog all these event down for the future me to read. Imagine 10 or 20 years later i will still see this post. lol. HI to my future self,if you are still alive and kicking! I knkw now you are definitely living your dream! Even though its really tiring and you are busy all the time but i still wanna remind you dont forget the friends who helped you and encouraged you so you can get to where you are now. Dont neglect your family because they have tolerate you and nurture you, without them, you wont be able to pursue your dreams! Zhehao, continue living hiur dream and live the most out of your life, even though you might feel linely at times but remember those people supporting you behind your back and you have me, the 18 years old me supporting you! FIGHTING ! ^^ Signing off, 10 years ago me. Zhe hao

It's late in the night, wanted to sleep but in the end i went to view my past pictures on facebook and alot of memories started to come back to me :)
It's so awesome a picture can remind me of so many things.
Those were the times, I wished i could have been more fun of a person and would be more confident and do what i want to do.

Missed those immatured days of having fun.

Am feeling sad.
Joyce is going to leave the house soon...
My parents are going to miss her after taking care of her for 1 year plus.
After that, I will be leaving for NS.
They will be all alone soon /:
After that. i will be working and probably spend very little time at home.
Or maybe work overseas ( one of my dream )
Then they will be all alone.
I dont wanna go NS, i feel that i am wasting my youth on NS.
I can use it to do more stuffs.

Now that i have made the decision to quit school and go NS, I am putting a very huge bet on my future. I am still uncertain about what to do. I must decide as soon as possible if not it will be wasted again but i am feeling very lost. It's like im just spending everyday as it is. If i go on like this, it wont turn out good... NS............ hai
My youth is bring burned away.


No one owe you happiness,you have to fight for it.

 

Went to Sentosa today with friends !

Very fun ah! The weather not very good though ): It rained in the end.

It may going to be a long time till the next time i am meeting them? not sure though /:

And the rest of my friends too.

 

I saw Her !! Thats so many things on my mind when I saw her. But. She will just think I am weird, like im a pervertic stalker stalking her but im not. But its my fault anyway, any normal human beings will think I am from all those messages I have sent her... I thought she still have feelings for me when last year i saw her at the Yishun CC study room and I caught glimpse of her staring at me. I guess it was all one-sided, i was thinkign too much. How could she be staring at me? HAHHAHA joke. It's only me giving myself false feeling and hope. She dont feel that way i do for her. AND why do I feel something for her after so long? I still dont get it. Why cant i move on? Wanted to talk to her when we alighted the bus. At least as a friend; but i guess we are not even friends in the first place. Stupid sia.. But...its as though something was stuck in my throat. I just wanna say hi thats all /: Then she walked away very quickly, maybe shes afraid i might stalk her since she stay near to me LOL. And my stupid dumbbell is so heavy >.< It's all freaking one sided. I dont feel anything for her already. Really. It's jsut that whenever i see her, my heart will pump very fast and my hands will shake and i become very nervous. But I really dont like her anymore. Cos its jsut awkward. I am jsut a stupid pervertic stalker for her. And personally I am disgust by myself. So I must stop it. I never know her and she never know me.

Yoyo ~ I cant sleep !! Ahhhh ~ SO many things on my mind /: Its like a chain of thoughts one leading to another. I hate it when alot of things come to my mind, mostly worries. Frankly speaking I do think that i worry too much on alot of things. Either small or big matters, i worry alot. Something, worrying leads to over-thinking and over-thinking will lead to emo-ing. LOL I want to worry less and just take things as it is. Worrying doesnt change anything. I want to be more positive and happy as I believe as long as i stay positive, things around me will turn out well! When i entered Secondary school, I became more negative as I was very realistic and doesnt want to give myself false hope so i always expect the worst in everything and sometimes i am misunderstood as being a pessimist. Reailty is cruel, staying positive is like lying to yourself and you expect things to turn out for the better. But when it doesnt, you will feel disappointed. So my whole secondary school life was a period of negativity, so things were never really going good for me. Most of the time i can remember is those emo times i have to go through by myself. In conclusion, worries wont go away if you worry.

I just cant stand loneliness I dont wanna to be alone. I have to have someone by myself. Someone whom i can care for, someone who belong to me, someone whom i can call mine. Sometimes when i see couple on the streets, i will feel very lonely. Arent we all the same, why cant we have the same thing? I just want to experience it once, it is so hard to ask for? Im just glad i have friends :) But im such a bastard. I had backstabbed friends, talked bad about them behind their back, and they still recognise me as their friends as they were ignornant of who i really am. I really regret. /:

Todays a normal day. Morning went to Tampines to my agency to hand in the form. I hate taking the 969 >.< Then coincidentally, i saw marie on the bus! At first i didnt notice until she messaged me! Soon after she arrived she fell asleep hahaha, shes still the same haven change! She sleep until damn unglam HAHAHAHA ! Ok after handing in the form i took 969 back agaim /: shag. then everything goes on as usual. Sian, today my sis husband coming over to take Joyce, my niece away and will be coming back on Sunday. /: Just now when they came to take her, she was crying like hell cos she doesnt want to leave. It really hurts me when i saw that, i just went back to my room immediately. Then after she left, my mother said she saw from the kitchen window down at the carpark, she saw him forcefully passing Joyce to his father's girlfriend and forced her to enter the car ): They didnt give birth to the child, they have totally no regards to her well being. My mother said she saw her still crying, i guessed she was shocked and scared ): Why does she have to go through all these? I pity her... But my sister didnt fight for her. I was always feeling lonely at home. It was Joyce who made me feel less lonely sometimes with her random trips to my room. Sometimes she will carry her push car into my room and just leave it here. LOL. Sometimes she will come into my room and just smile :D Hahaha thinking about it just make my day :) Her laughter is priceless! In about a few months time, she will be really leaving our house and going to her father side to stay /: I dont know when i will see her again or will she still remember this family or me, but i hope she will grow up to be a good girl ! She haven even learned how to talk, i wanna hear how her voice sounded like (: I bet my parents would like to hear it too!

Today went to YTSS for class outing! Vivien and minqi bought pizza for the outing and we chatted and talked wait i go sleep first ........... Ok i am back! Ok so first we arrived in school and eat the pizza, then we gathered around and chat abit before the running man games vivien ho and min qi organised starts. Was pretty excited as they pasted the name tag on my shirt! Hahaahh So then cos theres only 4 boys, they split the four boys and made 2 boys the captain of the team. Me and Ashwin were in the same group and norres and Khai is in another. So we get to choose our team mates first, i chose Jiayee, Marie, Yvonne, Michelle, Geraldine and the other team chose Suvitra, Nisa, Huishi, Audrey. The first part of the game will deicide who will be the seeker or hider of the game! We have to run a short distance like the shutter run and we have to run to the other side and finish a drink and then run back to win the game! I represent our team to be the runner and the other chose Khai. then so the race starts and i ran like hell ! I was the first to reach and i gobbled down the drink till i choked! I drank it damn fast cos i thought khai may be quite fast but when i finished the drink and went back, he still haven finish his drink LOL they added tomato or chill sauce into our milo drink lol i only realised it upon reaching the finishing line. But i won and we chose to be the seeker. tbc.............

Yoyo ! Yesterday just ended work in Uniqlo~ Quite happy cos i finally gret to rest after 13 days straight of work! Very exhausting but i recover fast (: Really gonna miss the Uniqlo staffs like Hafiq, Hafeez, ming Da, Bob and the rest la! They really made us feel as though we belong there even though we are just temp staff! Departure sucks /: Then after work went to meet H?an long to drink and lepak. Then we went to the hill top to slack then when we went to the toilet, we suddenly heard some moaning sound coming from the handicapped toilet! LOL. I was showing the epic face to han long because he didnt notice it at first! Then he climbed on top to peek first then followed by me haha! Ok abit sick la /: Then i also climbed and i saw............. ya LOL okay la, then we slack slack then jiu went home le! What a day!

Have been working for 8 days straight now. Dan tired have to keep cattying heavy chunks of boxes and stuff around.. 4 more days till my work end and i will have freedom ~ Its been long since i last ball.. and i need more sleep.

Imagine your plans 2 or 3 years later suddenly having to push forward and have to face everyrhing and adapt to everything. Ever have that?

I dont think i will be anyone's type of guy they wanna be with.
Everytime i see couples walking down the streets, i thought to myself, will i find my another half someday?
Haha, sounds funny i know.

Woke up to a miss call from the recruit agency.
So i called back and they told me they found a job for me at Uniqlo somerset 313.
The pay is low but i agreed to it immediately as i dont want to miss out this chance.
Hmmm going to go broke soon so i just dont want to be too picky so i just accept it.
Its everyday from June 1st to June 13th 3pm-10pm. Hope everything is ok tmr.

Then after  that i rushed from Tampines to Dover SP to celebrate my friend's birthday ~
Been so long since i saw them!
They all rushing and stressing on assignment.. /:
Okay, it's junjie birthday and Yi xuan invited me to school to celebrate his birthday ~~

haha it was fun! I took a piece of cake and smash on his face LOL
Ok la! Hope they score well for their assignment cos they really work very hard for it! (:

 

Okay, after coming back from SP, I went back to YTSS to get my testimonial from school.

The security guard the indian woman one like v friendly sia.

Didnt expect her to be so.

So i went in and suddenly, when i was walking towards the general office, i looked around me, the school where i used to be. Everything seems so close and familiar but yet with a sense of unknown foreign feeling. It's like telling us we dont belong there anymore despite those time we spent in that school. 

So when i entered the general office, the place changed le, now we must walk right all the way to reach the reception counter.

Then i saw Mr Jackson. 

LOL, my arch enemy in YTSS. 

He everytime kp me for nothing.

I remember there's one time when i have my shirt tucked out and i walked past him and he called me to tuck in my shirt but i just walk away and ignore him.

Then he flared up and shouted :" Hey i call you to tuck in your shirt right?! Come with me to see the DM now!" 

LOL got so serious meh?

Seriously, i wasnt feeling scare at all then i just followed him. 

I  have not been called up by teacher to go see DM for a very very long time since sec 2 when i fought with Kelvan. 

So i was wondering what will it be like.

Then i just followed him and unexpectedly, we walked by Mr Lee Ah Liat!

He like damn good to me >.< 

So sad now he leave school le );

But anyway Mr Lee asked me and the teacher to go over and he helped me by confronting the teacher and ask him not to send me to DM >.<................... 

SO TOUCHED !!!

Then the stupid teacher released me and walked away.

WOW ~~~ Then Mr Lee actually helped me in alot of things.

Like i lack of a CCA teacher to sign my form that time when i wanna go Perth. 

Mr low doesnt want to sign (as Teacher in charge of volleyball)

then since i have been helping out in Green club ( in charge by Mr Lee Ah Liat), Mr lee without a doubt he just say come down and find me, i will help you sign ))))))))))):

OMG i cannot explain how i was feeling at tht point of time...

I am really very grateful towards him ...

i seriously dont know what to say.

Haha ok back to the main topic, so i just do some admin stuff then get my testimonial le :D