Xmas

Heyyy ~ its been long since I blogged. Busy with open house prac for fbodz. Life is ok so far but still contented. Went to joanna house on the 23th for a small xmas gathering

Been trying too hard for dance. Always feel as though I am not good enough,  like I am nothing in fbodz. I wanna be something.  But I am tired.

If you want something in your life you never had, you’ll have to do something you have never done.

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YOYOYO ~

Its been log since i blogged.
My life is pretty good lately and i can say i am really happy with my life now.
Just had a lunchtime performance with my fbodz mate at teck ghee cc and pm lee hsien lnog is there ~
Did quite badly but overall experience is good. Zowell helped me to put on some makeup and she made me damn chio LOL

Movie

Had an amazing impromptu movie date with sam . We watched Carrie and it was pretty terrible ~.~  overall it was fun ~

Je 2

Foreign bodies junior exam 2 is finally over! Damn happy haha. Hopefully I will have more freee time to myself to work :( and relax :)
It was a tough time doing all the je 2 stuffs. But overall it was memorable and nice experience. Learned alot and know what im weak at.

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Having junior exam 2 for foreign bodies soon. Damn busy sia. My work is interrupted thanks to the prac. Performance is also coming up soon and there will be more prac then usual :( really damn.... thanks to je 2 I have to compromise our kpop competition and alot of stuffs also... damn.

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No more kpop dance competition.
... feel so .... cheated. Everything is already decided and they made me excited like a kid. Ive always been looking forward to this. Just one simple message could just end everything. Maybe then its my fault, for not choosing the correct person. Then maybe its my fault, for not knowing more people who are into kpop amd join our group. Then maybe its my fault, to think of this stupid idea of forming a kpop dance group for competition.  I am so fucking dumb. Every thing is my fault. Everything around me is falling apart. The same old stuffs. Friends, relationship everything. I always question myself why ive got no true friends? Am I really that bad? I keep finding faults in me because its not only the first time. Its my fault right? I am not a really good friend. Hard person to communicate with. I really just want a really good friend who I can trust. I am always on my bed. Hi-bye friends. Backstabbers. Whats new. I am such a failure.

Foreign bodies prac 29/8

Today we learned some new techniques for prac. Improved on my isolation and realised how long I have not done iso. And also alot of basics are missed out too. Was so bloody tired but its ok ~ get to know my junior exam 2 group mates and they are bowen, asleah, zowell,  si pei and yosh! I really like this grouping becos i want to work with people I dont know very well! New spark might be born haha.

First day of work

First day of work at the sushi bar in FEP. It was veey tiring as they are really short of manpower. When customers ask me things regarding the sushi I really got no idea how tk answer hahaa. It was a daily paid job. I recieve my money as the end of the work ^^

Last paper last day of exams

Yoooo today is the last day of exams which is the pom paper!! ^^ it was a disaster ~.~ fufillingoooo also didn't study and what's over is over alr...time to look forward to the holidays and work even harder to improve myself. Look better and hopefully financially stronger too. I also wanna gain weight till 70kg and become very buff ^^
This holiday will be a improvement holiday for me. Better lifestyle and more self esteem. But first I will need to work and get money first haha.

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So after the POM exams we had a surprise belated birthday for gilson ^^

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After that we went to eat at poppeye and went to play pool ^^ it was a very fun and fufilling

Day as i laughed and joke alot haha. Nice day to end off the exam week. 

Microecons final ica

Damn I am fked for tmr microecons paper... all the terms is not getting into my head. Last min work again. .. so many things to rmb. Stats was easy and I also revised last min. Poa today was pretty nerve wreaking, quite tricky, hope I get pretty good marks. Microecons tmr, zero confident. ..hai

Stats ica 2

Damnnn I haven really completed studying for statistic. .. really hope I can at least get a b+! So I placed my stats notes under my pillow hoping for thw better ^^ nights!

'Spring' cleaning

So today will be the day I am clearing my secondary scholl stuffs. Loads of memories. Rmember I always dread doing filing as I will alqays have one or two worksheets missing lol. Then some subjects even require us to put divider and arrange them according to date/ test/revision/ etc. Will be keeping some worksheets for memories!

Today is the last day of the semester. Time to reflect what I have done and could have done better. First, I shouldn't keep worrying about how others think of me. Damn I am always tired and falling during lectures. I must hav enough rest and try to go school earlier so I wont miss lectures.
Thats all I can think of haha.

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 Damn today went to ask my ec for number.  Damn ps sia. Tio humiloated. Worst feeling ever in front of so many people. I feel so small... hai a day to rmb though. ..

There's always people talking bad about me. I treated them all so well and this is how they treat me. Tsk. Trust no one.

Preparing to go for TBG now! Excited!Cant wait to see my Foreign bodies friends! Still got projects undone and tests not studied ):

Hi, I am Zhe Hao now i will be sharing with you why foreign labour are necessary in singapore. There are four main reasons why foreign labour are necessary in Singapore and that is to strengthen our workforce, their attitude while working, to help companies to build up their business and to motivate Singaporeans to work harder.

Firstly, I will talk about how the foreign workers helped Singapore to strengthen our workforce. Singapore have been experiencing a decline of birth rate since the 80s and this caused a shortage in number of manpower resulting in the government bringing in more foreign labour for support. Foreign labour help to fill in on our shortage of manpower and solving labour shortage problems in some job industry like cleaning and construction work. The foreign workers have no troubles taking up all these jobs but Singaporeans wouldn't as they have a lot of ego and pride and they think these are the ‘low-class’ job.  They helped us to strengthen our workforce so as to make sure we don't fall behind other countries in terms of development.

With them filling up the shortage of manpower, it will definitely help Singapore to progress forward and support Singapore towards being a more developed country. If Singapore become more developed, its economy will improve and it will eventually benefit most Singaporeans at some point. Despite all that, Singaporeans does not really appreciate what the government is trying to do and instead, they complain about it.  

The arrival of foreign labour to Singapore might be disliked by many singaporeans but we cannot deny that foreign labour had contributed a lot to help singapore in it’s development, without them, Singapore won't be where it is now.

Secondly, foreign workers are very hardworking and motivated.This can be due to the fact that they have come all the way from their hometown to Singapore hoping to get  better job with a better income to send money back to their family at their hometown.If they doesn’t work hard, then their trip to Singapore will in vain. This attracts employers to hire them as they have a goal, people with goal are usually more motivated.

Thirdly, companies who just started operating can consider hiring foreign workers as they are paid much lesser than Singaporeans. Companies or business that are just starting out might not have a lot of capital so they can reach out to foreign workers. Moreover, foreign workers don't mind low income this is because, compared to the income they are earning back at their hometown, it is still much higher to be working in Singapore. With the company paying out lesser salaries to their workers, they will incur lesser expenses and generate more profit for the business, who wouldn't want that?

Furthermore, singapore has a declining birth rate. In other words, there would not be enough manpower to support the country in the future.As such the Governement tried to entice these foreign workers to  come here and work.Should the living and work conditions be satisfying to them,they might decide to stay in Singapore and build a family.This will then help to contribute to the population in Singapore.

Lastly, I feel that the increase in foreign workers helps to increase competition for Singaporeans.Foreign workers pose as a threat to Singaporeans as they are afraid they might lose their jobs to the foreign workers.As such,there is a need for Singaporeans to work harder.The increase competition will help to boost Singapore economy because Singaporeans are more motivated to work and to do well.

Overall, reasons why Singapore need foreign labour to be brought into Singapore, as they are essential to strengthen our workforce,  helps companies to build up their business,and to motivate Singaporeans to work harder.

Next, my friend Suriani will share with you the reason why foreign labour are not necessary needed in singapore.

Studies :(

Falling behind in studies. Projects piling up. Damn. Whyy alson whyyy. Did I nake the wrong decision to come back to study? I cant seem to focus and study anymore. Even though I did well for the first part of sem 1 but I dont think I can maintain.
Int and web quiz - 22/30
Poa presentation - A
Microecons - 28/30
Oral - B
So far its like that.
Need to really focus focus and FCOUS!
TAHAN one more month then can relax le!

Temp work at Kraze burger

ytd I went for a temp job at Kraze burger at MBS. Damn far right.
I was so nervous as recently i wasnt feeling very confident lol.
But overall the job was ok, it was very busy and can see that they really lack manpower!
thanks to my experience in Brewerkz, i was able to get it right away as brewerkz is alaways harder than any FNB job! Got 2 free meals there and the burgers is awesome! I ordered Chicken burger. The people there are great and i hope i will go back there to work again ~

Fbodz prac friday 5/7

Have been looking forward to this day for very long!

I got a new family in NYP and they are the Foreign Bodies! ^^ 

this is our fbodz camp group and we have slowly grown closer through prac and outings. We all have dance as common interest, will be looking forward to the first performance with them! ^^

Anyway Fbodz training was awesomeeeee ~

It was tiring and damn.

But i still enjoyed it.

A senior from the 8th batch jin wen came back to teach us some basics and also to do some splits! Haha, i couldnt even do shit man! But i will practise hard to do it! I am known as the hard man and I have failed my napfa sit and reach -.- will be breaking out of my comfort zone to do it!

Doing Internet and web webapge ICA project.

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Been busy with work, dance and studies. Alot of projects coming up stress!
Haven even finish any of it. As a leader for all the projects; pom, econs and internet and web I feel so useless. I wish I can take more initiative to org meetings and finish it up asap.

Good things never happen, that's why I must work harder. So at the end of the day, at least I can tell myself I've tried my best.

Damn.

Sometimes I see a pretty girl looking at me, I will just shake it off. Thinking she might not be looking at me or I am just looking weird. I will never think anyone will be interested to even look at me.

Tough and tiring.
Having alot of projects coming up and I am trying my best not to wait till the last minute to do. Ive always trying my best, never giving up. But wished there was someone by myself cheering me on, not just me myself cheering mr up; encouraging myself.  Its so tiring. Wished I wasnt alone in the first place. Sigh..

Today went for SU Camp!
Was ok la, abit boring.
Sarcfise my assignment time for it ): zzz

What comes easy, won't last. What lasts, won't come easy.

Yo
it is going to be the mid term already! Time flies!
Not being able to cope with studies haha ^^
But at least I am stll holidng on
Having troubles to study lately, cant seem to focus and got no motivation
AND BY THE WAY, I GOT INTO FOREIGN BODIES!
WOO HOO
I went for the second audition and mentioned to get in tgt with my classmate Lala!
Was so happy ^^
Looking forward to the next foeign bodies practise!

Hi waddup life.
It's being long since i updated my blog.
Everything have being a roller coaster ride so far.
Dont even know what im doing.
I've got my second chance here right at my hand but I am just wasting it away.
Feel so lazy to even start on my work and projects. On top of that I dont even understand most of the stuffs taught. Always leave work till last minute to be done and staying up late and eventually feeling very tired the next day and cant focus in class.
Damnnnn.
I need a change meh.

Went for foreign bodies dance audition today. Waited for like  5 hours til its my turn. Feelinghhungry amd tired I screwed up my audition fking badly. I just stood there my mind went blank. I was so dishearten. I couldn't believe history repeated itself again...
What the fk is wromg with me.why am I not up to challenge. It was something I believed I was good at...now im good at nothing. Feeling damm fk up. Practised for like 2-3 hours till I am fuckkng drained. Could have gone home to work on my oral presentation. Judt feel real damn fk up. It have always been lkke this. I always screw up. Why...dance is my life.
My drive in life seems to be gone.

Sometimes I wish I was from a more well-off family.
Myabe I dont have to work as hard and enojy life more.
Why do I work so hard..
I am so tired, I dont think i can take it anymore. I am my own pillar of strength but I can hold on anymore.

yesterday was the first day of nyp orientation. it qas not bad.  just very hot lol. the classmates were fine too. going tk sleep early now damm tired.

Hi ~
Going to sleep soon tmr morning working morning shift again ~.~
Had thoughts of quitting Rubi but it seems too many people are quitting so I thoguht maybe i should hold it off? At least do them a favour.
Because I thought I wouldnt like the new SM but in the end, shes not that bad! At least better than Angela, at least she wont scold people for no reason. And I just thought, maybe i might just want to continue working there? Hah.
Have been working extra hard to earn money, hopefully in a few months time, I will get all my wants and still be able to payback my parents.
Excited for school to start, cant wait to know more people (girls). Hopefully I wont waste this chance again.
And today i just redyed my hair (: It was then I realised my back hair wasnt bleached properly (after many months) so the purple wont stick to my hair that well and doesnt stand out. Overall the purple tone varies all over my hair lol.
#randomthoughts.

Very tiring handling private matters.. hoping everything will end soon.

Very excited for school to start! Thats when i can get to know more friends and my new life begins!
Even though NYP is like not a v happening school but it gave me a second chance. I will never waste this chance again...
I will work hard to get good grades and be a better person (:

Something big happened today.
Got to leave chalet abruptly.
Didnt know everything would escalate so fast.
I will protect my family no matter what.
I wont let my mistake affect them.

People who are truly strong is always laughing when whey want to cry. They endure all of the pain and sorrow while laughing with everybody else.

 

Hi ~
I just got a letter saying i got into NYP 1 week ago >.<
I was so damn happy ~
I got into Business management!

Hi all ~ Just got a new job in Clarke Quay DYO! Deisgn Your Own! It's like a custom t shirt design shop and most importantly, its daily pay! So shiok sia. Took up this job because i am short of money. But still working at rubi though. Work is pretty simple, sit down there and use the machine and quite relax also, not like rubi cant use phone or what. Working at Clarke reminds me of my Brewerkz tough days /: Now when i think back its actually quite fufilling. Walked past the restaurant and saw some familiar faces, Bruce, Lotus, Pok and Bryan. But sadly none of them rmb me and they act very hard to act as though they rmb me lol. Hmmm these few days had been rough, but tough tie will pass tough man will last! JIA YOU ZHE HAO!

HAPPY NEW YEAR ~~ Yeserday went to rich's house for cny. Met Shamir, Vinesh and norres to go. there's alot of people at rich house sia. Damn happening LOL At first went to his room to play ps3 thn went out to play Blackjack with his friends. Lost all the way from the beginning till the end. Damn suey sia. Then in the end i stopped playing le. It was fun overall, his parents realyl knows how to entertain guests and were very friendly (: The rest of my cny i spent mostly sleeping LOL.

Jan 18 2013 Went out with my Rubi friends for supper and they surprised me with a cake! Didnt expect it thou. Really grateful for them! Thought nobody was going to celebrate with me. Then a few days later NEST have a outing and we went out with everyone bringing one food of theirs and we met at Woodlands waterfront. Had fun and catchup session with them. It's been so long since we had seen each other.

2012-2013 summary ~

Hello ~ Long time no blog le! alot of things i wanna blog about but I am so lazy ;p Firstly i want to talk about my deferment. Was happy that i was deferred from NS. Now I must realyl choose the course i want carefully. The admission of DAE starts already but I still haven research on the course i want even though i have a few on my mind. I am just scare that i might choose the wrong course again and just escaping. I didnt want to choose one so fast, but if i dont do it in time, I will have to go NS ): Not even sure if I am able to get into the course i want also though. For the past few months i spent most of my time at Rubi. After quitting school i joined Rubi and have worked there since then. I learned alot there and get to know many friends (: I become a better and funnier person through working there. I become more open and more confident to talk to people, really grateful for my friends over there (: Yesterday was my birthday, didnt celebrate it cos i dont have any plans ): Was quite sad though. I spent my birthday at Rubi working as i dont want to stay at home and do nothing. At least i can keep myself busy and stop myself from thinking so much. Ya! And I dyed my hair slightly blond! Was really not used to it and when i go out people will keep staring.. ( cos its just so nice ) (: HAHA was really happy that my life is becoming better. Hope life doesnt come back and kick me in the ass! After dying blond, i will dye white and i will stay white awhile and then i will dye red (: I was abit hesitant about dying red as I scare it wont be nice >.< But i thought I only live and is only young once, why not try something new and daring? (Not YOLO) just got to be at your best at any given time so there will be no regrets and live life to the fullest. Only we ourselves can make us happy. Dont depend your happiness on someone else.